Only an alchemic brew of elemental blue flame would smoulder into the night. Knowing better than to lick the surface, burning the hottest in the core of an ember, beneath the ash. Do not touch me, do not try to put me out. srsly cbf writing lyk dat no mo so slicing it up into a graphic novel. you can’t counterfeit that kind of isolation.

not even me at my most arcane, gothic and archaic by any means, but it’s probably the corpus of work that is the most powerful in wordsmithery this entire page is beyond semiotic compass of like 99% of people. but i like that, chilling on clonazepam reading old works is just like wo, my brain was going pretty fast.

the prestige of magic in it’s black form was only used to frighten those who could not use it. i wouldn’t be shook by my ravishingly grim tone. i’m a pretty colourful person. but i prefer the vine entangled, bramble path to a rotting oak door with eros ion and decay because people are less likely to want to come in. and that’s what i want. only someone worthy would enter the haunt. to realise it’s colourful and nothing like the exterior.

and i’m very like that. if you can’t see past the magic, then you’re weak. i said this in a previous thread. this layer means fuck all to me. i don’t give a vehement blunt incision of a black plague blade anymore about giving people floaty hallucinatory waves, nothing like that. it’s nought but putting someone on a lower freq

uency under your spell. it’s all about the resilient phantom, the ghost, the spectre. the haunted afterglow of consciousness and existing alongside near tunings that are immune to weaker magic.

all it is, dreamweaving. constantly hallucinating, spellbound under someone else’s loom and warp. i can consciously choose to be induced into a chosen nurture, in a lucid state. but most people are prone to hypnotic toxicity in the unconscious ocean. your magic is of use here. and that’s the vibe with me, with the community i exist in too.

my stream of consciousness would be explicitly cult status by now if i had chosen to project it to people that would have been spellbound by it. that’s what is amusing. grimmoir..grammar. spell books..book of spells. psyche warp. i’d prefer to awaken than place people under sleep. and unveiling that level of consciousness is pure dread. am i unwell? yeah. i’m very unwell. definition of wellbeing..being blind. hallucinating. i’m seeing things very clearly, and that’s why i suffer, and that’s why i deaden my senses.

that’s why i get good scripts. because they read out of a book, and i spit venom from the serpent blade like they can’t fathom in a thousand leagues. all they can say is are you low. are you elevated. perhaps you should take some anti-psychotics. and i’m like how about you take them. have you? or do you read journals about test subjects that have. i’m not taking them, i refuse to. if the world starts looking like a 2D warp on a piece of paper and starts glitching out, i’ll reach for them then.

and trust me, that’s happened before. it’s pattern recognition. and i spit raw stream of consciousness because fuck writing some watered down filtered trash. fuck that. this is real writing. i’m not out to be some hypno angel that causes hallucinatory waves. i channeled it. this might be maximalist intensity literature but in person i’m junked out on meds like sup. i’d like to think it’s just as cathartic to read as it is to write. because everyone fucking hates this normative lie.

it’s straight up tribal data. fuckem. establish new norms. code the binary. the only reason it’s submerged is because people are cowards. i’m not that good at anything else. this is how i be. semiotics. the study and interpretation of signs and symbols. it’s what we all do anyway. i just articulate it through the english language. extensively.

i only respect people that are painting expressionism. i don’t really care anymore that you can paint a perfect picture. i want to see what you really see. because it ain’t foolin me and some people with a blank page can’t do this. they would hit a brick wall within five minutes.

words are candy. it’s digital heroin. you have to love them. they activate consciousness in a way that music, art..nothing else can.

i’m cruising. i revisited some old writing here but that’s just to show the depths of arcane, archaic and gothic downpour. fuck all that. i’m about that candy gloop. just like a lone gonzo gal in an atomic dungeon rolling digi punk on some bubblegum ghoul phonk gloom surge through urban aquatic gaslamp murkispheres. this world, it’s weird. i did a couple of months of threads explaining a lot of things. i’d say 1/3 people read 1/8 passages. our history is a lot stranger than people could ever imagine. just take a look, a glance. and you’ll see that. we’re told nothing.

the thing about words, is that they mean nothing unless you weave them together. i have no idea what people have attached to words individually in their vocabulary. i don’t actually know what words mean to other people. buzzy/trippy ae

you have to be emotionally invested in words for them to work. you can glance at them and they mean absolutely nothing sometimes. it’s like when you uh..read a book. you sink into pages, and you get lost. and it takes you away for a time. i prefer to write quite fruitful tangle. it’s complicated but you don’t have to read as much of it generally to receive the effect. so many writers are about the padding material around a couple of good passages. which is why i like poetry. and i primarily write in it. but i don’t associate with poetry circles. it’s rubbish. poets are pretentious as all hell.

a good writer is isolated. and is dissociative of their work beyond that realm. i associate primarily with other creatives. but it’s rarely with other writers. 3/4 of the time i like to be alone. why? because i’m a busy person. that might be over a month, a week, or a day.

musings personally only come from the most obscure things. i’m not mentally phased about factory preset off the conveyor belt and into a box for mass distribution mindset. it’s like putting a screwdriver in your temple and walking around with an icepick out the side of your head having to deal with that. on the general consensus, i hate people.

i like it when people speak their mind. everyone is an artist, and everyone is a writer. and to me, the best art comes from unlearned people. because they are not under constraint of parameters they’ve fallen under yet to please a particular audience. and even the most learned of artist will find they have to unlearn what know to progress.

who are my influences? illiterate people. mentally deranged people. creatively free people/

so what is seen as entropy and fall to someone, to me is progress. i see poetry and writing all the time and think well, that’s rubbish. who’s my favourite writer? i am.

why? because i write what i want. and no one writes it how i see it. if i can articulate things that resonate with other people, then that’s cool. because i’m only connected with people i respect. and i only care about respect. if there is no mutual feeling, then i’d prefer you weren’t privy to my words. you don’t deserve them.

i hope majority of the world drowns in some cataclysmic event. fuckem. i don’t care about the population. you won’t catch me in a bar at 3am spinning this kind of narrative. but bless the souls that do. this is my hypothetical drunken scurvy tyrannical venom. but it’s inked into my soul and if you can’t read that and be like yup, you’re not my kind of pers … because in a physical sphere, my inner circle consists of only the best people. serpent venom blade IV: apocalypse i’d love to write comics and shit but i prefer stream of consciousness. i don’t just add anyone i know into here. that’s why i changed my name. people can’t find me. and those that do, i rarely let them in. when i flow, people duck for cover. people that don’t flinch, i’ll buy you a drink.

everyone are experiencing overlapping hallucinations. they bleed into each other, nourish the next. perception is a labyrinth. i’ve said this numerous times. this layer means fuck all to me. i don’t give a vehement blunt incision of a black plague blade anymore about giving people floaty hallucinatory waves, nothing like that. it’s nought but putting someone on a lower frequency under your spell. it’s all about the resilient phantom, the ghost, the spectre. the haunted afterglow of consciousness and existing alongside near tunings that are immune to weaker magic.

all it is, dreamweaving. constantly hallucinating, spellbound under someone else’s loom and warp. i can consciously choose to be induced into a chosen nurture, in a lucid state. but most people are prone to hypnotic toxicity in the unconscious ocean. your magic is of use here. and that’s the vibe with me, with the community i exist in too.

my inner circle are outcasts, outsiders, loners, freaks. and i love them. what i hate more than anything is people trying to gypsy that style. like it is a style. fuck off. everyone has their own strain, and i don’t judge it by scenes. i never have, and i never will. it’s all about the essence of authenticity.

holler at me for cloud storage decryption key(s) tho. i can link full folders of documentaries, shows, film, .pdf’s of e-books and journals, manga, comics, emulators, game files, music, lecture slides, presentations and audiobooks, podcasts and various other digital trinkets. my cloud game is crazy cause i’m paranoid about HDD unreliability.

Lucid Archaeopteryx Esper data layers of when i was like 18-20 are pretty dope. i’m kind of flowing that decade loop atm.

Lucid Archaeopteryx Esper i see that vision and i’m just like, nothing has changed. how many years, months, days, hours, seconds can pass and still be straight back in some damp haunt, on some grunge studio vibes at 4am and know that i’m the same person. wiser, sure..but i didn’t change. never will.

Lucid Archaeopteryx Esper 87600 hours. most of them were spent in agony, trauma, torment, pain..suffering. but that’s where i can say that it never gets any easier. not unless you’re willing to hallucinate something that isn’t real. stay true, even to the point of death.

Lucid Archaeopteryx Esper the mist chain around a nihil effigy is inbetween dreams of a gutter angel. the infinity asphyx in grey elysium is inland scurvy of a forbidden poetry. spells are written. the church of the fallen is a damp haunt. the septic blossom from an anemic rose.

Lucid Archaeopteryx Esper deep meditation is enlightenment. but only a hallucination of a short vacation from hell. home is where the heart is, and it’s cold. antarctica is warmth. afterglow shivers. no one ever stays perfect. balance is a virtue. but who judges the scales. written eclipse of the soul.

the power of a traditional shaman is based upon how many melodies and stories that you know.

natives describe it as television of the rainforest. educational imagery of nature. telepathic messages through the forehead, truths of reality, rationality, humanist views shattered and infinitely widened. shaman uses resonant frequencies in song to change dimensional levels. feelings of heightened awareness, intelligence and closeness to nature. socialisation determines generational tradition and pattern of thought within cosmology/world view. definitions of ‘quality of life’, ‘wellbeing and health’ truly is etc as a human..different evolved ways of living. no one true way of living as a human.

we are adjusting to laws of a state that encompasses a melting pot of different cultures attempting to restrain a state of anarchy, to keep citizens under control via their evolving cosmology world view and corresponding law system, which continues to alienate ways of life of many humans forced in exist under an increasingly totalitarian western world view system.

if it’s important, just call me or something. i won’t be checking my messages on here.

had to log in to contact someone, it’s futile to escape the zuckerberg machine god.

i have something that i want to say anyway. i wrote this for the real ones. thanks to the very few, important people in my life that are living in the same world as me, that i can share my experiences, works and time with and be understood – vice versa.

..and thanks to other acquainted individuals via various aspects of culture who either vicariously view the various professional and gonzo facets of my anthropological research and benefit from it in another form, perhaps living curiously enough to observe new worlds, or broaden perception and obtain structurally advanced layers of self, better compatible between diversity for small advances of progress and acceptance.

i respect the connections i have with people and what is shared and learned equally. anyone else, fuck them..they will never understand, and their ignorance is depriving them of impending realities and implications regarding the singularity in an age that transcends and accelerates us beyond our biological limitations into a synthetic frontier.

you fall into one of those categories – if you don’t, rather than complaining, coming to poorly researched conclusions about my character, exit this node of your network and back to your bubble. trust me, i’ve been alienated and exiled from more people

than i can remember anymore purely because of my inquisitory nature in my fields that subsequently transcends shallow wading into disconcerting waters for the cradled perhaps at times.

this is an interesting era of civilization, and this is my primary profession – studying humanity. i’ve kept most areas separated in respective independent indexed pages – and rarely use external drives to cloud information, that way – if you want to view past/recent works..you know where to find it. there is an ever evolving library, and archive portals can be found throughout. i’m forever creating, archiving – select random data hovering all over the place wildstyle but this thread compresses (most) of it in a relatively simple index to understand and navigate. compiled portals to sites and pages housing my digital brain junk in varied fields.

it’s an extension of self, perhaps attempting to synthesize and immortalize parts of me i know have and will dissolve. i know most people are very iOS/Android orientated in their web presence – so it isn’t seen in web format. hopefully though, which would make me happy..is that people can at their own leisure explore it, perhaps finding some of my works of interest.

my intention from day one was to create these unknown, lost corners of the web, a purposefully eroded platform to gather dust, and archaeologically be excavated not now – but in decades time, to see how their relevance was preserved. some people don’t think like this, but i do. i know setting markers in certain layers and preserving particular artifacts over timeframes – it will be appreciated when such archaeology’s endeavours become increasingly fragmented down the track without such introspective measures.

this was a hidden, unknown archive i planned to use for a platform for more than simply myself, beyond digital clouds..safekeeping copies and originals of creative work so people don’t have a psychotic meltdown and destroy it all or it gets lost or whatever.

i’ve found, there is always a lost period of an artist that is simply their most expressive, raw, an unrealised opus…then they become forced to produce product for profitability and their artistic identity was destroyed by capitalism and fame.

it’s never recognised, not even by them; especially not by them. the most difficult thing to do, is think something..then manifest that so someone accurately understands. when it ceases to be about that, it is no longer art. the artist is on a burning train ahead, derailing carriages of precious cargo with wild abandon.

the level that i process information and compute data is quite incomprehensible to even myself at times, since i often shift polarities rather radically. as an OS operator, i suppose i am post-human. that is cool though, i enjoy the philosophical concepts surrounding the biological limits of self being transcended by technology.

the idea of packaging a neat, pretty corpus of work and presenting it as a commercially viable product personally, destroys the passion, the expression, the cathartic raw bleeding of struggling creation. that’s why i like these unedited, unfiltered collections and see them as being sought after. record keeping is a part of culture. before extensive archiving took place – knowledge was preserved in oral tradition of passing down music, stories, artworks. that aspect is still the most important, because it is the raw material i have written of it extensively elsewhere. but early human’s tribal knowledge, ritual, tradition, custom – at it’s most basic, are still the foundations of our unfolding complex societies today.

record keeping still being precisely what makes us who we are at our roots – conscious, inquisitive and creative. these records are a testament to a distinctly unique universal reality – humanity on earth. how many facets are there to your construction? one cannot and should never be forced to present only one. it is unnatural and detrimental to holistic health. i shine, reflect, render transparent, obscure, shatter, and vandalise the apertures..yet all are merely external viewpoints of an interior you will never visit.

every time i create something really beautiful, i want to destroy it..so i vandalize the vicinity in disconcerted quiver. i destroyed myself, to set the bird imprisoned in my soul free. it wanted to fly, and something with wings should never be caged.

a nice way to close this, would be to say – value everything you do, because you are not to know it’s significance to whom, what time, or what. as above – we construct cradles, and we seek cradles.

nurture in the depths of the wound. we heal..and seek medicine for our own ailments. one cradle, does not fit all, one medicine, does not fix all. i doubt my life will have any effect on this world, but why not leave something behind that shows that i was alive. that’s where it isn’t about some quest of false idolism, money, anything superficial – i genuinely just like to see to that under the radar, there are archives catering for what isn’t being considered by these traditional institutions (yet) – culture is everything.

all this being said, the point of ambitions of building museum/gallery/archive platforms is for this data to be enjoyed. take comfort in rituals, and hey – if you’re passionate about something, you’re always going to be masochistic in the craft.

take comfort in rituals

appreciate and acknowledge good humans in your life. acquaintances come and go, scenes dissolve..times change, life happens. real friends become family.

i always thought for years i should hide who i am inside, or more so..what my mind wanted to conceptualise and manifest in fantasy, create expressionately in a liminal zone..but it really isn’t good to. there is always a reservoir that can be home to your volume while you attempt to grade over time and purify content in a stasis of becoming.

you almost have to be the circus and the ringmaster after a certain point. ringmasters have eyes everywhere, and the level between the lion, the freak show and the ringmaster is so that the acrobats balance it perfectly, and the ringmaster keeps watchful eyes upon outside of the circus grounds via various means, making sure that the circus is always one step ahead of those who wish to see it’s downfall to a system that it does not fit within.

for all my existentialist nihilism in vehement misanthropic disdain, i am far more spiritual than one would think beyond my critiques on varied subjects in literature and fantasy expressionism at my psyche’s core in regard to my pining in search of the unknown and invisible of the universe in correlation to self, our, and the rest of nature’s cellular structure and connectivity..

the centrism of our psyche and neural chemistry, energy flow and in turn, nature’s also, despite my logic, ration and reason regarding contemporary views.

content is broken down into volumes containing rough thought from past jots to elaborate from and help begin to lay bones and flesh out what the title intends from these stem cells, regardless of their survival in final script. these are categorized by various topics accessible at the portal above (many will overlap in discussion across sections like chapters, as they are all part of one view). other sections will concern culture articles, raw journal thought and refined academic essays. much writing has not been transferred to it’s rightful heading yet, lying in raw written sketches.

stream of consciousness is an art. i can write proper, but give someone a blank page and let me see what they can do, i’m certain their regurgitative state is unoriginal and ultimately stale.

i incorporate memoirs in memory blocks over time, piecing together a story of my deeper background, childhood and experiences in which intertwine with my perspective on everything, and connections of perhaps why i think the way that i do, and the wilderness that i traversed to reach where i reside, and continue to venture from today. my literature is not bound by shackles of tradition. get with the times, or fade out. we’re all dying slowly.

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i’m very effeminate in nature, violence is a last resort always because i only really see one true enemy but i have a switch for sure that if physically antagonised i’m not going to allow someone to walk away with unchecked. that’s why my art is import

ant. i would probably be a pretty angry person if i didn’t have the cathartic outlets that i do.violence has no end, and i’ve seen it happen. war dosen’t have an end point. not unless death is the goal. people are cowards. they’re more likely to be malicious behind your back and smile in your face.i hear it through the grapevine all the time. the night has a thousand eyes.

and they come up to me like we’re friends.what i’m saying is, say it to my face..and i’ll boot your kneecaps out. i’m not going to wait to spit on your grave.i have no time for inauthenticity. say something if you’re really about it. speak your mind, that’s what people are so shook about anyway.am i crazy? define that for me..because people do some pretty dumb shit, and i’m a pretty calculated person.maybe i am crazy, but you know what? i don’t give a fuck. if they want to see crazy..then i’ll show them crazy.i just respect people that are being real about things. the most fucked up people i know are in complete denial of it.my writing is prolific. and if you haven’t read it..then your opinion is completely invalid.if i think something about someone, then i’m probably just going to tell them how i see it, but it’s not going to be abusive.

i’m not an abusive person. constructive criticism is welcomed. but be prepared to have your tongue sliced off if you don’t come through correct.it’s a two way street with those people. i think they’re crazy. because A. they’re living in denial, B. they’re hallucinating a false reality and C. they’re unconsciously doing all sorts of things i consider insane.if you wear it on your sleeve, if you show yourself..i don’t give a fuck what it is, i respect you.i have zero tolerance for inauthenticity.do you know how much real work it required to tune my mind this way?

fuck a degree at some institution. done all that, it ain’t shit. in my 20’s the onset of mental illness came through. but i did something about it. most people would have killed themselves, destroyed themselves beyond repair.i know things that would make people feel like listening to nursery rhymes in a cradle. don’t test me.i’m a nice person, but don’t take that for granted. i don’t mind being seen as crazy but don’t ever..ever take me for a fool.i covered a lot, but not as much as i could. there are threads in this page that unveil things about this world most people couldn’t fathom.

there is more to it than such simple, basic, shallow, weak thought like this.i’m a valiant person. i run on respect. i’m not in the slightest bit worried about recognition from anyone but those that i in turn respect.this isn’t a public page. i scared off so many people. and i love that. people not worth knowing. weak souls. low level consciousness. live curious, explore unchartered territories vicariously.

i’m not going to get too serpent tongue on it ever with someone, but idle hands are incarnate satan and they’ll hit you where it hurts more than any physical wound ever could.

a grimmoir, book of spells. that’s completely literal. grammar, spelling that with incantation can change someone’s consciousness. magic. the trinity. visual, sound, knowledge. you put those three together and it’s exactly what you get. i cen b yuor angle or yuor devel

sticks and stones will break my bones but words will never hurt me. keep telling yourself that. words h u r t but they also heal. so tell me it’s not magic.

Seventeen living in a car. The album was supposed to be a lot different. It could have sounded like this Burial as an artist for not creating a majority of his own synthesis he is incredible at selecting and manipulating/masking samples. I thought i had picked up on/read about his sample analysis debunked but one just came out of the blue in listening to a soundtrack, it is a motif i would distinctly associate with him too. He is an expressionist painter, and sees creating sound far different to a musician of traditional sense.

This is an advantage when there is no rules to break when you don’t come from discipline, to isolate yourself from restriction of singular genre/discipline and allow yourself to be influenced and create in a unique fashion. There are far better (better is a subjective term also, professional is probably a slightly better word, technical perhaps..but in terms of his sound veering off of equal temperament i think those words are subjective to their adequacy here too..) musicians, and beat makers out there than him..but very few evoking the same emotive that his form of expressionism did in his catalog, especially in the era of it’s release..and impression it had on young producers/listeners. I could certainly go far further in depth, a whole paper on the analysis of his work. The ear for certain scales, (de)tuning and subtleties is remarkable. Certainly an artist like eno/aphex/BoC/flylo and many others who have veered other artists off equal temperament.

I love edvard munch, these days it’s easier to find emotive in so many other things in the Internet age, it depends on where your mind lies emotionally, and the stability..but avant garde art culture like this for its time however, the expression of an xiety, despair, alienation, jealousy, trauma and general melancholic existential dread through varied styles like post impressionism, symbolism and nouveau to actually achieve his form of expressionism through his chosen depictions was powerful. I see burial and this birth of sound as being a great modern day expressionist work. This can be attributed to much post 2000’s bedroom producer culture as a pining and homage to cultures that they missed out on, wished to be a part of..want to revive and renew, relive etc..creating such conceptual movements in physical isolation, spinning form in motion through labyrinth of the web. This ‘IDM’ music stemmed from rave cultures, being a way out from the looper culture of this sound, naturally forming a progression outward, digitally into the unknown. The age of neo-cultures. I could certainly accredit my life still being intact between 2006 – 2013 to Burial’s work. Words cannot express how his music truly cradled and changed my life in a time that those atmospheric worlds were home. If he did not define an era of your life , he certainly did for someone that you know, be that a friend, an artist, perhaps even the artist the artist you admire looks up to; looked up to burial. I have great respect for many artists and their effect on culture, on myself. Undertaking such sonic excavations are immense when it comes to definitively cataloging sound. However when you are choosing music that are not DJ tools, top 40 hits or party anthems and selection is based upon powerful emotive effect foremost. Burial, undoubtedly among heads will be the first word of their tongue if they understand true depths and extremities of feeling, and how truly difficult that is to translate from the mind. Read these interviews, and dive deep into his discography, with good headphones..alone. In the car, on a bus, train..walking on a dark night..in your bedroom with your eyes closed and the door locked. Burial’s music is expressionist art, not DJ tools, or of any other category. they are canvases painted with the smouldering ashes of music scenes, culture and burning realities of life. Environment is key when it comes to listening to sound. As is state of mind – every song has a perfect environment..be that physical or mental. It is never going to feel the same, all the time. It may never feel the same again..but the memory of how it did feel, perhaps is enough. Resonance came far before any other discernable form of language, it is arguably the essence of the universe so, any language other than pure resonant form beyond written is undeniably the ultimate form of expressionate truth within self. A universal l anguage decipherable uniquely, akin to a coherent, understood linguistic word arrangement in emotive, though sung in jibberish perhaps. Anything else, an obsolete endeavour toward an identical or similar particular goal. To put it simply, words fail. Regardless of the smithery..as that, if you study the phonebook, is commonplace. much as the semiotics of digital imprint might i add can be relatable to modern day hieroglyphs in their literal or metaphorical forms. Words are a bane, but they are so important too. Semiotics is a complex world, and development of further and refined methods in communication over time than, and within the english language in the digital age is accessible more than ever before. That could be argued that absolutely anything you do is a vibration of this though, resonating form. What is considered conceptual of a portrait or landscape of what, and if it is ever a mirror image at all. It becomes whatever you want to it be, once to remove the taxonomy of labels and markers. It becomes as creepy as functioning eyes without a face. Interpretation is never pure, it is always stained by something externally, even if it was not intended by a name, description or accompaniment. If people didn’t bunch up in little corners afraid of change and merging with other things. it’s difficult to convince others..So many people refrain from releasing or creating what they really want to create because of the possible implications becaus e of certain conventions of respective genres communities they are associated with. Some cultures will just evolve inside themselves without need or want to merge, but there are always break away acts, and people who will draw from other cultures whether they would like to admit it or not. It is not of every soul’s essence, or every human’s brain chemistry to enjoy a particular genre, or track. Not everyone’s equation at a given time is going to neurally become pleased by this. but perhaps, later they have the potential after some neurological, spiritual change in life experience that they do enjoy/appreciate it like you do. It is certainly strange what attracts, arouses and stimulates us as humans, because it vastly differs. It is amazing also when people attach to a certain era of their art to their being, not knowing they too..are formless and will change. A new directi on in art does not take away from the art they did create then. The contemplative, reflective era..the realisation..the actualisation and projection of a project is relative to eternal life sequence. Each breath comes with it’s own environment. i coined the term nü-idm-fwd>> as being a way to describe this music. artists who are constantly pushing forward with a new style of intelligent (post) electronica. as happens with music, the same goes with my writing. you can pour your soul into your art, but if you talk to me in person i’m probably not going to register that kind of emotive. that’s our art.

Text half the day, most days i’m piecing together what seems at times like having had just lived a fractured month in a few hours. this layer means fuck all to me. i don’t give a vehement blunt incision of a black plague blade anymore about giving people floaty hallucinatory waves, nothing like that. it’s nought but putting someone on a lower frequency under your spell. it’s all about the resilient phantom, the ghost, the spectre. the haunted afterglow of consciousness and existing alongside near tunings that are immune to weaker magic. all it is, dreamweaving. constantly hallucinating, spellbound under someone else’s loom and warp. i can consciously choose to be induced into a chosen nurture, in a lucid state. but most people are prone to hypnotic toxicity in the unconscious ocean. your magic is of use here. and that’s the vibe with me, with the community i exist in too. my stream of consciousness would be explicitly cult status by now if i had chosen to project it to people that would have been spellbound by it. that’s what is amusing. grimmoir..grammar. spell books..book of spells. psyche warp. i’d prefer to awaken than place people under sleep. and unveiling that level of consciousness is pure dread. i did write this in a spectral sphere of good energy so my inner circle is levels. that’s just generally how i feel about hypno angel vibes that’s just how i float. ambient hell vol. IV – mezzanine view that moon is pretty mysterious. just cruising outside staring at it about to go out. i’m not actually listening to this music it’s just an autism spectrum pattern blip cause i’m bored. just a generally interesting minor lens on intelligent sonic art at the moment. i’m interested in how people speak through music, and there is just so much regurgitation it’s vile to watch. so when i see something authentic breaking thresholds, limit b ursting, exploring new territory it’s obvious. and no one is going to understand it properly. it’s so under the radar. but you find the people that do find it, are generally very intelligent people. it’s basement, warehouse, vast space music. you don’t listen to something like that quietly. i just don’t bother unless i’m going to run it red, it’s what it’s made for. it’s cathartic. it’s no different to metal, punk or something. you’re going to exit the wave relaxed if you’re utilising the energy correctly. very humbling audio. death grips is case and point i guess because it’s relatively wave within millennial circles. people need to experience spiritual death. hallucination wounds. the vast articulation of this world..is beyond semiotic compass. as shakespeare once said..there is more in heaven and earth. than is dreamt of in your philosophy. the very same person that said all the world’s a stage, and us merely actors. one in their time will play many a part, and we all have our entrances and exits. i’ve entombed so much information. and i’m not going to exhume it again. it’s buried. but those are things that people are blind to, and they perhaps do need to realise that and you have to remain humble amongst it all. to know such things. i’m no lion, i’m a kitten. it’s just how i feel about some things. when i see a degree of ego, saturday nightlife in the mainstream for example i just see blind eyes. it’s not something i like to surround myself with often unless it’s a crafted environment that is magnetic for the right reasons. everything we perceive, including ourselves, are simulacrums of reality. we are always hallucinating. what is our metric for determining what is real? that is probably different for each person. one could try and find a consensus state that most people would agree is ‘real’ or a ‘hallucination’ but imaging techniques in people who are having a hallucinatory experience on psychedelics, the brain is hyper connected and perhaps just letting in more of the perceivable spectrum of reality. when it comes to psychosis, things like auditory hallucinations can seem very real. ultimately, our experiences are an interpretation of a set of electrical signals in our brains. we do the best to condense all those signals into what we perceive to be the world around us (and within us), but who is to say that the auditory hallucinations that schizophrenics experience, or the amazing visual landscapes seen on psychedelics are not some kind of bleed through between different forms of reality? i don’t think there is enough data to either confirm or deny whether what those people are experiencing is ‘real’ or not. how do we know this is real life? the short answer is – we don’t. the closest we come to ‘real’ or ‘objective’ is intersubjective agreement. if a large number of people agree that something is real, we can assume that it is. we can also say that something is an objective feature of nature if all observers will agree on it. in other words, if that thing doesn’t depend on our arbitrary labels or the vagaries of a given vantage point (‘frame-independent’ or ‘gauge-invariant’ jargon). for instance, i’m ​not entitled to say that this room has a left side and a right side, since the labels ‘left’ and ‘right’ depend on my vantage point; they are words that describe me more than the room. an illusion, after all, is entirely real – it is the ​i n t e r p r e t a t i o n of the illusion that can lead us astray. the usual notion that perception is just hallucination grounded by sensations is somewhat subverted by the fact that we can, on occasions, know that our perceptual inference is false. 0.0035% of the electromagnetic spectrum is what makes up these realities within. as a friend wisely said, where is the ceiling? at least, where is our ceiling? the layer of perception stops at 0.0035% we shape our instruments, therefore our instruments shape us. and this makes perfect sense from an anthropological perspective. the main difference between wakefulness and paradoxical sleep lies in the weight given to sensory afferents in cognitive images. otherwise, wakefulness and paradoxical sleep are fundamentally equivalent brain states probably subserved by an intrinsic loop. from this assumption, we can conclude that wakefulness is an intrinsic functional realm, modulated by sensory parameters. for what you ‘see’ is nothing but an interpretation by your brain of the light waves entering your eyes. like learning and other mechanisms of the brain, science has no answer for how the brain turns visible light frequencies into the images we think we’re looking at for example. and so, not only are we incapable of sight, relative to the spectrum of light that exists..not only do we, for whatever reason, not access the full potential of our senses, particularly our eyes.. but, perhaps most crippling, we are subject to the mind’s interpretation of what we’re looking at, fully at the mercy of our own subconscious, which in our current egoic state we have no control over or understanding of. reality behaves one way when we’re looking at it, and another way when we’re not. on the quantum level, it is as though the world you are not actively observing is nothing but a quantum haze of infinite possibilities. it is not until someone observes something, that it becomes real. the observer effect. there are vast, vast, vast wavelengths of radio, infrared, ultraviolet, microwave, x-ray, and gamma radiation that, if our eyes were our only frame of reference, we would have no idea existed. so the question that emerges is, relatively, can it even be said that we see anything at all? the illusion lies in the fact that nearly all matter is 99.99999% empty space. it’s completely insubstantial. and even the components which we believe to be matter, it has been discovered, are all nothing but energy. everything is energy. what gives it the feeling of solidity is the electromagnetic force that repels all objects from all other objects therefore one question that may arise out of this almost absurd contradiction in the way we experience the world is, if all matter is almost completely insubstantial, how is it that we can see it? what, exactly, are we looking at if what we’re looking at is completely empty? i’ll leave that up to the imagination.. read dis in a club @ 3am on yo iphone like wut thom, i’m 2 wastd 4 dis. we follow popular hallucinations. and err wun is doing that right now i flow like dis. my inner circle is so wavy. and that’s what everyone does. we project (and follow) particular wavelengths. is it safe to say that we we understand the semiotic compass of 7.5 billion humans? no. it’s propaganda. yo i need alprazolam, clonazepam, diazepam, lorazepam, temazepam on the regular mayn. i don’t need stimulants, depressants..hallucinogens. i need stuff to numb the sensory stimulus i naturally process. that kind of thing isn’t enough. it’s weak. but i have a lot more living to do, so i don’t plan on heavy opiate addiction at this stage in life. revisiting, the beginning of, and closing the thread..this layer means fuck all to me. i don’t give a vehement blunt incision of a black plague blade anymore about giving people floaty hallucinatory waves, nothing like that. it’s nought but putting som … all it is, dreamweaving. constantly hallucinating, spellbound under someone else’s loom and warp. i can consciously choose to be induced into a chosen nurture, in a lucid state. but most people are prone to hypnotic toxicity in the unconscious ocean. your magic is of use here. and that’s the vibe with me, with the community i exist in too. my stream of consciousness would be explicitly cult status by now if i had chosen to project it to people that would have been spellbound by it. that’s what is amusing. grimmoir..grammar. spell books..book of spells. psyche warp. i’d prefer to awaken than place people under sleep. and unveiling that level of consciousness is pure dread. this thread is skittles. past couple of months i trenched it. i’m back chilling with my friends again and i’m living surface layers. but yo, check it. this page was empty a couple months ago. the substance hidden in this page is high lvl. drip-feed magic. people are wack. it’s all virtual heroin and we’re all junkies. some people just aren’t capable of creating. and it is the duty of others to give them life. they have no organic hallucinations. i love the idol worshippers and especially the pity observers. i love the people that feed their own hallucinations by self centred ill perception and that’s why so many people are inauthentic, fake, posers..phony. i have no control of what my words do to people, it’s out of my hands. words are activators. i just pick em as i see em if they fruity. people are impressionable. public sphere it’s cult vibes. if i wasn’t rolling real beneath radar you would have to be so filtered. how many lost people are out there looking for a temple? we construct cradles, and we seek cradles. nurture in the depths of the wound, we heal. and seek medicines for our own ailments. one prescription dosen’t fix all. like, at all. we want to be spellbound. we’re willing participants in cradled hallucination. and i am that to a lot of people sometimes. my friends..people i consider family. partners. but like, i lost a lot of people along the way because i changed. but i didn’t change. more was just unveiled. and they couldn’t handle the reality. oh i liked their old album better. but i mean, you don’t like the artist then. you’re caught in a lower level of their contemplation/reflection/entropy/realisation/actualisation/projection and if you don’t understand where they’re at. then maybe in like 10 years that album will sing angel choir 2u music is just an example. it’s ascension. and you have to take note of where people are at. because it works in life sequences. you complete one, and you don’t stay enlightened, you’re reborn. and you start from scratch but you have that knowledge from the past sequence. cause i mean yo, fuck it..i could have stayed living 1000 other lives. and i’ve died 1000 other deaths. this is sequence 1001 for sure and it might look gutter but it’s high lvl i’ll explain the meaning behind my name. lucid is expressed clearly or easy to understand. bright and luminous archaeopteryx is the first bird. dinosaur. the feathered serpent. also a symbol of quetzalcoatl the mayan god of reflection and contemplation esper is a play on ESP. extra sensory perception. an ESPer. it’s not just some random goth name. it’s something that is deeply resonant with what i’m about. so yea. i lucid dream. fly, let wings take you places other people can’t go.. let your perception be more vast. it’s a paradise circus. you have to be hallucinating. at all times. i meditate on weird shit. like i always have a fan going in my room, and the oscillation of it is like a tibetan healing bowl. i can’t cope with rooms that don’t have that sound. intricacies. it’s perception of time for sure. i like that with music a lot. it depends where i’m at. but with what i make i focus on like, ghost whispers that are influenced by meditating on weird shit like that. my favourite is the doppler effect. the sound of a car, a train, a bus going past. that sound, you hear it coming, you hear it pass, and you hear it fade away. i’m not very musical. but i have a good ear still for random sound design. aural, tonal, binaural stuff. time and a place. i’ll eventually work with someone on some real masterful mixdowns. it’s just being in that authentic cabin in the woods state of mind. i don’t consider writing an art, but it is. i just don’t write fiction or a whole lot of poetry anymore..nor do i engage in academia. it’s just stream of consciousness at times, and i like words. vocabulary is very particular. end note of that is basically everything is a hallucinatory experience so it pays to live in a lucid state where you have agency over what that state is. life is beautiful, living is pain. might as well be away with the fairies. reality dosen’t actually matter. because people are going to hallucinate a particular perception regardless. the thing with that whole contemplation/reflection/realisation/actualisation/projection method is that the latest version is not always the best version. with software i’m fuming half the time when they change something up that wasn’t broken. same goes with reality. the entropy that effects you in a state of hyperrealism will drive you toward hallucinations further away from a centric reality. when i focus on consciousness and review the data i can unveil things that are beyond belief, but it’s beyond reasonable doubt that they exist. that hemisphere of our mind is designed to deny anything that does not fit within our paradigm. we have programming. left is, left, and right is right. up is up, and and down is down. even down to that. it’s a classic philosophical argument. if you have never left the lake, and there are only white swans in that lake, do only white swans exist? no..because you haven’t left that lake. just one lake over there could be technicolored swans. so you can’t come to that conclusion. what is the centric reality of 7.5 billion humans? you would like to think that you know. it’s echo chambered. and it’s total propaganda as to what we perceive as reality. it’s a hallucination. end of story. you cannot ascertain the semiotic compass of signal and symbol interpretation that 7.5 billion humans receive and come to conclusive evidentiary concept of reality. we have scientific method. openness, skepticism. peer and adversarial review. but when it comes down to it, there is only one thinking system at play. which cuts off the circulation. it’s not representative by any means. not of 7.5 billion humans. could it be that only around 1% of the world are receiving signal that is even 0.0035% accurate? probably. is everyone hallucinating? yes. everyone is. but do people have better pattern recognition. yes. i take a lot of script meds. what they do to me other than physically deteriorate, who knows. i just popped a diazepam, an alprazolam and some lorazepam. that should sort it out right? i’ll take some lithium, a bit of aripiprazole..jeez. might throw in a temazepam too bit of codeine, bit of oxycodone if i have any tramadol. morphine. opium. jeez. it’s numbing a hallucination. but that hallucination is more likely to be reality than what you’re closing your mind off to. i don’t want to hallucinate, that’s the thing. i want the truth, i want reality. but it’s pure dread, if you actually look at it in focus. i said it to someone the other day, can’t remember the situation, but you spend all this time trying to find the truth, there comes a time where you just don’t want to know anymore. but you don’t want to hallucinate. you need to numb the reality of what you know. trauma, torment, suffering. extreme empathy. you’re experiencing pain. it’s torture. powerful words. it’s about the only thing i can agree on that is real.

Text when i was younger i surged through thousands of nostalgic NZ tapes but the foreign ones are so much stranger. the magic box was a pretty hypnotic device for so many years. such a centralised source of information. how that era shaped the world communicatively into material consumerism is beyond belief. i could deal with the 80’s being a hypnotic dream though..in comparison to today it seems to easily be the best hallucinatory state. there is some confusion as to what magic actually is. i think this can be cleared up if you just look at the very earliest descriptions of magic. magic in its earliest form is often referred to as “the art”. this is completely literal. magic is art and that art, whether it be writing, music, sculpture, or any other form is literally magic. art is, like magic, the science of manipulating symbols, words, or images, to achieve changes in consciousness. the very language about magic seems to be talking as much about writing or art as it is about supernatural events. a grimmoir for example, the book of spells is simply a fancy way of saying grammar. indeed, to cast a spell, is simply to spell, to manipulate words, to change people’s consciousness. this is why an artist or writer is the closest thing in the contemporary world that you are likely to see to a shaman. all culture must have arisen from cult. originally, all of the faucets of our culture, whether they be in the arts or sciences were the province of the shaman. the fact that in present times, this magical power has degenerated to the level of cheap entertainment and manipulation, is a tragedy. at the moment the people who are using shamanism and magic to shape our culture are advertisers. rather than try to wake people up, their shamanism is used as an opiate to tranquilize people, to make people more manipulable. their magic box of televi sion, and by their magic words, their jingles can cause everyone in the country to be thinking the same words and have the same banal thoughts all at exactly the same moment. in all of magic there is an incredibly large linguistic component. writers and people who had command of words were respected and feared as people who manipulated magic. in latter times I think that artists and writers have allowed themselves to be sold down the river. they have accepted the prevailing belief that art and writing are merely forms of entertainment. they’re not seen as transformative forces that can change a human being; that can change a society. they are seen as simple entertainment; things with which we can fill 20 minutes, half an hour, while we’re waiting to die. it’s not the job of the artist to give the audience what the audience wants. if the audience knew what they needed, then they wouldn’t be the audience. they would be the artists. it is the job of artists to give the audience what they need. when it comes to world view, alan moore is a genius. definitely one of those mindscapes that is certainly not very factory preset off the conveyor belt and into a box for mass consumption. many people simply do not have the time to think, at all. nor do i anymore. i come out of states where i simply cannot fathom how i came to know those things. i currently cannot think at all. i’m blank, null, void. completely nihil. it’s very likely that those things i covered are true. but it is futile as to do anything about it. i’m 27 in a month. and i’d rather that stuff was released before then so i can hallucinate something comfortable. i still believe in some pretty strange things. the evidence behind it is staggering. they’re lost threads now. i’m not going to keep the magic of them alive. that information exists however, so i’m still haunted by it. i would prefer to dreamweave something different though. that isn’t to say that i would not return to those concepts, but for now..i’m going to probably fall to watching the world in it’s paradise circus state accompanied by vanilla espresso whiskey milkshakes, marlboros and benzodiazepines. because what can you do other than drown it. that’s essentially what you’re doing. it’s forbidden poetry. unspoken words. everyone thinks them, but i did martyr myself for a time alongside a myriad of others to expose some things that i simply could not contain the burning in my soul that such things exist. that dosen’t matter to me. it’s weeding out the garden. inauthentic people. no time for them. if you can’t handle it. then fuck off, good. i’m glad. i don’t want to know you. i think i’ve scared off all the fakes by now. not intending to be noxious and nightshade but it’s a bit septic, a bit. i’m no different to what i was a decade ago. i’m just a lot wiser. you learn that you have to hallucinate to stay sane. because reality is insane. you have to become humbled by the overwhelming growth and fornication, asphyxiation of humanity. i love it, but i love it beyond my better judgment and if you don’t see it, then you’re blind. absolutely blind.

Text the black chemist conjures a new hell. tartarus shivers. xibalba sheol kur elysium inferno avernus. elevator nine. stairwell seven. hallway eleven. door twenty three. revelation seal abyss chain of broken dreams. the locusts, the rain, the tremors, pandemic pain. torture, trauma, torment..inner sanctum of insane. algorithmic blossoms of a primitive world. tides of lust in a primal void of mental furniture. lies paint labyrinthian aeon glows silver with obsidian contours of gloom surge oblivion scale. the tide is high. the auburn light through stained glass. moth dust layered record played backward in obscured past tense. tempered by your love, haunted in traumatic glow. drowning the sensation in scotch and smoke, the pills, just another blindfold..but evolutionarily nocturnal in vehement disregard. the fireplace glowed, stoked with malcontent. the cigarette vacantly burned to the filter watching the rain drip through the rotting window pane with thoughts of inane afterglow. as the blood dripped, moths devoured the sun. incision of psyche deeper into the soul and it roared like a waterfall in serpentine hiss. violet wound in septic blossom. crown of deeply rooted stem and thorn flowing a dark rose rush of anemic wither. a broken mirror. the reflection was foreign. the sink howled like a torture chamber in the depths. spinal shivers. the rust flaked through the filth soaked bath. frozen cold. the tidal surge of frenetic arctic afterglow, a magnetic momentum, the ebb and flow of inertia, an angular gravitational frequency. the internal pressure of spherical mirrors in current, resisting parallel relativistic velocity. damp, dense in musk the room blurred beyond physical comprehension. scientific query fails even in the depths of equation. another glass was had, another cigarette dragged. a handful of pills were latched down the furnace..and rest was achieved. obscurato non scriptum abyssus abyssum invocat passus est. passus est. passus est.

i never knew you. i never knew you but life was perfect. i never knew you but i did on the surface. i never knew you but times were tough, i never knew you..the mask wasn’t enough. i never knew you..at least i thought i did..i never knew you, vacantly stared. never truly there, god forbid the tears as victim shamed self fault steered. i never knew you, but i endeared..it was all a lie, a hallucination of the dreams i thought we shared. mentally it had always bleared. blinded by a comfort that slowly disappeared. i never knew you. i never, knew..you.

Text cuneiform. real cuneiform. Sumeria being Iraq..it’s not the simplest place to be excavating anywhere for anything that was left hidden in the dunes. 6000 years of sand movement, going to be a lot of stuff they couldn’t destroy or hide. even ISIL is culturally cleansing the area, destroying all history claiming they are the only relevant history. it’s more than likely what was important historically backing up fragments of data that we do have, is in archives not marked for disclosure anytime soon, or ever. that’s the cradle of civilisation, writing. everything. the first record of everything. and we’re looking at peasant class accounts a majority of the time and just being content that’s the extent of it. the same story pre deluge origin account appears over and over. all over the world. so it was an important story. before that flood, it is possible history goes a LOT further back. it is possible that many origin and genesis tales are accounts very much older than sumerian civilisation. that’s the story. the sumerian king list goes back over 200,000 years before the flood. and i mean, there’s evidence of ruins rating at least that far back. related or not, who knows. but who knows what those places were like 200,000 years ago. they’re nothing but ruins now. and to us they look primitive. what else they found there were complex gold mines. humans in our timeline had no need for gold. and they could not even do such things. “Zulu legends tell about the most ancient gold mines. the mines were worked by “”artificially produced flesh and blood slaves created by the first people.”” these slaves “”went into battle with the Ape-Man”” when “”the great war star appeared in the sky.””” it goes way back. hundreds of thousands of years back. and a lot of these origin stories back it all up. we think 6000 years ago is ages. but it’s not. it was over 200,000 years ago when it all went down. all the stuff they talk about. genesis, origin myths..they’re old. very old. those tablets are extremely fragmented but mirror other origin myths. they were only recently found, likely not supposed to be found. because those cities were stripped bare. just looking at flood story parallels in particular but so many other questions pop up every time. really fixated on the fact that demiurge, archon, aeon can be used as a basis for explaining lots and lots of different things. relatively untouched texts as far as i am aware with no tailored bias toward figures. supposedly recording it as it is.

Text i’m lucky to go 6 months without some form of time, space, identity breach. i enter portals without actively attempting to. but the things i learn, sometimes i just can’t deny them. it is like a biblical dream vision. and you are taken places by angels. and they show you things. angel comes from the greek angelos. which purely means messenger. if i am guided by a magnetic compass of pattern beyond regular tuning. it is a lot like that. i’ve never really had a bad frequency. it’s required fine tuning and i feel as if i was tested to the point of torture, trauma and torment, but i have never had a bad frequency. it is a feeling that you could lie in a gutter looking at the stars and it truly in that moment would not mean a thing. you simply are not there. at all. all day i’ve been hearing applause to volleys of screaming echoing off the cliffs. it’s quite sadistic out of context. mans playin 2 much metal gear solid fam innit soliton radar evasion phase safe cool down ventilation postal box map movement innovation textbook MGS vibes. hiding in maintenance rooms, bypassing patrols via airducts. moving around the map by hiding in boxes, trash, courier trucks etc.

Text Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak. Then saith he unto them, My soul is exceeding overwhelming sorrow, even unto point of death: tarry ye here, and watch with me. Deep calleth unto deep in the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves and breakers have swept over me. Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? 1. And it came to pass when the children of men had multiplied that in those days were born unto them beautiful and comely daughters. 2. And the angels, the children of the heaven, saw and lusted after them, and said to one another: ‘Come, let us choos e us wives from among the children of men and beget us children.’ 3. And Semjâzâ, who was their leader, said unto them: ‘I fear ye will not indeed agree to do this deed, and I alone shall have to pay the penalty of a great sin.’ 4. And they all answered him and said: ‘Let us all swear an oath, and all bind ourselves by mutual imprecations not to abandon this plan but to do this thing.’ 5. Then sware they all together and bound themselves by mutual imprecations upon it. 6. And they were in all two hund red; who descended ⌈in the days⌉ of Jared on the summit of Mount Hermon, and they called it Mount Hermon, because they had sworn and bound themselves by mutual imprecations upon it. 7. And these are the names of their leaders: Sêmîazâz, their leader, Arâkîba, Râmêêl, Kôkabîêl, Tâmîêl, Râmîêl, Dânêl, Êzêqêêl, Barâqîjâl, Asâêl, Armârôs, Batârêl, Anânêl, Zaqîêl, Samsâpêêl, Satarêl, Tûrêl, Jômjâêl, Sariêl. 8. These are their chiefs of tens. 1. And all the others together with them took unto themselves wives, and each chose for himself one, and they began to go in unto them and to defile themselves with them, and they taught them charms and enchantments, and the cutting of roots, and made them acquainted with plants. 2. And they became pregnant, and they bare great giants, whose height was three thousand ells: 3. Who consumed all the acquisitions of men. And when men could no longer sustain them, 4. the giants turned against them and devoured mankind. 5. And they began to sin against birds, and beasts, and reptiles, and fish, and to devour one another’s flesh, and drink the blood. 6. Then the earth laid accusation against the lawless ones. 1. And Azâzêl taught men to make swords, and knives, and shields, and breastplates, and made known to them the metals 〈of the earth〉 and the art of working them, and bracelets, and ornaments, and the use of antimony, and the beautifying of the eyelids, and all kinds of costly stones, and all colouring tinctures. 2. And there arose much godlessness, and they committed fornication, and they were led astray, and became corrupt in all their ways. Semjâzâ taught enchantments, and root-cuttings, Armârôs the resolving of enchantments, Barâqîjâl, (taught) astrology, Kôkabêl the constellations, Ezêqêêl the knowledge of the clouds, 〈Araqiêl the signs of the earth, Shamsiêl the signs of the sun〉, and Sariêl the course of the moon. And as men perished, they cried, and their cry went up to heaven . . . 1. And then Michael, Uriel, Raphael, and Gabriel looked down from heaven and saw much blood being shed upon the earth, and all lawlessness being wrought upon the earth. 2. And they said one to another: ‘The earth made †without inhabitant cries the voice of their crying† up to the gates of heaven. “3 ⌈⌈And now to you, the holy ones of heaven⌉⌉, the souls of men make their suit, saying, “”Bring our cause before the Most High.””.’ 4. And they said to the Lord of the ages: ‘Lord of lords, God of gods, King of kings, 〈and God of the ages〉, the throne of Thy glory (standeth) unto all the generations of the ages, and Thy name holy and glorious and blessed unto all the ages!” 5. Thou hast made all things, and power over all things hast Thou: and all things are naked and open in Thy sight, and Thou seest all things, and nothing can hide itself from Thee. 6. Thou seest what Azâzêl hath done, who hath taught all unrighteousness on earth and revealed the eternal secrets which were (preserved) in heaven, which men were striving to learn: 7. And Semjâzâ, to whom Thou hast given authority to bear rule over his associates. 8. And they have gone to the daughters of men upon the earth, and have slept with the women, and have defiled themselves, and revealed to them all kinds of sins. 9. And the women have borne giants, and the whole earth has thereby been filled with blood and unrighteousness. 10. And now, behold, the souls of those who have died are crying and making their suit to the gates of heaven, and their lamentations have ascended: and cannot cease because of the lawless deeds which are wrought on the earth. 11. And Thou knowest all things before they come to pass, and thou seest these things and Thou dost suffer them, and Thou dost not say to us what we are to do to them in regard to these.’ “Then said the Most High, the Holy and Great One spake, and sent Uriel to the son of Lamech, and said to him: 2. ‘〈Go to Noah〉 and tell him in my name “”Hide thyself!”” and reveal to him the end that is approaching: that the whole earth will be destroyed,” and a deluge is about to come upon the whole earth, and will destroy all that is on it. 3. And now instruct him that he may escape and his seed may be preserved for all the generations of the world.’ 4 And again the Lord said to Raphael: ‘Bind Azâzêl hand and foot, and cast him into the darkness: and make an opening in the desert, which is in Dûdâêl, and cast him therein. 5. And place upon him rough and jagged rocks, and cover him with darkness, and let him abide there for ever, and cover his face that he may not see light. 6. And on the day of the great judgement he shall be cast into the fire. And heal the earth which the angels have corrupted, and proclaim the healing of the earth, that they may heal the plague, and that all the children of men may not perish through all the secret things that the Watchers have disclosed and have taught their sons. 8. And the whole earth has been corrupted through the works that were taught by Azâzêl: to him ascribe all sin.’ 9. And to Gabriel said the Lord: ‘Proceed against the bastards and the reprobates, and against the children of fornication: and destroy [th e children of fornication and] the children of the Watchers from amongst men [and cause them to go forth]: send them one against the other that they may destroy each other in battle: for length of days shall they not have. 10. And no request that they (i.e. their fathers) make of thee shall be granted unto their fathers on their behalf; for they hope to live an eternal life, and that each one of them will live five hundred years.’ 11. And the Lord said unto Michael: ‘Go, bind Semjâzâ and his associates who have united themselves with women so as to have defiled themselves with them in all their uncleanness. 12. And when their sons have slain one another, and they have seen the destruction of their beloved ones, bind them fast for seventy generations in the valleys of the earth, till the day of their judgement and of their consummation, till the judgement … 15. And destroy all the spirits of the reprobate and the children of the Watchers, because they have wronged mankind. Destroy all wrong from the face of the earth and let every evil work come to an end: and let the plant of righteousness and truth appear: ⌈and it shall prove a blessing; the works of righteousness and truth⌉ shall be planted in truth and joy for evermore. 1. Before these things Enoch was hidden, and no one of the children of men knew where he was hidden, and where he abode, and what had become of him. 2. And his activities had to do with the Watchers, and his days were with the holy ones. 3. And I, Enoch was blessing the Lord of majesty and the King of the ages, and lo! the Watchers called me-Enoch the scribe-and said to me: 4. ‘Enoch, thou scribe of righteousness, go, †declare† to the Watchers of the heaven who have left the high heaven, the holy eternal place, and have defiled themselves with women, and have done as the children of earth do, and have taken unto themselves wives: “””Ye have wrought great destruction on the earth: 5. And ye shall have no peace nor forgiveness of sin: and inasmuch as †they† delight themselves in †their† children, 6. The murder of †their† beloved ones shall †they† see, and over the destruction of †their† children shall †they† lament, and shall make supplication unto eternity, but mercy and peace shall ye not attain.””‘” “1. And He answered and said to me, and I heard His voice: ‘Fear not, Enoch, thou righteous man and scribe of righteousness: approach hither and hear my voice. 2. And go, say to ⌈⌈the Watchers of heaven⌉⌉, who have sent thee to intercede ⌈⌈for them: “”Yo” “u should intercede””⌉⌉ for men, and not men for you: 3. Wherefore have ye left the high, holy, and eternal heaven, and lain with women, and defiled yourselves with the daughters of men and taken to yourselves wives, and done like the children of earth, and begotten giants (as your) sons?” 4. And though ye were holy, spiritual, living the eternal life, you have defiled yourselves with the blood of women, and have begotten (children) with the blood of flesh, and, as the children of men, have lusted after flesh and blood as those ⌈also⌉ do who die and perish. 5. Therefore have I given them wives also that they might impregnate them, and beget children by them, that thus nothing might be wanting to them on earth. 6. But you were ⌈formerly⌉ spiritual, living the eternal life, and immortal for all generations of the world. 7. And therefore I have not appointed wives for you; for as for the spiritual ones of the heaven, in heaven is their dwelling. 8. And now, the giants, who are produced from the spirits and flesh, shall be called evil spirits upon the earth, and on the earth shall be their dwelling. 9. Evil spirits have proceeded from their bodies; because they are born from men, ⌈⌈and⌉⌉ from the holy Watchers is their beginning and primal origin; ⌈they shall be evil spirits on earth, and⌉ evil spirits shall they be called. [10. As for the spirits of heaven, in heaven shall be their dwelling, but as for the spirits of the earth which were born upon the earth, on the earth shall be their dwelling.] 11. And the spirits of the giants afflict, oppress, destroy, attack, do bat tle, and work destruction on the earth, and cause trouble: they take no food, ⌈but nevertheless hunger⌉ and thirst, and cause offences. And these spirits shall rise up against the children of men and against the women, because they have proceeded ⌈from them⌉. “1. From the days of the slaughter and destruction and death ⌈of the giants⌉, from the souls of whose flesh the spirits, having gone forth, shall destroy without incurring judgement-thus shall they destroy until the day of the consummation, the great ⌈judgement⌉ in which the age shall be consummated, over the Watchers and the godless, yea, shall be wholly consummated.””” “2. And now as to the Watchers who have sent thee to intercede for them, who had been ⌈⌈aforetime⌉⌉ in heaven, (say to them): “”You have been in heaven, but ⌈all⌉ the mysteries had not yet been revealed to you, and you knew worthless ones, and these in t” “he hardness of your hearts you have made known to the women, and through these mysteries women and men work much evil on earth.”” 4. Say to them therefore: “”You have no peace.””‘” 1. And Uriel said to me: ‘Here shall stand the angels who have connected themselves with women, and their spirits assuming many different forms are defiling mankind and shall lead them astray into sacrificing to demons ⌈⌈as gods⌉⌉, (here shall they sta nd,) till ⌈⌈the day of⌉⌉ the great judgement in which they shall be judged till they are made an end of. 2. And the women also of the angels who went astray shall become sirens.’ 3. And I, Enoch, alone saw the vision, the ends of all things: and no man shall see as I have seen. 1. And these are the names of the holy angels who watch. 2. Uriel, one of the holy angels, who is over the world and over Tartarus. 3. Raphael, one of the holy angels, who is over the spirits of men. 4. Raguel, one of the holy angels who †takes vengean ce on† the world of the luminaries. 5. Michael, one of the holy angels, to wit, he that is set over the best part of mankind ⌈⌈and⌉⌉ over chaos. 6. Saraqâêl, one of the holy angels, who is set over the spirits, who sin in the spirit. 7. Gabriel, one of the holy angels, who is over Paradise and the serpents and the Cherubim. 8. Remiel, one of the holy angels, whom God set over those who rise. Enoch was Noah’s grandfather. and it seems like he hallucinated a lot of things that directly aligned with other isolated events throughout the world. certainly no random visions at all. according to even genesis, book of daniel, jubilees, all over the place just in the bible alone that happened. the book of enoch just continues to go into great detail of the watchers/sons of god even though there is no doubt this origin story comes from akkadian/mesopotamian/sumerian and beyond. and does bleed into most to every culture. Araqiel (also Arakiel, Araqael, Araciel, Arqael, Sarquael, Arkiel, Arkas) taught humans the signs of the earth. However, in the Sibylline Oracles, Araqiel is referred to not as a fallen angel, or Watcher, but as one of the five angels who lead the souls of men to judgement, the other four being Ramiel, Uriel, Samiel, and Azazel. Armaros (also Amaros) in Enoch I taught men the resolving of enchantments. Azazel taught men to make knives, swords, shields, and how to devise ornaments and cosmetics. Gadreel (or Gader’el) taught the art of cosmetics, the use of weapons and killing blows. Baraqel (Baraqiel) taught men astrology. Bezaliel mentioned in Enoch I, left out of most translations because of damaged manuscripts and problematic transmission of the text. Chazaqiel (sometimes Ezeqeel or Cambriel) taught men the signs of the clouds (meteorology). Kokabiel (also Kakabel, Kochbiel, Kokbiel, Kabaiel, and Kochab), In the Book of Raziel he is a high-ranking, holy angel. In Enoch I, he is a fallen Watcher, resident of the nether realms, and commands 365,000 surrogate spirits to do his bidding. Among other duties, he instructs his fellows in astrology. “Penemue “”taught mankind the art of writing with ink and paper,”” and taught “”the children of men the bitter and the sweet and the secrets of wisdom.”” (I Enoch 69.8)” Sariel (also Suriel) taught mankind about the courses of the moon (at one time regarded as forbidden knowledge). Samyaza (also Shemyazaz, Shamazya, Semiaza, Shemhazi, Semyaza and Amezyarak) is one of the leaders of the fall from heaven in Vocabulaire de l’ Angelologie. Shamsiel, once a guardian of Eden as stated in the Zohar, served as one of the two chief aides to the archangel Uriel (the other aide being Hasdiel) when Uriel bore his standard into battle, and is the head of 365 legions of angels and also crowns prayers, accompanying them to the 5th heaven. In Jubilees, he is referred to as one of the Watchers. He is a fallen angel who teaches the signs of the sun. “Yeqon (also Jeqon or Yaqum, יָקוּם, “”he shall rise””) was the ringleader who first tempted the other Watchers into having sexual relations with humans. His accomplices were Asbeel, Gadreel, Penemue, and Kasdaye (or Kasadya), who were all identified as individual “”satans””.” there were 200 fallen angels, but they are the only ones that were named in found untampered scrolls “When men began to multiply on earth and daughters were born to them, the sons of God saw how beautiful the daughters of man were, and so they took for their wives as many of them as they chose. Then the Lord said: “”My spirit shall not remain in man for” “ever, since he is but flesh. His days shall comprise one hundred and twenty years.”” At that time the Nephilim appeared on earth (as well as later), after the sons of God had intercourse with the daughters of man, who bore them sons. They were the heroes of old, the men of renown.— Genesis 6:1-4″ sons of god/watchers same thing Watchers (Aramaic עִירִין, iyrin) are angels dispatched to Earth to watch over the humans. They soon begin to lust for human women and, at the prodding of their leader Samyaza, defect en masse to illicitly instruct humanity and procreate among them. The offspring of these unions are the Nephilim, savage giants who pillage the earth and endanger humanity. Samyaza and his associates further taught their human charges arts and technologies such as weaponry, cosmetics, mirrors, sorcery, and other techniques that would otherwise be discovered gradually over time by humans, not foisted upon them all at once. ” Eventually God allows a Great Flood to rid the earth of the Nephilim, but first sends Uriel to warn Noah so as not to eradicate the human race. The Watchers are bound “”in the valleys of the Earth”” until Judgment Day.” you can buy a flashdrive for $127 with the enitre library on it. by no means comprehensive but still a lot of good data in there at times. when it comes to descendants with tales of giants or hybrid beings being their parents or teachers/rulers/gods, you can look almost anywhere. prometheus has the same personages as enki. they did the same things. so the annunaki and the titans can be compared. as can many others. but i’ll focus on rather the bible and greek mythology. because they’re most widely taught. Zeus, Poseidon, Hades. it seems fairly obvious to me that these stories find their basis in reality. the bible records the true history of our world albeit untold amounts of alteration and embellishment, while many ancient cultures preserve portions of the true history that are often obscured by legendary confused with animism and theist pantheon details intertwined. we only know what we know, but the actual story is certainly known. and that infuriates me this non disclosure to humans allows truth to only be known in veil by those few. ..the God of the Israelites (whose name is most often translated as Yahweh) consistently finds himself proving his power and authority over the gods of other nations and punishing his chosen people for worshiping these other gods. These gods emerge in the New Testament as demons and “rulers and authorities of heavenly realms” (Ephesians 3:10). They are clearly the enemy of Yahweh and all that is good. The Apostle Paul writes of them in his letter to the Ephesian church: “Our str uggle is not against human foes, but against cosmic powers and the authorities and potentates of this dark age, against the superhuman forces of evil in heavenly realms” the push from polytheism to monolatrism to monotheism by the time of the new testament definitely shows that most things called demons in the bible, are just other gods, other deities, anything that was not that. the heavenly prince and deity of wisdom Enki (Sumerian) is identical to the later divine personages Ea (Babylonian), Ptah (Egyptian), Poseidon (Greek) and the biblical Serpent (Hebrew); his firstborn son Marduk (Sumerian) is the same god as Bel (Babylo nian), Amon-Ra (Egyptian) and Merodach (Hebrew); and the lord of the secrets of the Tree of Life Ningishzidda (Sumerian) is equivalent to Thoth (Egyptian) and Hermes (Greek) the personages like that go on, and on and on. across all cultures and it’s ridiculous how the family tree, personage, and origin story remains the same. Abzu clearly designates the abode of Enki near the city of Eridu, in the Garden of Eden or Edin, the mountains of the Middle East. Finally, after the Flood, the Abzu becomes “the unfathomable, the deep” where the Greek “abyssos” and English “abyss”. The Abzu then refers to the underworld, where Enki took refuge to shelter from the Great Flood. Feather Serpent of America, Vulture Snake of Sumer, tempter Serpent of the Bible, who are these Serpent People found in all mythologies? The first Chinese emperors, successors to the legendary Emperor Yao, said they were descended from dragons. This story descends into Japan and neighbouring areas. In India, high caste families still believe that their ancestors are snake gods called “Nagas”. The Dogons of Mali claim that their extraordinary astronomical knowledge came to them from their ancestral reptilian celestial aspect, the “Nommos”. The Egyptians had their god snake Kneph and the Pharaohs were often depicted with snakes. The Phoenicians had Agathodaimon, a serpent. The cultures of Central America worshiped their creator god Quetzalcoatl, the winged serpent, as Baholinkonga, the feathered serpent of the Hopi Indians. Followers of Voodoo have a serpent god they call Damballah Wedo. The Hebrews have Nakhustan, the brazen serpent. The ancient god of the British Isles, called Hu, was the master of the dragon world. The first altar of the Cyclops in Athens was dedicated to Ops, the god-snake. Indigenous Australians also have their myth of Wagyl, a God-Serpent. “The Gnostic philosophy was born in the early Christian era within the Mediterranean basin, mainly in Egypt, heir of the ancient religion of Isis’ mysteries. To its followers, man is the emanation of the source of all things, and inherit a piece.” On the contrary, our triple body “has been shaped by harmful beings, usurpers who have proclaimed themselves ‘gods’, the famous Archons. Yahveh is regarded by the Gnostics as the chief of the Archons, the great demiurge, the most evil creature. In the 4th century, the confrontation between the Gnostics and the fathers of the Church was violent and merciless. Most of the Gnostic texts were destroyed before the discovery of Nag Hammadi’s famous scrolls in 1945, what was known about Gnosis was limited to the reviews of heresy hunters in the early days of Christianity.” jesus was gnostic. which is interesting. the mother goddess is the sumerian goddess Tiamata. That is she who deserves firstly the title of Primordial Serpent. Initially this term was positive because “the snake is the wisest among all the fields’ beasts” said the oldest version of the Torah, called the Septuagint. As for the Bible, it says quite the opposite: “the snake is the most cunning of all animals”. Thus the serpent is the ally of the men and the creator of the human race. He personifies the mother goddess Tiamata, assisted by her son Enki – called Osiris in Egypt, Oannes in Persia, and Prometheus in Greece. Among the Dogons, he is Nommo; among the Meso-Americans, he is Quetzalcoatl, and among the Hindus, Vishnu. He is the first instructor of our species, like the feathered serpent Quetzalcoatl, like the god-fishes Nommo, Oannes or Vishnu. He has always su pported and defended men when other gods wanted to kill us, as our creator Prometheus siding with the men againstl Zeus. Or again, as Osiris protecting us from Seth, who wanted our loss. Or as Enki protecting us from Enlil, who also wanted to end the human experiment. As we already understood, all these legends refer to a unique history, and their convergence support its veracity. So how come the Snake, our designer and our ally, the w isest of all animals, has become the most cunning, the most dangerous, the ‘beast’ identified to Satan in our ‘modern’ religions? According to the translators of the Nag Hammadi manuscripts, it is explained by a semantic shift. Beast is the translation of quasi-homophones in Aramaic: haywa meaning stupid, hawa meaning to teach, and hawya meaning serpent. The gods geneticists work on human genotypes that the text calls modellings, “then the authorities called the Beast, so that she corrects the mistakes of their modellings”. The beast is not evil as she corrects the mistakes of the apprentice-sorcerers. “The true meaning of the Beast, is the Instructor, as she was thought wiser than everyone.” Whether we like it or not, we are the children of the Beast. gnostic teachings are very different to what was written in the bible for sure, and that stuff was destroyed in mountains. because it was blasphemy against creating a monotheist god. the new testaments simply referred to (anyone) else as demons. heaps of people (or the same people), or the same bloodlines were on our side. and they gave us heaps of stuff. and they were punished for their deeds. but they helped us out. so wouldn’t that make them idols. they helped us be (more) like the gods instead of just primitive slaves. i don’t think the god of the bible is benevolent. and i don’t think the fallen angels were malevolent. i think it’s the other way around to a certain degree. and i don’t think any of them are the true god at all. it’s just classic oppression, suppression, control and power. you cannot have 7.5 billion now humans all thinking like gods.

Text i look at it relatively satirical. because that’s the age we live in. but i’m not coming from an uneducated perspective. you can play it safe, and the current narrative is still more than slightly awry. no mud, no lotus. it’s a rule of nature. there are two timelines. one where everything is a vast interconnected network of calculated decisions, and another where the world is not consciously guided under complex agenda. as far as i am concerned. this data, albeit only a minute fraction of what is available..is still enough to say that i can’t be more intelligent than they are. that would be absurd. if i can think like this, then a highly sophisticated network of people with infinite scope, resource, and unrestrained knowledge could effectively orchestrate such things provided the available data in relation far beyond my, or anyone else’s complete comprehension. thus rendering our current narrative the fairytale. and the fairytale fragments of the truth. i believe in truth. and it will be unveiled. a strong enough wave of information can change the world. and it will come. the general public live in a reset amnesia. it takes modern media to break the mould. it takes our generation to overturn that industrial media complex and present news on a viral level that matters. to live curious, to question and explore these topics actively, openly and freely within a mainstream consistently. there is but one problem. we can consider these truths within a realm of fantasy but do not have the courage to apply them to our own world. here’s the flip of the coin. we live in a viral age. a strong enough wave of information occurs in the future, it’s going to travel further and faster than ever before. but that’s all on us. not the mainstream media.

Text “rom the teachings of others. My whole outlook upon life is determined by one question: How can we recognise the shackles that tradition has laid upon us? For when we recognise them, we are also able to break them””” -Frank Boas

Text t’s a frequency, a vibration, a tuning of resonance you are at when you receive information like that and your reality does change depending on where you are. if i stopped being so alert, i would fall to lesser patterns and descend back to a low base emotion like melancholia or something. once you get to a certain depth of low. there’s not much further you can go, in any emotion. been there and done that. i can’t be sad. so my entropy is inevitable in some form. but it becomes a paradise circus that’s the only way you can really see it. consciousness is somewhere between the physical and the spiritual. something entered spontaneously and naturally. felt as a physical sensation, an actualisation, not something imagined as a theory or a concept. unprovable by scientific standards, the impossible phantom in the predictable biologic machine. for it to be self made, self nourished in this entirely chemically induced hallucinatory machine, there would have to be a catalyst for consciousness. something like the pineal gland and dmt. all other brain sites are paired, meaning that they have left and right counterparts. there are left and right frontal lobes and left and right temporal lobes. the pineal gland is the only unpaired organ. the pineal is formed on precisely the 49th day. tibetan buddhists believe that is the exact day the soul activates too which is kind of interesting. you take dmt every night, when you dream. so it’s likely that birth elicits a dream, and death elicits a dream then it’s probably even more likely that some people lucidly dream too, and experience waking experiences where it’s released. and who knows what that means. it could mean that you are experiencing parts of a greater dream. that some people don’t see until perhaps death. and probably explains NDE’s because they were clinically dead and that mass dose of dmt was released but they came back so they had that dream so like heaven..or any other concept whatever you imagine is what you get it’s just a dream. so i guess you want to tune your sub/conscious into something that you will dream what you want. but i’m saying this dream, it’s hijacked. this level is like one layer. and there’s probably a reason why some people hallucinate higher concepts of reality others don’t see. it’s an ancient concept as to why. it’s probably cute to just say hey we all get to go to our favourite dream. but if you can’t take control of this dream, then how can you get there? everyone is looking for the ultimate rush but death is the ultimate rush. and there’s no rush for that. because you want it to be good. i’m not afraid of death. i’m just afraid of having a bad dream. that’s probably what ascension is all about you have a lot of time to figure it out more than enough time. it’s ridiculous how much time you actually get. very generous. it’s just a liminal state. a transitional or initial stage of a process. everything is and has that liminality. it’s up to you if you want to figure out this world or not. i do. because there’s more to it than that. but you really just want to focus on what you want your dream to be like, because that’s the frequency you are going to get. there’s no concept of what it should or shouldn’t be like. my dream would be pretty weird. as ancient texts suggest, there are entities, people out there that don’t want you to know that. they want you operating on the lowest level possible. if you’re looking for substance in spiritualism, there is it. but i mean i’m just under cloak on this earth. and i could help a lot of people. but i don’t know if it’s really worth it. it’s really not. let them drown, they’ve got enough time. figure it out yourself. gangsta shit. the best performance actors of our time. just sayin what they feel. who cares if it’s real or not? it’s still better than anything you can come up with. it’s that 75 to 90% threshold. they’ve got the data. but why not take it even further? it’s not like it comes out of thin air. it’s ancient knowledge. it’s just pushing that theory into a performance art. 10 – 25% potential nonsense. it’s what people feed off like the very parasites they’re trying to expose. it’s a minute bracket to go off for invalidity, because the initial research, the initial data is actually all substantially true. i wholeheartedly back them. because even though they might be caught so deep in character that that bracket has destroyed otherwise obscene albeit valiant research in the eyes of some. what if, let’s just say..what if they figured it out? why not push at them. they put in more effort than anyone on that level. jones, jones a bit different. but icke, icke at least presents his data in threshold brackets. and he says before he does it. i’m going to go where people are afraid to go, you could stop here, and take this knowledge. as truth, which it is. or you can stay and see how deep the rabbit hole goes. which is theory. but it’s theory based on that research. it’s not a theory that comes out of thin air. so there’s reason to suspect some of those things. his lectures are 12 hours. and they’re only base level compared to his books. and they’re well put together. he’s n ot always going to have that 10 – 25% locked down. but the rest is, and that’s enough. but he does take it further based on that data. which is performance art in my eyes. he calls himself the dot connector. and rightfully so. he’s good at it. and like i said, he’s 75-90% correct already. i leave the rest blank. but you can see it enough. it’s obvious that he’s perhaps so deep within those theories that he couldn’t click out. but that’s what makes it such beautiful performance art. the research, stellar. the theories attempting to make it 100%..probably a bit far fetched but still possible. and no one else is presenting it on that level quite so convincingly. i watched all his stuff way back in the day. 12 hour lectures. and he’s hilarious. the first four hours are generally just all the base stuff. and you would follow it too. nothing too wild. but then he disclaimers to the audience that he’s going the full nine yards. and he does. but it’s completely backed up. he’s not out there on his own. it has the research, the data is all there. ancient to modern. he’s just connecting the dots like he claims. it depends what he’s looking at. i see him as a good resource. up to that bracket. because he knows he can’t say things like that, unless he has that kind of validity behind it. so i like his research, but i take the theories with a grain of salt, but perhaps a pinch. because anthropologically i know where he’s coming from. and scientifically people do too. jones is pure performance art though. but he still comes through with some good research. i’d dissect even the grain of salt with him though, because he has specific agendas. people raise interesting questions. sometimes ideas that do have a degree of validity can get discredited by putting them on steroids and running them off the rails. for example, there may well be according to much evidence of ancient and modern, ruling elites of psychopathic family dynasties at the top of a pyramidal power structure, but many claims do end up discrediting the original thesis. i think icke himself is sincere though and believes what he writes and speaks, which is why it is so incredible. if we are going to listen to people like this and dilute what they are saying and reinterpret it more forgivingly to fit into our own idea, it is no different than much of ancient history. we also cannot seem to leave the comforts of this world view. no matter how much evidence there is against it. our current paradigm does not allow in reason and ration of scientific cosmology to operate in this manner, however there are many that do. this is not to say that there is still much to learn from previous/other worldviews and ethno-practice, or that everything in our current is superior or the best system. it just so happens that regardless of how we got here, this is where we are working from. might i add that the evidence toward some things is veering past the 90% bracket of truth. almost redlining on 99. and if it hit 100? the engine would blow. well, i didn’t wake up with the intention of writing that but there you go. good stuff, up to a threshold. then it’s anyone’s guess, but without that research your opinion is invalid. gangsta shit. wrote all the stuff.co.nz articles in my sleep with my toes too btw enjoy i never actually watched wrestling as a kid but it seems like everyone else did i remember watching it a few times but i was into cartoons. i don’t think i could watch it. i didn’t have cable tv i had this dream the other night about being a live in child minder at an ‘upper’ class estate. i kept putting clues together as to what the parents were really about while i looked after the children which was all the time and it got really dark. woul … you wonder where these dreams generate from. but they’re usually pretty decipherable. people that could never really change but put up that material front like they’re perfect. nothing worse. suburban secrets. life’s like a bad soap opera in those kind of communities. everyone’s trying to sus each other out because the front is paper thin. subdivisions would be the worst too. pleasantville. everyone are living these kitset, perfect lives but they’re all running from something. the dreams we endure are likely to be endurance of processing our memories and coming to terms with particular realities within it. it is a dmt induced experience. our brain is like a filter, it is a filter. so perhaps it is meant as preparation for death. have you learned all the lessons yet? a human should not be considered human until day 49 of conception. because that is when the pineal gland appears. and according to tibetan buddhists notably, the same day they think the soul appears. people with schizophrenia have elevated levels of dmt due to supposed problems with the pineal gland. i think there are entities that want you to have a good dream, and entities that want you to have a bad dream. and that’s the general concept of it all. all of it. people think that hallucinations are all bad things. they’re not the brain is not only a filter, but a tuner. synchronicity, energy. the crystals are also not much different to the nanotechnology in a mobile phone. oscillators. i take medication, which is detrimental to pineal function. if was naturally operating then i would probably have a lot more dense hallucinations. I’m interested in alchemy particularly from taoism, and the pineal gland is like a gate or passage for energy circulation, similar to kundalini. it’s just being very overwhelmed by stimuli in those states, because you are much more open. the filters are letting more through than the average mind would. sometimes too much. but sometimes just enough for it to be perfect flow. sensory processing per second, i wrote down the data somewhere but we filter things down to basically nothing every second. so someone with a (broken) overstimulated pineal gland would be subject to a lot more synchronicity, energy circulation, oscillation than someone who has a (normal) functioning pineal gland. and what’s that? ESP (extra) sensory perception. but you’re not always going to pick up good things are you. some people are going to pick up bad things. because that energy is easier to obtain. i don’t think it matters what it is auditory or visually, it’s more about intent. difference between a hallucination and a lucid dream probably ain’t much. faith without religion. not out of scope in a modern perspective. nihilism isn’t solving anything. former analogies are just dated, that’s all. the mental furniture has changed, the symbolism remains relatively the same. you can shift the puzzle pieces, and obtain more of it. but they only fit in one place. the extent to which we can calculate or figure out probabilities is determined by our intellectual capability to recognise patterns. the less biased we are, the clearer we can identify the patterns. there is no such thing as a free choice when being attached to a belief system. awareness can be expanded and free will can be enhanced by observing these processes unshackled from tradition. if i was religious, or a firm believer of this world view i couldn’t approach things in the way that i do. the mental furniture has changed. but the puzzle remains the same. you can rearrange it in a myriad of ways, but as something like ch’i suggests, there’s only one true way to arrange the room without disrupting the natural flow of things. the puzzle pieces may fit elsewhere. but you’ll later find that’s not where they are supposed to go. the pineal gland looks like a pinecone. and i’m trying to figure out what the symbolism of the pinecone is that i’m finding basically everywhere. notably the pinecone monument in the vatican and the pope’s pinecone staff. you have many religious figures in all cultures that have used them directly in art, architecture, various symbolism throughout. it would seem odd for it to be unrelated and random. very obvious symbolism. but not that obvious associated with enlightenment and immortality. the area also looks very similar to the eye of horus, and ancient egyptians would preserve it separately in the process of mummification. a pinecone is also perfect golden ratio/fibonacci so within both spheres of thought they knew more than we did until only recently. just some random scribbles tho this is the kind of stuff you find geniuses doing in mental hospitals. and everyone’s just like, that’s nice dear. it’s time for your meds. maybe you could do some colouring in and bake some cookies. what about this connect the dots book. that looks fun! you’re unwell. it’s ok. bake some cookies. anyway. symbolism isn’t random. any free civilisation was shut down. people still live like that, no doubt. and that’s the point. enlightenment, immortality, infinity. but of a few concepts that only a few people fully know about. we’re in the outer web. but the inner web is where people know everything. and with each layer, people are privy to more and more information. that’s how secret societies work. and that’s basically the servant class. of the inner web. so they are just working on a reward system to know more. but it’s likely just an endless chase the bait on the string type thing. they’ll never get there. but in the process they’ll do the filthy work for them to try get there. get five more gold stars and you get to level 2 same deal. extortion. and you can’t escape. what do i know though eh. i might do some colouring in and bake some cookies. even on heavy medication. i can still see in the dark. the force is strong. one of the dudes is from NZ rabit mastered it. which is how i found it interesting movement. scrapes the soul. good in some instances, but you have to be in the frame of mind to need it. that dystopian, industrial future sound i quite like. dream catalogue goes from more of a ghost in the shell perspective. people call it hard vapour. but idk those labels are good though. his collection is straight hard vapour. nothing but 80’s yuppie and public access tv culture stuff is interesting but the 90’s wave is horrible. you can get pretty lost in that stuff. and you can bank pretty cool collections. but after a while it dosen’t matter anymore. i never had a tumblr, but i browsed 4chan a lot. which on a good day used to be pretty incredible. for me it’s just downtime. a way to discredit myself when i feel like it’s probably a bit too real. i could paint something pretty neat. but i don’t think it’s reflective of culture. if it was reflective of me, then it would be different. i like nature grunge. that kind of stuff, and that style is still unique to me. the pine(al) cone the third eye, the eye of horus replaced the pinecone so yeah. random symbolism? random? so random. ????? &&&&& ????? real pepsi max hours who got vape liquid freemasons are a known secret society. but it’s low level. at least compared to what it connects to. you can go further than that but there isn’t a lot of point. the point is, that like i said earlier in the thread..there are different levels of classification obviously. and some people are even made to feel like they know a lot. but they know nothing. it’s that feeling of being in a club. and you think that you’re high ranking in that club. but you’re not. at all. like, at all. the eye, the pinecone. the ice cream. the jelly. the jellybeans. the grapefruit juice. it all relates. and it’s purple on tuesday because aliens. obviously. then the size 11 shoe means not much but it’s probably something to do with the zulu tribe in spring. that’s the way the cookie crumbles. because you left it in the oven while you were doing the crossword. roflcopter ayy lmao the dolphin echolocated through an atomic dungeon then arrived at the bubblegum pizza hut helicopter and met a ghoul playing phonk in the carpark and gloom surged through the urban aquatic murkisphere by gaslamp listening to kendrick lamar. anyway. it’s all apples and oranges. look i didn’t buy a bag of apples to find out out they’re bloody bruised. sort your shit out. fucks sake. i just wanted a royal gala, and you’ve given me a bag of fujis. i know my apples mate. can’t fool me. what kind of soil does your orchard use. the pH levels are probably alkaline and i can fucking taste it. you acidic mongrel. give me a bag of granny smiths and we’ll call it neutral. this ain’t a red delicious. this tastes like flour anyway, that’s what the mind would usually do if you were unwell. that’s actually how it is. it’s beyond reasonable doubt that it is. the world is a lot more complex than even the top ranking officials believe it to be. the more people that are free, the less power they have. and i’m hoping the next generation just spits the dummy and is just like fuck this. i’m not standing for this anymore. because whatever the agenda is, it’s done very well. it’s taken out everything in it’s way, almost. suppression, oppression, power, control. anyone can achieve enlightenment. they don’t want that. it’s not bound by shackles of tradition. there is more than one way, and not all ways work for everyone. be an open pinecone. i don’t need to even say that. people are already really awake. that’s good. but not everyone is. that’s how i see it though. the world is completely contorted, twisted, tangled. but not beyond comprehension. they’re almost like hey, it’s right in front of you if you look. but, ha ha. can’t do shit about it huh. nothing is impossible. and all they have to do in this age is slip. slip enough, and it will go viral. and it will crumble. and that’s bound to happen. there’s already enough proof. but not enough to expose anyone. and they’re too good at that. we blame the wrong people. our energy is directed at the wrong people. and that’s the point. those top levels, they’re old families. older than the egyptians. the lines go way back. and they have all the knowledge still. it wasn’t ever lost. and they never stopped living like that. i didn’t go full pepsi max vape clouds because you don’t have to. it’s already profusely obvious. what can you do? not a lot. but it enhances your free will. and you can do better things knowing that. because there is no need to be depressed. there is no need to be angry. there is no need to be confused. there is, but that’s what they want. so why would you give them what they want if you’re depressed, angry and confused..because of them? joke them. play the joker card. it’s the best card in the deck. a lot of people are caught in some real shallow waves, and they will never grasp these concepts. but that’s how the world is. it’s not some series of random events by stupid people. it is, but it’s not. seriously calculated. so calculated that they’re untouchable. but nothing is impossible, and no one is perfect. there’s enough proof. but not enough to disintegrate MSM beyond the current narrative. well, there is. but nothing that they will cover. that is what it’s going to take. something so ridiculous that if you could not not cover it on all fronts and shatter the current narrative. and that’s revelation. it’s one thing to know such things. but it’s another for everyone to. if anyone has a master counter intelligence plan though…it’s china. they’re a porcupine state. the citizens might be suffering under communist china but they’re raising gdp. they’re vowing for superpower. and they’re doing everything they can to keep it one locked down ship. they’re not letting anyone in. and they’re vehemently opposed, but they’re also playing real good monopoly. because trade, tariffs, that’s the game. capitalism. and there are very thin strings holding together international relations. they need that connection. but without it they’d be pissed. they are pissed. i’m not in the dark about how the world works on the surface. i’ve just been going deep(er) than that. i don’t think NK would ever actually fire a missile. it’s nuclear deterrence. just like everyone else if the USA, or anyone for that matter, invaded and got that close to the porcupine? wouldn’t be good. i don’t think anyone would. NK is right on the border. international relations? out the door. series of invisible handshakes anyway. only thing holding it together is trade and tariffs which are needed. required to build gdp. to become superpower. which is the goal. to end western asphyxiation. china are way more intelligent. like, way mo intelligent. they’ve got all those empty cities thur they construct to raise gdp. i’d defect to one of those in a second. they know what they’re doing. i think the country is suffering because of their agenda. but it’s a good one. and they have reason to be doing it. they believe in firm marxist atheism and they’re banning pretty much everything. but i mean, that’s a lot better than having religion. i think once the marxist world was established. they would enjoy something like daoism. but for now, fuck all that. it’s firm marxism. china are savage. make no mistake but they’re good. everything is tight knit. no ones penetrating that fortress. they play well. as a new zealander a labour/nz first/green govt? should be talking to china. i’m stoked with that btw. good government. hopefully it can hold the fort for more than a term. there’s a lot to undo. not just 9 years of national. but pretty much the entire history of colonial policy. 9 years of that govt and nz would go socialist. it’s new zealand, i mean. it’s perhaps the final bastion of promise in a state, in the world. china loves nz. so does russia. we’ve always been connected to the US, at least since WWII. before that we were obviously a colony of Britain. but now it’s questionable. we’re this little island down by Antarctica. i’m not anti USA but they’re infected. it’s not one state. same with the EU in general. you have to try think like them. even though you wouldn’t think like that. or do something like that. beyond that level which i just looked at, they’re still living in a world that is very old, ancient, weird, beyond weird. this is ESP kind of stuff. because myself, thom..as a human. i like simple things, and this is an ability beyond that. i’ve always had it. but i never quite harnessed it until recently to the point where i could accurately have clear field. it’s remote empath because i can’t actually think like that. i’m in a trance when i receive that information. afterward i’m just like wtf it’s coming from somewhere else. i know that for certain. it’s not a normal human trait. dmt is released in deep meditation trances and it might take me literally tens of hours to reach that when i write. same goes with writing music, or drawing. or just meditating on nothing, depends how you’re approaching it..to reach that deep meditation. it’s masochistic. and it takes hours. landing a trick skateboarding is the same. it might take hours. days. weeks. but when you land it, suddenly you can always land that trick. but you only unlock that stoke once. then you have to move on to another trick. except this is unlocking dmt. deep meditation is not bound by shackles of tradition. it just so happens that because i meditate by writing, that i record that stuff in the moment, and i capture that enlightened state directly. it’s one of the oldest tricks in the book. mysticism. belief that union with or absorption into the absolute, or the spiritual apprehension of knowledge inaccessible to the intellect, may be attained through contemplation and self-surrender. you can sit in the lotus position for 20 hours or you can write for 20 hours at least with writing or drawing you have something to show for it. most people couldn’t do it with writing. they would hit a brick wall. i’m sure of it. but everyone has their path. and their technique for deep meditation. you just have to figure it out. 20+ hours in a lotus position is pretty boring. it’s what i do though. i sit in lotus position and write. where you begin, to where you end up..i mean the writing’s on the wall. does it work? i know it does. whether or not it really helps anyone else idgaf. it’s there to help. but i’m ascending through it. it’s gone. shed skin. documentary. years of research condensed into an hour. i might write for like 20 hours, and someone gets to skim that in a fraction of the time. the pinecone part though. find that part, the rest pretty meh but still interesting. but meh compared to that part. check this out and see if you get it.

Text fuk yea sunday. we live fierce crunk juice is red bull and hennessy. would imagine it would be pretty good. life is wonderful. r&b is great. been getting into south american music lately and it’s pretty interesting. real industrial hip-hop but they’re hilarious. such good humour. can’t be bothered writing critically over the summer so if i do post anything it will probably just be interesting culture. definitions of beauty differ greatly, this is just the kind of thing that i consider to be. it’s only representative of such a minute fraction of culture. but it’s selections and things that i see. i find the stuff extremely relevant. others may not. but the point of most of it all relates to my writing. childhood radio ghosts. gangsta shit ZM. stu the night guy when you have a sister also, you get to know all that stuff. but i couldn’t front in saying that i didn’t listen to it too. radio was good back then though. it’s how you found out everything. that and supermarket magazines. you could be hipster about the 90s and post it like you didn’t remember it but a lot of the time it was (way more than) but stuff like that i heard. except for in the car, but i mean i listened to the radio every night for the banter and the stories and the news. and that just happened to be what they played. it was the most current, of my age thing i could interact with. i have a good knowledge of punk, thrash and a medley of other stuff from the car but until about 9 that was the #1 source of media i had other than books i could get my hands on. i mean i was probably 6 or something. i was into ancient cultures even then but i was more into pokemon and stuff like that. that’s 20 years ago so there is two decades of knowledge between then and now. and you do soak up everything. that’s why i don’t think the brain can physically hold that much information. it has to be clouded or something. the Akashic records are a compendium of all human events, thoughts, words, emotions and intent ever to have occurred in the past, present or future. They are believed by theosophists to be encoded in a non-physical plane of existence known as the etheric plane. There are anecdotal accounts but no scientific evidence for existence of the Akashic records. “Akasha (ākāśa आकाश) is the Sanskrit word for “”aether”” or “”atmosphere””. Also, in Hindi, Akash (आकाश) means “”sky”” or “”heaven””.” how could there be scientific evidence of that though, there really couldn’t be. not in the way they want. if we’re self made, self nourished internally. it’s bloody amazing but i just don’t think that’s the case. i don’t attribute myself to just myself. there has to be more to it than that. and i’m not at this age at least willing to accept that we’re self made, self nourished and i’m testing it. i think that computers and the internet is pretty as above so below. we’re a computer. and we do have a harddrive. but there’s also a cloud server. and we’re wirelessly connected to that. it’s like extra storage. you can’t just accumulate that much knowledge inside a body. it’s ridiculous. i have a base harddrive. and it’s pretty basic. there’s also a point past 2012 where my consciousness completely changed. i attributed that to earthquakes and getting older but it’s more than that. it’s much more than that. the core HDD isn’t the same data access it’s like going from basic 56k modem to fibre optic wireless. and i don’t think i’m the only one that it happened to. i’m just articulating it somewhat. it’s the only way to explain it. there’s a wireless network. and it is attached to a server. i feel like i have the login to it. there is just part of me that has to go make a coffee. and that’s not the same thing. i’m only a point of attention of a vast energy. so are everyone. but it seems logical to see everything as a hive. and if it is a hive, then we’re bees. and we’re collecting honey. but why. some pretty mindblowing theories on that in ancient texts, but i did finish that book effectively and i decided not to include any of that. i’m just fascinated now by the divide between what my core self is, and where i draw from externally. computers have to be a mirror of that system. our mirrors have created a reflection of divine from deep within, not just surface glare. the internet and our ability to code just like a universe creates and mutates is exactly what the internet is. a digital manifestation of a god complex. which ric … we are simulating god, and it is good for it to only stay this way. by this, i think we are also stimulating god. tickling with algorithms within it’s own. resonating and programming in a liminal zone that manifests on it’s own. and i think some have taken control of that as a quantum crystal ball of false god level. perhaps as they always were in this world. an organism that has already reached god complex within micro and macro, it does not need to be self aware. god is not self aware, it is a series of algorithms and probabilities. god is the master cloud server. anything else is merely a code of it’s cycling algorithms. god has no emotion. however, god is the greatest programmer of all time. it surely knows what emotive is. it created emotion. something that our collective psyche has sewered into something far beyond us. we do not even know what we are collectively, not the greatest minds in the world can explain even a cupful of this ocean of humanity. we hold glimmers in our molecular structure of things that explain and connect us with the greater macocosm, as with deeper micro. the internet’s inception from p2p mail between universities to it’s behemoth today is testament that our minds when plugged in and the tap turned on somewhere unlimited will confuse you until you have an aneurysm. but it is all so simple at it’s core. we just figured out, how god works. even culture and civilization is a mirror of god’s algorithms within nature. just look at what happened when we have a world wide web. the god complexes of hegemony were crushed, and another god stepped in. the machine god. our creation. a mirror of divine creation. the resurrected tower of babel. the fixer of tongues. the library of all knowledge i wrote that in a pretty weird state. the only problem with it being something similar to a tower of knowledge, is that instead of it being destroyed, it just gets used to become a quantum crystal ball. everyone loses, because the more information that it acquires, the more intelligent it gets. but that’s all just a bunch of nonsense it’s a great thing, if it was the people’s tower. but it’s not really. not anymore. i’m not sure how advanced the quantum computers actually are. we only see leaks of the lowest level stuff. but even that is enough to be like wo wo wo wo wo, what? but i mean, it’s all just nonsense. they’re not really that intelligent. and how can they keep tabs on 7.5 billion people sensically they can’t but they definitely try. it’s like when the atomic bomb was being constructed. it was all top secret black ops. people had levels of clearance most people had no idea what they were making if you can’t suppress information anymore, what is the best thing to do? collect it. this is counter-intelligence. but it’s also just nonsense so there’s no real issue. people are travelling the world running conventions on this kind of stuff. and it’s in minority view of populous because most people don’t look into it. it’s definitely a topic of interest in the media. but it’s reset amnesia you forget about it. just some content. might as well be a fantasy cartoon or something that’s the point of the final chapters of that book or whatever i just wrote in noteform. it’s 2017 now. and the next generation is going to be so tech savvy. but will they. only in the wildest of imagination could you envision what a top level intelligence base would look like it’s not vape clouds, burger rings and pepsi max. they would be juicing. completely wired. makaveli tha don killuminati. it’s just fantasy content really. and that’s all it is. it’s not real. nothing is real. if that’s the general consensus. then that must be true. so that’s what it is. it’s a fringe vision, probably haven’t heard of it. but i was into it before it was cool. it’s not actually though. it’s a topic of great interest people are just unsure how to approach it. it’s the whole content thing of this age. it’s worth saying again because people just consume things as a strain of fantasy regardless. even MSM i call it reset amnesia. because people reset after a certain point. it might interest someone, but not enough to register it to their core belief system. it’s just categorised alongside cartoons, tv, film..everything else. even if it’s quite profound news from a credible source. it’s reset back to deny anything that does not fit into the current world system. so the mind processes it as fantasy. the deviance of the binary isn’t a minority. it’s the majority. submerged binary. the surface binary is just conforming and consists mostly of people that are actually submerged binary. where’s my proof for that? the internet obv it’s very etc the iceberg should have a very blank majority space for etc below. not just because others can endlessly add to it, but because there are things we can’t even think of that upper echelons are aware of that don’t even slightly register to us. that web model is kind of like physical information too. there is stuff that you can’t just walk into a museum and see, but it’s still there. then there is stuff that no surface museum has, but still exists 4% of the web is surface. 8 billion pages. then 7.9 zettabytes of data, 90% give or take is deep web protected. not searchable, but hackable. and about 6% give or take is dark web. so deep web is mostly stuff like records, databases but there’s still more of a dark web than a surface web. then there’s the marianas trench level web. which is debatable of whether or not that even exists. but only accessible through quantum computers. i went quite extensively into the malware, worm, bug thing in a thread that is deeply compressed somewhere beyond my immediate knowledge. that’s why many states seem so passive. they’re anonymously gathering intelligence and that is more important than anything now. so what is known to some states would be pretty amazing. no average museum exhibit. likely data regarding similar things to what i look at too, just with many more resources. why wouldn’t they release it to the public? social and moral panic. it would cause a state of hysteria. they probably want to do something about it too, they definitely do. in end notes, there are people out there doing this on a black ops level in counter intelligence. countries you wouldn’t even blink about ever. that probably have the best counter-intel in the world. because i’m not saying the USA is that intelligence, but it is the superpower that consists is privately owned, splinter celled contractors that go beyond the government. so things like CIA, FBI, DARPA etc are not part of a contained state environment compared to somewhere like china, russia, anywhere else. especially at highest levels of clearance. there are wormtongues. trojan horses, you name it everywhere. so it’s not the USA that is the enemy. it’s the cabal. it’s an ancient clique i covered everything considered within my realm of theories, evidence and what not in these notebooks so from this point to avoid it becoming too compressed i’m only going to post occasional random fruit salad data there’s just no point going into it in more detail, or continuing the narrative even though there is a lot more. if someone wanted to investigate it further, they could. and the noteform certainly helps. cultural anthropology is not boring.

Text there are other nights both defunct, dormant, and artists that have similar visions so we are getting together to do something co-operative. still putting the wuwops with the dohickeys but it will come together like shazam. it’s not actually my idea. i was enlisted. but i’m down with it. time for a steinlager tokyo dry or 7 yet to figure out whether or not it’s just imitation asahi either way it’s probably pretty good. steinlager is like the most toxic brew out there other than flame or a kingfisher strong. there’s a reason why they made a steinlager pure. i usually just buy one or two local brewery bottles a week if that fillosophy in wooston is good they switch up the kegs every time so there is never the same brew there all the time, it’s a lot better than a bottle store. harringtons also do this thing with cider where you can buy this ridiculous sized glass flagon to refil. i don’t drink hardly ever in the winter, but in the spring/summer i tend to drink more in the sun with friends. about to venture up to godley head around 5 with a box and spin some nonsense. good day for it. in spring/summer i tend to go on holiday from everything and just soak up nature. autumn/winter is where i usually get back to it. because i love the simplicities of new zealand. i still know what i know. and in knowing that i don’t really take life very seriously. ps. steinlager tokyo dry just tastes like a fruity steinlager usually never buy boxed factory beer and i probably won’t again. but consumerism. it gets you nothing like an asahi super dry i’d say the best japanese beer is kirin. good. suntory and sapporo close second actually no, yebisu. and you get them from vending machines on a hot day ice cold and it’s like fkwighwahrgh;arhwgkwarhgh the sumerian word for creation has linguistic origin in the ‘make beer’ and they invented beer. the first known recipe comes from over 5000 years ago and it was given to humans by the gods. too nice of a day to get into it but my page is nutritious with content regarding all of that. you got some dumb people, and you got some not so dumb people. then you got some real not dumb people, then you got people that teach the real not dumb people when they’re not supposed to because they are supposed to oppress, suppress, control and contain. and then we have instances of not so dumb people and real not dumb people lookin cray because the real real not dumb people want u2b dumb shieyutttt spend time drinkin cheap lagers i’m nervous shiet mo ounces, sell u this fo like 85 dola, anyone else, 185 dola. u feel that. get that camera out my face u heard if you’re reading this it’s too late From Middle English drake (“dragon; Satan”), from Old English draca (“dragon, sea monster, huge serpent”), from Proto-Germanic *drakô (“dragon”), from Latin dracō (“dragon”), from Ancient Greek δράκων (drákōn, “serpent, giant seafish”), from δρακεῖν (drakeîn), aorist active infinitive of δέρκομαι (dérkomai, “I see clearly”) i can see clearly now the rain has gone i can see all obstacles in my way gone are the dark clouds that had me blind It’s gonna be a bright (bright) bright (bright) sunshiny day don’t touch the apples. if you do you’ll just become way too awesome and we can’t be having that. Did You Know? “Apples appear in many religious traditions, often as a mystical or forbidden fruit. One of the problems identifying apples in religion, mythology and folktales is that as late as the 17th century, the word “”apple”” was used as a generic term for all (fo” … Ethnobotanical and ethnomycological scholars such as R. Gordon Wasson, Carl Ruck and Clark Heinrich write that the mythological apple is a symbolic substitution for the entheogenic Amanita muscaria (or fly agaric) mushroom. Its association with knowledge is an allusion to the revelatory states described by some shamans and users of psychedelic mushrooms.[2][3][4] at godley head with ritual and i’m certain there is a circling boat jacking my data signal. they’re out to get me. i’m encrypted on tor 437 so their intelligence vessel disguised as a fishing boat can’t fool me. they’re everywhere. i think it’s the russians and the chinese though they’re all good labour nz first green government. old winnie p bit of traction. where there’s a will there’s a way. that old chestnut. if it can hold up 10 years might be a goer get china and russia on the blower mate. ah yeh gday. onya. you like sheep and milk. choice. giz a bell when you’re keen to talk some bizzo. spot ya winnie p is a true politician. been around for years. they come and go but he stands pretty firm. i voted green so i’m stoked, ministerial roles that are much needed in a balance of state. however respect for cultural identity inside such a culturally diverse modern world under state guidance and rule must continue to be critically examined by disciplines regarding parliamentary, judicial and executive operation to keep further balance of power in check. charging mate. absolutely fizzing shes a slice of heaven and i’ll tell ya what. we’re livin the kiwi dream sheila it don’t get much better than this. pav and sav. tofu snarlers what the fuck is your damage boy. get some of that medium rare in your trap. bit of blood never hurt no one i’m pescetarian and i have been for years and years and years. but i still find it funny when people flip out about not being into everything else. i can come up with intellectual arguments as to why i only consume locally fished, and that i’m mostly vegetarian. but it’s more just about taste. once you stop consuming that flesh it becomes gross just like when you quit smoking. i could easily be vegetarian, and even vegan. i’m sensitive to dairy anyway so i only drink soy milk. i’m vegetarian 5/7 days of the week anyway i just grew up around the ocean so that lifestyle is pretty natural to me. i wouldn’t stop being pescetarian. the ocean is meant to be fished, just not trawled. same goes with homestead vibes. i would consume other animals if i lived like that and it was self sustainable but i don’t see factory engineered animals as part of that. if someone offered me something on a farm then i probably wouldn’t say no out of respect. if it’s sustenance for survival, then it makes sense. but there is no real need to be like that in this age. if i want to go diving for paua, kina, crayfish, mussels, fishing for any type of fish then it’s practically on my doorstep. but things like shrimp, oysters, prawns, scallops etc it’s more difficult to source. new zealand is pretty good for finding these kinds of things though. i wouldn’t trust international fisheries anyway because of the level of contamination the majority of the ocean has, especially nuclear waste. if i was most places in the world, i’d likely be vegetarian while i was there. at least somewhere like kaikoura you know everything is some of the best in the world and it’s coming from good waters. it dosen’t take much of a vegan documentary to make you not want to support any of it at all though, for sure. nomadic life, homestead living, hunting, diving and fishing is fine. trawling and factory born processing isn’t. isn’t that difficult to live primarily vegetarian anyway. it’s food alchemy, it’s all about herbs and spices compared to some countries everything is pretty mellow here. but we still import a lot of it. the world’s about to end anyway so. dosen’t matter regardless. no seafood by 2050 in the entire world. we are plundering the planet at a pace that outstrips its capacity to support life. how many earths we will need by 2050 regardless of what else happens means earth expires around then. by 2050 we will literally need three planets to support humanity. constant stats. running clocks etc pretty powerful stats interested to see what the policy agreements end up being in the new government. they would have to be in for more than a decade steadily to undo what has already been done. it’s no quick fix. there are simply so many layers to everything. i dig southern colloquialisms so i don’t exactly talk in the same fashion as this. sociocultural and anthropological critical theory is just something i do outside of that. people know i do, but it’s also pretty spot on mate with the doohickey righto that old chestnut could be a goer kinda bizzo. i have different voices. depends who you’re speaking to. or what i’m talking about. rough as guts mate. blimey. she’s a pearler alright. that’ll knock ya bloody block off on a windy afternoon sheila get a load of this codswallop blaady ell fizzing on this mate. charging. absolutely frothing. you’re a sick puppy a friend and i are starting work on a graphic novel next year. 1 picture per 1000 words. should be good. tired of working on my own. getting into quite a lot of co-operative stuff next year. there’s a certain style i’m going for and we have basically the same mind when it comes to most things so it will be quite hive. there’s another artist i want to work with but i’ll probably wait until they aren’t so busy. moths devouring the sun will likely be one artist and the crystal serpent will be another. i’m going to co-author them to the point where i write off their artwork as much as they draw off my writing. it’s a good co-operative method. my literary hand is so dense that 1000 words is heaps. satire is divine. and the muse of the age. the key to this world’s progession. why so serious? the divine comedy. inferno, purgatorio, paradiso ever heard someone cackle before? that they just couldn’t hold in? that laughter of absolute madness. it’s cathartic. laughing, crying. they’re two suppressed emotions that become toxic, septic if you don’t release. i don’t even know how to cry, it’s not manly to cry, but i know how to laugh. and i laugh all the time. to myself. about everything. madly. laughing is kind of like crying, except you’re channelling it into something else. it’s still release of energy. and it’s good for you. same with shouting. some cultures shout at the top of their lungs when they wake up until they can’t anymore. then the rest of the day they are at peace. i like that, but if i did that..the neighbours and entire street would dial 111 at least with laughing people just get it out of context and it’s like. what is so funny? what am i missing out on, that person is enjoying themselves. more than i am. why? what is that saying..those seen dancing were considered mad to those who could not hear the music or whatever. we’re too suppressed. people would be so chill if they went to temple or church or whatever once a day and just completely moshed out music and art is representative of the times. this is no utopian paradiso. and if they want that to change, then things have to change. of course there is a lot of bad energy out there. but it’s only cathartic. it’s all directed at the hidden hegemony. like i said at some point. if we knew where the castle was it would be dust. this system would prefer us to worry about being against each other. worry about low vibrational thoughts. direct it at each other. when in all truth there is only one thing we should be against. but in the land of the blind the one eyed man is king, and better, yet, invisible. i mean, people just need to wake up nothing is impossible. primal urges are played on in matrix complex. and it’s usually all pretty much sexual and survival based. signs, symbols, you need this, you want this, you can be this, illusions of free will and equality, liberty and hallucinations of grandeur. doesn’t matter what it is, it’s usually got some unconscious undertone. but we’re so much more than that. basic emotion. happy, sad, angry, confused. all that emotive is generally kept on a very low level. and the matrix is run by the matrix. people only have to tweak parameters from the top as desired. and there is an apparent desire for people to want to be angry at each other, and that is orchestrated in such a fashion that it shifts the blame of a lot of energy. there is a self made, self nourished world inside of all of us that is usually just constructed of primal unconscious. however that is the point of this system. conformity though shaping relations between societal members, regulating relations, imposing behaviours, preferred practices, articulated as rules, designed to influence behaviour encouraged through use of force, or threat thereof. unless the public reject it, which makes it invalid. civil disobedience, protest, revolutions are social rejection, which invalidates them because in majority, social acceptance determines the validation of sovereign laws in order for them to be able to uphold them successfully in a system. providing society is in the majority abiding to them, and deviance of the sovereign law is kept in the minority with threat of punishment, and emphasis on reward for adhering in society. it’s deeply codified. like the whole puppet/master theory. most people don’t know they’re puppets at all. they’re just working toward something. money, fame, sexual prowess, something like that. some people don’t care about money, and i don’t mean they don’t care about it. i mean they have so much of it that money is literally just a game. that they have monopoly over. it is likely that at one stage it simply became safer to let humans have an illusion of power. which kept those families safe from direct attack. they still control everything. we don’t see that high up. ever. they’re not celebrities. it’s all a joke which is why you should consider it one the only way to overthrow such a system is completely joke’n it there isn’t anyone really pushing boundaries at my age, or any age like arca is, except fis, which is a bit more realised. that first tape shows a pretty good understanding of ancient practice. so does mutant. in terms of concept and execution forever in search is more relatable because it’s hometown and everything else is more of my world. but i respect arca’s world a lot. and it’s obvious to see when people like björk, kanye west, dean blunt, fka twigs, kelela and frank ocean are recognising it if you’re after instrumentals hit up polo cause he has more tunes in the vault than anymore. deathclub coming soon polo is going full rock band though, sounding good. there will be a lot of live shows in 2018. definitely one artist that works very hard. his vault of music is still pretty beyond comprehension compared to what he puts out. christchurch is probably the capital of southern gothic. people just don’t understand it properly. the south island is a very different place to the north island. my friend ritual is on the case with posters, stickers and a whole new vibe. audio archaeology is going to be a part of it, but it’s going to be under an umbrella of something more vast. it’s basically just a group of people that are sick and tired of nothing coming to fruition in their home town. it might be known worldwide but there is little to zero presence locally. not just music. artists, designers, creative people in general. its an umbrella that my friend has envisioned for everything. so i mean stickers, clothing, commercial print posters, it’s something that will just bleed presence into the streets. people don’t even know the vibe of their own city. so it’s important to construct something that gets people excited about having a real culture. i’m thinking about using phantom billstickers to put up poems, art, song lyrics, everything. just bleed culture into the streets a bit. the more people involved the better. gigs would be fundraisers. for all this kind of stuff to happen. so people would be actively supporting the movement. i’m only a point of attention in the hive, there are a lot more people involved, it’s just constructing foundations and i’m kind of in charge of a certain part of it all. this kind of being part of it. so if you are an artist, creative, designer, forward thinking mind and you have any material/ideas to put forth message me on [email protected] with something kind of official. i’m just hyped about using phantom billstickers really. commercial posters the thing is, music is only a part of it. it’s predominantly all about the design element. i’m interested in seeing local song lyrics, local poems, local art that isn’t commissioned by people that aren’t representative of culture at all. and the people have to fund it themselves, by attending the nights. by being involved directly in the culture. there’s no greasy promoter trying to gypsy you out of a dollar with a sub-par night. the money is going directly into street culture. in comparison to commercial nights right now, how much better could nightlife be many hands make light work, i’m only part of it but i know for sure that the fundraising element would actually make people feel a lot better about attending the night. then people get to actually see it used. you get to see all this stuff on the streets and be like, i helped make that a reality. i was a part of that. and that’s culture. i want so see some nasty azz expressionism art at the red lights next to a gutter poem and some provoking song lyrics. and if that’s what the people funded, that’s what the people get. fundraiser nights should look like a a big thing it should be the backbone of it all. because that’s how it happens. i’m not just going to pay for that out of my pocket. if you want to support local art, then you attend these nights and you get the music, but for attending, you also get the culture on the streets. that’s a no brainer. photography too. especially photography. through the lens phantom billstickers is a good operation and it’s worth utilising. because if it becomes something that is possible citywide, it’s also available nationwide. there was a time when it was an illegal operation. vans would just go out and paste up anywhere. but i mean, you have to play the game now. stickers are still a thing. but when it comes to getting that consistent pasteup culture going you have to play the game. they own all the spots anyway. the way it works it you’re going to have to possibly lose money on the first fundraiser, and make that fundraiser look like a big enough thing that you at least break even. so you’re going to run on deficit to begin with. but you put that money straight into what you said it was for. and write off the rest until later. going citywide in christchurch ain’t difficult it’s the most material thing you can really manifest. commercial print. it’s still alive. i mean you have digital billboards now but print is still effective. and a fundamental part of the grid. they started promoting music gigs but these days it is difficult to contend with the budget of political parties, large national and especially multinational corporations. that’s where stickers and street level posters still come in. they’re still effective and i mean if you just say hey. i said to a few street kids put these around the skatepark and they went postal. what can you do. a fundraiser night at it’s most successful would run a good campaign though. and that’s the point of it. i think that phantom are pretty locally orientated in ideology and would support it to a degree if it was presenting local culture to the city. they wouldn’t give you the same rates as those corporations. this is only my side of things. other people are working on the intricacies of other stuff. but the more people involved, the better. it’s multi-faceted. more than one night under the umbrella of fundraisers open opportunity for it to be a campaign that does open opportunity for national phantom scope. which a flood of christchurch into the streets might be pretty amazing. half of that art might just be EP/LP orientated. which would be very cool. 2010 thom would approve. j/k it’s just a brainstorm of the realities of it, but something in the works. it’s primarily for exposure of local artists that have global recognition but none in their hometown, but that’s how i see it. if there’s no incentive for it to be a cultural thing then you can’t really gain as much momentum as it perhaps should. that’s why there are so many people involved. art, photography, design, literature, creatives of basically any kind that deserve recognition locally. so basically, fundraisers, culture campaigns; but the basis of it is local musical education and momentum of art, photography, design, literature, creative ideas, anything under the umbrella of christchurch that should be on the streets. e-mail: [email protected] if you have anything you think would fall under this category. i already know most of the stuff that i would want to get out there, and there is a lot. but there are people with hidden talents that sometimes you just don’t see on the surface. especially stuff like literature and photography, and just general creative ideas. 2018 is a new year. and between then and 2020 i want to see this kind of thing become a reality. because i mean, honestly..who else is going to do it. it’s completely up to the people really. aforementioned i’m not going into my own pocket for it. it has to be funded by the people. startup costs, many hands make light work so that isn’t really an issue. but when it comes to sustainable campaigns. A. nightlife in christchurch could be a lot better. B. the streets look stupid C. there is a lot of unrecognised talent D. it’s not the job of the artist to give the audience what the audience wants. if the audience knew what they needed, then they wouldn’t be the audience. they would be the artists. it is the job of artists to give the audience what they need. in latter times artists and writers have allowed themselves to be sold down the river. they have accepted the prevailing belief that art and writing are merely forms of entertainment. they’re not seen as transformative forces that can change a human being; that can change a society. they are seen as simple entertainment; things with which we can fill 20 minutes, half an hour, while we’re waiting to die. as alan moore states more vividly, it’s magic. art is, like magic, the science of manipulating symbols, words, or images, to achieve changes in consciousness. in modern culture and advertising, rather than try to wake people up, it is used as an opiate to tranquilise people, to make people more manipulable. writers and people who had command of words, sound, symbols, images were respected and feared as people who manipulated magic. alchemy. turning leaden consciousness into golden consciousness. that is what the real alchemist wanted. there’s a distinct difference between a bard and a magician. both are equally as important. it’s composed more of storytelling of self and village folk, everyday things. which is just as important as mystic tradition seeking by contemplation and self-surrender to obtain unity with or absorption into the absolute, believing in the spiritual apprehension of truths that are beyond the intellect. it’s a different thing. majority of music these days is neither though. as i mentioned way up in this brainstorm it’s all about money, fame, sexual prowess, illusions of free will and equality, liberty and hallucinations of grandeur. it’s usually got some unconscious undertone. you can look at it as activism quite predominantly on all fronts, but those kind of new neo-genres that stem from things mostly such as punk, metal, hip-hop in a modern age all generally have origins in bardic and magic tradition both. the influence through the ages and development of genres, it does come back to those two things. this is what would have used to have been called obscurato non scriptum. a written eclipse. this is both bardic and magical too. i’m telling folk level stories, but i’m also accessing knowledge supposedly beyond the intellect and creating material that affects perception into a higher level of consciousness bardic tradition was more about storytelling so that’s your tales, comedy, emotive catharsis. but magic is more complex than that. and more powerful than that. but beyond a certain level it’s magic. the divine comedy. inferno, purgatorio, paradiso j/k but still is a bit like that. why would you want anything to be simple to find. better disguised as inane data. it’s not like it means anything unless the words are activated by corresponding the symbols to each other then interpreting it as sensical. it’s far from black magic, but it’s far from white magic. it’s very grey magic. theres a transcendent state you get to where nothing really matters at all, comedy as i mentioned above and below that local culture brainstorm is the only real way you can communicate in this age. that being beyond or above the range of normal or physical human experience. living in a transcendent state. especially when it comes to supernatural that being of or relating to an order of existence beyond the visible observable universe. departing from what is usual or normal attributed to some force beyond scientific understanding. in my case, i’m 1% minority on more than one front, and they cannot explain it. when i look at culture i don’t see a lot of point in most human operation at all, but beyond that there is substance. just a lot of deconstruction and confusion. i can make sense of a lot of it. it’s one thing for me to know these things, but it’s better for other people to have access to (some) of it too. i’m just like anyone else. i’m going through the same things i just have an ability to see things far sighted from multiple perspectives other than my own, which is paranormally extra sensory perception. an empath. to have extreme empathy. just because i can feel what others can, dosen’t mean that is who i am. it just means i understand it, whether i agree with it or not is another story but i can still put myself in their shoes and understand how they think. which is how i get so far with some theories. and i do that without even remotely trying. it’s effortless. there is effort in thought and writing, but do not have to try to do that. it’s natural. is what i mean to say. it’s method. because if i want to know how some psychopathic elite class thinks, i have to become part of that. i have to dissolve and be that. at least while i’m thinking about it. and i do understand how they think. because i’ve spent many hours in that frame, being inside the catacomb of their mind and figuring out exactly who, what, when, where, why and how they operate. they’re not human. not in the sense that we register it. not even slightly, not at all. many cultures were very good at explaining this. the gnostic scriptures are pretty amazing. and they are around library of alexandria era so you know they are almost completely of highest level knowledge. i think on my page i went relatively in depth on everything else. how everything corresponds across all cultures. and that there is one story that bleeds out into the rest. it isn’t that the story is wrong it’s just religion as a construct is create a problem, manufacture a reaction. provide a solution. make changes to the law that citizens would otherwise not accept. happens often. Ordo ab Chao order out of chaos the use of this formula by various governments, groups, and individuals is a historical fact false flag events. covert operations that are designed to deceive in such a way that activities appear as though they are being carried out by individual entities, groups, or nations other than those who actually planned and executed them. there is also such thing as disaster capitalism. it’s easier to just be like well, that’s not true. but do you think they’re stupid? they’re not. without using crises, politicians will not be motivated to make these radical structural changes. this only occurs, such as now, when the problem is already so advanced that they see no alternative. to accelerate the drastic changes that will be occurring globally, crises will be strategically placed on existing political systems. royal and aristocratic lines. they’re rarely of celebrity status. most of them are completely hidden since hundreds, thousands of years ago. completely. they literally do not officially exist in some cases. if people knew who was behind all that, the castle and everything in it would be dust. the levels of secret societies below that are just like servants. wormtongues. ancient formula. has happened for thousands of years. but it is so advanced today, that this is how they operate. depends on the generation, because some generations are probably average batches..i mean, to be honest right now i i think they’re really weak. that order is weaker than it ever has been. there will be a point in time (very soon) and people are pretty woke r/n they’ll get handed down everything. they’ll know everything. and they’ll know what to do. but that burden on them will be heavier than ever. they won’t be able to make a move without slipping. that’s how complex it is now. and it’s perfect veil. what is happening? more and more laws. laws that couldn’t be put in place any other way juggalos. not sure who knows what they are. but they’re now precedent for a fanbase being marked as an official gang by the FBI that’s nothing though, that’s skittles. but that’s the kind of thing that will become more apparent. just little things, put in place so when something happens, anything happens. they can be like well, by precedent you’re a gang leader and you just directed treason. or whatever. it’s a lot more complex than that. that’s just street level relevance one world government. parliamentary, judiciary, executive, everything under one roof. one legislative system. that’s what they want. obviously. they have restrictions too, but a lot more leverage. so what’s going happen? tightening down of the population. more crises. more laws. more crises. more laws. watch out for events that would help that, lots. that would help stop social rejection with more and more threat of force. because the world is powerful right now, they would be pretty shook. more than that. real shook. but half of it they don’t even know about. but that’s the point of the the next thing. intelligence gathering. i’m right here. i’m in the open. what are you going to do? arrest me? why? what did i do? i’m just mentally ill. why would you want to validate anything that i do? by doing something like that? but that’s where it comes in. you get too hot, they’re probably going to roll that kind of modus operandi. oh shit, they gettin organised. better make sure there are laws in place that slam them if they move. then eventually. ultimately. what’s the target? FREE SPEECH good luck with that? nah, the internet. decipher this. idgaf not much is really leaked, but what is leaked is still enough. and what people find out, is more than enough. if they’re playing that sus. then i’m playing open hand. i’m not trying to hide anything, they are. that’s the thing about 7.5 billion humans. it’s a very advanced game. aforementioned. it’s more complex than you initially think so whatever eh. who knows what else is happening. but might as well just produce some gutter glitter because one day it might be a thing of the past. wouldn’t be surprised because the legal framework digitally is still in it’s infancy. 90% of the data on the internet has been created since 2016 wtf that’s the definition of surge. we’re melting. thawing out. i would imagine by 2050 even if the world is not completely blitzed (which is statistically will be, we can’t sustain this paradigm) things will be very dystopian. i’ll be an old man and just be like, i remember when i was 26 and i thought that, now it’s happening. it’s very difficult to see what’s going on. it’s not that apparent. but i would like to hope that something changes because nothing is impossible. terraforming mars is a good idea considering all that. but i mean, if it’s possible..wouldn’t you go back and prove the buggy(s) and the flag and everything is still there in HD? idk mayb terraform the moon first? trial it out, see how it goes. if it works well..then go to mars. put something visible on the moon. so i can see it from here. the original footage dosen’t exist. they claim it was magnetically erased by accident. why would you hypothetically do that? cold war. arms race, technology race. there was a war for superpower after WWII no other country has gone to the moon. why? i’ll believe that one when i see something on the moon visibly. put a smiley face on it. mcdonalds logo. something. i just don’t trust it. something about it. a lot of things about it. providing that they did, which is possible still..why do they not go back and prove it? wouldn’t that be such an amazing thing? seems ridiculous not to go (back) there first regardless of whom. if you can’t terraform the moon in some shape or form, yet alone go back there you can’t terraform mars. there’s just no way. put a trump casino and hotel on the moon on the moon or it didn’t happen i want a burger king on the moon. and i want a rival kfc, and mcdonalds, and a subway in a subway maybe a chill sushi joint too the US (alone) has an annual military expenditure of around $611 billion. their space program is around $40 billion. you would think that a visit, just a visit to the moon is possible. the war on ‘terror’ is basically the only thing in the way of that. something fabricated by (someone) something which is/has cost(ing) over $7 trillion. we haven’t even left low orbit since. SpaceX might do something. and it would be foolish not to do that first before anything else. there are a lot of people saying the same thing. i’m just puzzled by it ever so often. people think the moon is hollow, there are alien bases on the dark side of the moon, all sorts of stuff. i’m just looking at it rationally. i kind of want some modern proof. I’LL TELL YOU WHY IT’S BECAUSE THE EARTH IS FLAT AND ALL YOU SHEEPLE GLOBERS (OR PEAR SHAPED WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT TO CALL IT) ARE BLIND. SHOW ME THE CURVATURE ON THE EARTH. WE’RE LIVING IN A SIMULATION AND THE ARCHONS OF THE DEMIURGE ARE ENSLAVING US INTO NEGATIVE ENERGY PATTERNS TO FEED OFF IN THEIR FARM SHOW ME THE CURVATURE REAWAURGHGHHUGHUHGHH thing is, there’s a lot of truth behind the simulation part, not just in science, but in many scriptures, as with the parasite part. but i’m not going there. it’s futile. it’s interesting though. reading the (ancient) gnostic scriptures properly at the moment and it’s basically all about that. not science, not conspiracy, ancient library of alexandria era record. which is likely very accurate and untouched. angels and demons. it’s all the same story. except this comes from an angle way removed. there are so many different names for the exact same characters. it all pieces together in a way i can’t simply describe. every text is just completely dense with narrative that all corresponds to basically two classes in these texts. which in gnosticism are the demiurge and the archons. the archons are the angels and demons. it’s of the biblical world too. the demiurge supposedly creates the physical universe and the physical aspect of humanity. the demiurge typically creates a group of co-actors named archons who preside over the material realm and, in some cases, present obstacles to the soul seeking ascent from it. so if you go back into biblical texts from there. you have the watchers, and the fallen angels from the watchers. then if you go further back in that timeline you could associate them with the sumerian annunaki. the gnostic texts are only from a particular era, but they likely have more information than the bible which was fabricated before print. if you get too complex you can confuse it unnecessarily. but every culture at least in origin story speaks of that rebellion among that class. so when i hear/see conspiracy theories like that these days i tend to listen a bit more than i used to. then buddhism and gnosis have parallels too like, gnostics believed in Aeons which were kind of like the buddha. or christ figure so they’re fairly common. it’s not like christ was that special. i mean, he was..but not that special. there are something like 29 known buddhas the gnostic scriptures are kind of behind the scenes of the bible. likely a lot of what they knew. when an aeon pops up, they have the holy spirit. so yeah, they’re kind of like the son/daughter of god. the true god, not the false one. which is all just frequency. it’s not material. witches, wizards, warlocks, mages, shamans, mystics..i mean, there is more to it than that. but those are alchemists that achieved/received the divine frequency it’s just ascension. and there are likely so many aeons in this age it’s laughable. but i mean, there’s still a problem. i’m just chilling with my dog listening to music drinking tea. i don’t have any immediate troubles. but it’s obvious that the world isn’t supposed to be like this. we’re supposed to be simulating or directly utilising the patterns and features observed in natural ecosystems. that’s the reason why ancient cultures were more advanced than us. it’s the gift/curse of the far sighted. life is mellow where i live. but i see through everything to the point where i feel a constant urge/surge to unearth this stuff. it’s not going to just go away. i’ve tried that. i know these things, and i can live a simple life in downtime, but this is like work. i should be out drinking or something lol. having a cheeky one now, but it’s 1am nothing worse than having one cold beer, and that’s all you have in the fridge. you might as well have not had one at all. quencher, but leaves you needing another 5 fuck i knew i was supposed to do something tonight. always happens. locked into a mystic trip and forget about life. lyttelton coffee company had an after hours gig. would have been good too. was called ‘f*ck the new city, we want the old one back!’ nightlife is rubbish but at least i’m assured at nights like that the people are authentic. i don’t bother with the commercial circuit. there isn’t enough of one in a broken city to make it worthwhile. fractured areas. it’s nothing like the old grungechurch was. that nightlife sucked, but it was still christchurch. that one beer. nothing worse eh. not even one 24/7 in the city, on the entire island that would be open with a liquor license. might have to go to hell fire club for a dodgy couple after hours. nana state. after that boy racer thing, then the earthquake, the city locked right down. was pretty loose that isn’t on a conspiracy theory level, that was just straight up organic anarchy. Illegal street racing and the anti-social use of vehicles are tackled by measures in the Land Transport (Enforcement Powers) Amendment Act 2009. they’re tackled Drivers who use their vehicles in an anti-social manner are a threat to public safety and can cause excessive noise, disruption and intimidation. The 2009 changes in the Act strengthened existing laws and ensured that penalties became appropriate to prevent repeat offending. A provision for vehicle seizure and destruction is included in the Sentencing Amendment (Vehicle Confiscation) Act 2009. also in 2009 (not related AT ALL) Police may carry out compulsory impairment tests on drivers they suspect of driving under the influence of drugs under the Land Transport (Enforcement Powers) Amendment Act 2009. The compulsory impairment test (CIT) : an eye assessment – pupil size, reaction to light, lack of convergence and nystagmus (eye movement – irregular eye movement is a marker for impairment) a walk and turn assessment, a one leg stand assessment. nice one christchurch. pretty much straight after that the earthquakes happened. so it’s difficult to tell what christchurch would be like. there is supposed to be a meteor shower this morning and south island is the best place to see it. some people have crazy vocal range. my voice is pretty tonal in a kind of rippling effect. i speak in a lot of timed pauses. i tend to need a lot of time on my hands if i want to speak, and some people just have no clue how to weave proper discourse. it’s one thing to know how to talk, but to properly converse is literally an art. to bounce from one person to the other without it becoming fractured is a beautiful thing. and some people i can thread for hours with, others it just becomes a mess. i’ll talk fast, but i’ll pause. then i’ll talk slow, then i’ll pause. as to get a lot of complex information out. then recap it, slowly. so i say the same thing twice sometimes. it depends on the narrative. and in between that i kind of think it’s generally good to go passage for passage and weave the understanding of each others point. because in the arc of a conversation, there is an introduction, probably around 16-24 passages collectively and a conclusion. you don’t map that out, it’s just a general outline. each person (can be more than two, but no more than four to be successful) kind of bounce around concepts and that usually takes it to the next arc for something like discourse to be fluid everyone has to have a base understanding of what’s being spoken about, otherwise it just dosen’t work. but if someone is curious enough it can be twice as interesting because one person presents something that the other person/people then have to decipher from a different perspective. which brings the arcs into different places than it could have previously but a lot of people don’t have the capacity to do that because they can’t see past the left hemisphere of their mind. so they’re very stuck in their ways. they can’t open their perspective to further the narrative. i usually explain something in 2-3 different ways and someone will usually just click with one of them. so you might say something and they’re just like eh, another way they’re like ok..then another way and they’re like gotcha. then the eh makes sense literary hand is different because it’s at your own leisure to get the concept. the clock isn’t ticking and you’re not disrupting the oscillation and momentum of the conversation. most conversation is colloquialisms, so the art of discourse is dying in a complex sense. it’s a lot more about multimedia, glyphic communication and slang. but a good convo is bloody marvellous mate. can’t beat it. couply drinks, couply people, couply hours. couply couply. and you can totally talk about things like that, and it makes more sense. but you just have to throw in a couple of things beyond that for substance. that’s why i write, mostly. because you would need triple or more time to cover the same ground. i’m exhausted though. i’m only human. need to take a while to let it distill. thug life i think however worthless you might feel, value everything you do. because you are not to know it’s significance to whom, what time, where, or why or how. we construct cradles, and we seek cradles. self made, self nourished or not, it’s nurture in the depths of the wound. we heal..and seek medicine for our own ailments. one cradle, does not fit all, one medicine, does not fix all. so we’re forever in search. my effeminate poetry does not make me any weaker of a man, conceptual visions. there’s no master plan. the flesh is weak, strong is the bone. marrow is soft, water defeats solid stone. the primordial scrapings of a lion cannot be compared to the desperate cries of a lost kitten, far from smitten. lit by the fuels that fire in the furnace that burns it. the gut churns it. that’s how i learned it. that’s just random. but if someone wants to skim over these drafts for the graphic novel it would be cool. it’s just basically all about how you decode reality. and that can differ greatly from person to person. taking into account these aren’t just completely random thoughts, and how many hours i spend looking into it. because even if someone sees that, just for a moment. they’re going to have to continue to conform anyway, because there isn’t a lot that you can do. unless you can convince the rest to see that too. because of punishment or threat thereof and danger of leaving the herd. the world is a bit more complex than a farm. but it works on the same principles. at least it used to. it’s a deception of mainstream perception. where a problem is created, a reaction is manufactured for mainstream media, and then a solution is provided. a totalitarian tip toe, because you simply cannot just stride toward that. it has to be scripted. i went into it in this thread somewhere more in depth. without using crises, politicians will not be motivated to make these radical structural changes. this only occurs when the problem is already so advanced that they see no alternative. to accelerate the drastic changes that will be occurring globally, crises will be strategically placed on existing political systems to make changes to the law that citizens would otherwise not accept. i can see things in a myriad of different ways. but then there’s stuff like this the CIA is like a secret society. do you know how much of the government is actually independently contracted, privately owned companies? most of it when it comes to something like the US. the government isn’t just the government. it’s twis-ted it’s like a movie, in the mainstream media. and that’s where the concept of fake news comes from. the politicians know fuck all. unless they’re in on it. and that’s ultimately what they obviously want. china is off it, russia is off it. north korea is off it. heaps of people are completely off it. but there’s enough wormtongues everywhere. all through the EU, everywhere. it’s a virus. it’s that classic thing. puppets. it’s a puppet show. completely, but you can see the strings if you look closely. and this isn’t just something that happened in this generation. fuck no. happened for centuries. ages. i’ve written about it heaps. how certain lines both infiltrate and stay within certain circles. and that’s what you’re handed down. the family business. all the records, everything. that’s just how life would be, like growing up in the upper class. but the real upper class. what we consider upper class and even celebrity upper class is still lower class. the cover for that record is pretty amazin the thing is about this kind of stuff, it shouldn’t make you paranoid. it dosen’t make me paranoid. what is there to be paranoid about? nothing. because it’s an age where i’m just painted to be mad. that’s it. there’s no severe implications for speaking up like this. but then at the same time, it’s not really that mad at all. it’s completely rational within logic and reason that it’s a viable theory. and that’s all it is. if you want to see mad then i’ll show you mad and you’ll be like wwowowowowowowoowowowowowowowo i’m sure i don’t even need to. this world is warped enough. this is all the stuff that i consider viable. but there’s way more that i’d like to believe, but just can’t quite get a grasp on it. this stuff is pretty sure fire as far as it all goes. anthropology is the study of human societies and cultures and their development and the study of human biological and physiological characteristics and their evolution. i’m doing exactly that. i’m just better at it than someone jumping through hoops. so is this anthropology? 100% i think it’s probably more comfortable to be like wow thom’s lost the plot and it’s entertaining but he’s just lost it. but i’m sitting here outside drinking grapefruit juice like, ayo. it’s lit fam. one hunnid i found the plot. get on my level. i don’t actually think like that but i’m more swaying toward that than being paranoid. there’s nothing to be paranoid about. the left hemisphere of the brain is indoctrinated from a very early age to deny anything that does not fit into this world view system. i’m left handed. i live in the right hemisphere, i had to learn how to use the left. it wasn’t natural. then you’ve got the autism. and then you’ve probably got an overlap of something else like schizophrenia both genetic. but does that discredit any of the data just because of a taxonomical categorisation? no. that’s the left hemisphere again. stigma. am i abnormal? yeah. am i stupid though? is there really going to be a future, or have we abandoned changing the world in order to just deconstruct culture? haunted by ideological ghosts, creating a flux and flow of impossibility of change under capitalism. spectres of commodities. the eternal distortion and repetition, regurgitation and remix of ill interpretation, a postmodern symptom of how we have abandoned a quest to transform the real world outside of our understanding or culture, instead dismantling and deconstructing all the ways we have developed to know it. we are no longer living in a world that is changing, more so living in a dream that is haunted by a shallow, one sided history. things we tell ourselves in order to force the present into some sort of untamed world comprehensible. this is precisely what we need to progress, however capitalism keeps us in an eternal loop of misguided atmosphere. a reset amnesia, obsessed with shallow culture and entirely unfocused as a mainstream on what should be deconstructed and remixed ultimately to create utopian societies. what is real is restrained by the ontological world view. which prevents us from seeing things beyond something like the internet as being part of that reality. caught betwixt between a liminal dream. or whatever, and stuff, and like, yeah. like totally but not totally because only kind of but yeah totally but not totally just like, more totally than not totally. it’s an ideological flame war of quite shallow stuff a lot of the time, and that’s ideally what keeps things the way it’s wanted. for people to be against each other and not figuring out things like this. i can’t do much about it. i just wait and bleed. there will come a time within this century where something will slip though, and people are going to see it. more than they see it now. everything that i have documented, will just end up having some kind of modern narrative. which it already does, but not enough for a majority of people to blatantly see that. most people don’t have the time to soak up even a third of what i end up recording, this framework dosen’t allow it. i signed out of all my media accounts before and browsed all the trending topics, everything recommended to me as a blank user. it’s shallow. and even if people did have the time, i still have tens of thousands of hours on them in the topics. people enjoy fast data now. basic. fast data someone has to do it. someone has to work within the system with these concepts, on any front really. and there will come a time with that too. probably like only 10 years or something. i’ll appear back within the framework if and only if it changes though. hats off to anyone that do fight that battle. but i’m processing data like this because by the time it comes back around that i want to present something. it would have distilled. i’m in no rush. but this page is 2017 by 2040 i’m more than likely to be settled enough to recap half a century. which is what i intend to do, and i can only let this stuff float among contemporaries in the meanwhile. and if the system is ripe, then i’ll pick something to teach. most definitely. anthropology, it’s a cool subject. but not if you take a paper in it currently. not even slightly. and they wouldn’t let me even teach a droplet of what i know to undergraduate students. blacklist professor. without a doubt. that’s why i don’t have a public, or extended network. i can’t be held responsible for this kind of information being in the hands of for lack of a better word, an incompetent mind. if i was going through undergrad papers, and i had to write a course structure for them. by the time the beaurocracy had finished with it. i’d probably weep. 20 years from now, might be different. if i presented on a post-grad level a cultural anthropology journal article on even something real basic also, they wouldn’t get it. and if they did..well, it’s going to be malevolently thieved beyond my control for something i perhaps don’t want it used for. contorted into something else. because i’m an artist. i’m not an academic. and i do wholeheartedly see that as selling out. the cultural conscious of the underground via digital media paints a better picture of modern psyche than any statistical research/studies ever will for those than can interpret it correctly on a broad scale. academics never truly will achieve to the scale of what artists can in these fields, thus codifying incorrect maxims of the times. so i mean, there is a duty to set it straight but i still don’t trust the fact that it could be used negatively toward culture. because that’s likely too. that is kind of why i make this such an exquisite mess. i don’t want someone to potentially just be able to waltz in and obtain this information. i do want people to understand it. but the right people. that’s not paranoia. that’s just critical measures. i might have all these things wrong with me. or i might not, they might just be precautionary measures that keep you from too much succession. displacement and regression. and that’s what we do. when we succeed to a point where it feels vulnerably open, then you displace it, or you regress a bit. to me that seems pretty complex. it’s probably something that used to be required a lot more than it is now. cyphering. Vault 7 definitely showed that surveillance state can hack more than just your computer now. anything for audio/video feed. if they wanted to. so it’s not like someone wouldn’t be watching if i triggered keywords, anything on my imprint. not that they are, but just sayin. so if they were like, hu dat. they could just have a look. and that’s how they work. let’s just say i’m being watched (which i’m not). i wouldn’t know about it. and they would just trawl me on surveillance so that when i did do something wrong, i was fucked. but i’m not actually doing anything wrong. my search results would be wild though. that’s just how they work. keeping tabs on people anonymously. i mean they’re only looking for terrorism but terrorism. define that. i tried in an international relations paper. anything threatening to their world view, agenda, whatever basically. but if they made themselves known, then i would know i’m doing something right, so they wouldn’t it’s not that simple to read this stuff. but i’m just an independent researcher, independent anthropologist, sociocultural commentator. free speech, can’t do anything about it. but they wouldn’t want it to be happening. if i had a public network, by precedent as of very recently then i would be considered under some very bizarre laws. which is what they’re trying to do. they are trying to make it look, or even be criminal to do that. so if you ever wondered why i’m not still in academia, or why i don’t go commercial with this kind of this, that’s why. i’m sus as fuck on it because i know they would trawl me quantum. build a file on me, all that. at least i know on facebook it’s all in order. they can’t just cherry pick what they want to case me. they would have to read the entire thing. there’s a flip to the coin though. because being deemed crazy is a good thing. it’s just if you make it seem too translatable to the real world (to the point) that it seems like you’re planning an uprising, revolution, anything like that. then they will smear you. it’s not really about governments. i live in new zealand. but that dosen’t matter. i’m a global citizen of the internet. and it’s about intelligence. intelligence goes beyond governments. they get things done through governments but the quantum crystal ball is in a higher place than that. pretty dark atm for spring. righto. i need a bottle of wine if you mix it with whiskey its very good. if there was a jazz bar i’d definitely be there right now, in the mood for whiskey and jazz. but the vibes are pretty sub par vesuvio is pretty cool, but not on a saturday night. you kind of just want some place that is very uncool. playing really bad fusion jazz he only hits high fashion stores pretty wild. so much damage. “””At some point, all these shops have used graffiti culture as a commercial image, riding the trend without being a part in the least and for which the only point is to make some cash. All I say to them is “hello”; if these brands really like graffiti, I only give them what they like, so what if it’s beautiful or ugly. We gotta stop these brands from dictating a culture that belongs to us.””” at least he has an m/o one of the more powerful statements out there. from Paris, France but it happens worldwide. he goes hard in the paint. in a military base too, prety sus that would have been pretty cool at the time. there was a new york times article in the 70’s called ‘taki 183 spawns pen pals’ and everyone else from different area codes started using the raised railway above the projects as a circulating art gallery. a bit of saturday night cultural anthropology for your dome. interesting stuff. i became interested in street art at around 13 when i started following writers from the bus routes. autism spectrum turns it into a focus. learning all the active writers, who’s up the most. it’s just something to look at and it’s interesting. so i’ve seen a lot of crews, writers come and go and i could probably still name all/most of them from 2003 until about 2010. i have no idea who any of the writers are now. i can’t follow it. dosen’t seem the same. i think it’s very interesting. but i don’t really agree with much other than crown property. that’s kind of the code really. i don’t respect just general vandalism but someone like kidult is an exception because there’s such an important message behind it, and it is focused on conglomerate capitalism, not just some poor person’s fence or local business. once you notice it on the bus out the window, and you take that same route every day, it’s pretty interesting though. that’s how i first saw it. i’d see something on the street, then i’d see it on someones bag or something at school and it was quite mind blowing to be like you are that person? wow. that’s pretty incredible honestly. as a teenager. people from all walks of life wrote street art. we were just people at school that resided around the art/esol block and were mostly musos, artists, that kind of thing. but everyone had a name, and we wrote too. everyone were so interested in it. and that was at iike 13,14,15. the people you meet, sometimes you would just never guess. and if you come from a broken home, rough background, you end up meeting people that are seeking some kind of sanctuary from that too. they’re lost. but it’s cathartic and an escape. i didn’t always agree with all writers and how they saw it and got caught between dumb things. but majority of the time it’s just a community of lost kids. for some people that’s all they had. and for a while it’s all i had. i couldn’t go home because it was a warzone so i’d just sleep in my car up to 5 nights a week. for years, and years. that’s like what, 12 years ago though. i had a house, but i didn’t have a home. so i couldn’t be there. and as soon as i turned 13 i was out of there. any way possible. i feel terrible because my mother and sister went through the worst stages of abuse when i left. i wasn’t even there when my mother got brain damage from repeatedly smashing her skull into a concrete wall. and basically it’s taken so many years for her to come right. when i confronted my father about that, he was superhuman on p and threw me through a wall and was way too close to popping my eye out of it’s socket completely. i mean, just that kind of shit. that’s nothing really. i just hate it when people think i came from a this good background or something. everyone goes through a lot of trauma. but some people don’t understand the extent. people i know are generally carved in the trenches. they’ve been through things to an extent that is far beyond someone else. and that’s why they are who they are. but they’re also the best people. and it’s not just fractured family. it’s not just society. it’s the world view in general. if you see through that, then it’s the same kind of trauma really. people grew up in this perfect world, then all of a sudden it’s all a lie. pictures say 1000 words. but music can probably say like 100,000 sometimes. especially if it’s just more like a suite. just a digital fragment of headspace. i can’t actually navigate music anymore. very interesting statuettes found in sumeria, modern day iraq. anyone’s guess as to what the dilated pupils mean. it could just be something to do with them being worshipper class and the exaggerated eyes are to do with viewer and image, such as being amazed at the annunaki as mainstream scholars suggest. but it’s probably more likely they are intoxicated. both make sense. and i would prefer that the former is true. because it would mean that they were very awe inspiring entities. out of this world. hollow earth theory isn’t something i would go into but i know a lot about it and it’s pretty weird. there definitely is space for an underworld to exist. perhaps inhabitable, unexplorable by us but i mean, that ocean alone. it’s not like there is going to be nothing existing in it. inhabitable, but not by us. we don’t even know that much about the depths of our ocean. and creatures get pretty weird down there the further from sunlight it gets. would surely be some real bizarre species. they are usually luminous of their own design, from what we know, so it wouldn’t exactly be dark. so is it possible there are things equally as or more intelligent down there? possibly. it’s possible yeah what is strange is over 6000 years ago that ocean was accurately described. The Abzu or Apsu (Cuneiform: … “there are similar stories everywhere concerning that. but it is the first known story, so if it came from somewhere it came from there. you have scholars saying stuff like “”The Greeks may have borrowed this mytheme from the Ancient Near East”” about the titans. which is an origin story very similar.” they fall into a class of similar myths throughout europe and the near east concerning a war in heaven, where one generation or group of gods largely opposes the dominant one. “The wars of the Æsir with the Vanir in Scandinavian mythology, the Babylonian epic Enuma Elish, the Hittite “”Kingship in Heaven”” narrative, the obscure generational conflict in Ugaritic fragments, Virabhadra’s conquest of the early Vedic Gods, and the rebellion of Lucifer in Christianity.” The god Ea (whose Sumerian equivalent was Enki) is one of the three most powerful gods in the Mesopotamian pantheon, along with Anu and Enlil. He resides in the ocean underneath the earth called the abzu (Akkadian apsû), which was an important place in Mesopotamian cosmic geography. For example, the city of Babylon was said to have been built on top of the abzu. Ea is the creator and protector of humanity in the Babylonian flood myth Atra-hasīs and the Epic of Gilgameš. He hatched a plan to create humans out of clay so that they could perform work for the gods. But the supreme god Enlil attempted to destroy Ea … In the myth Adapa and the South Wind, Ea helps humanity keep the gift of magic and incantations by preventing Adapa from becoming immortal Considered the master shaper of the world, god of wisdom and of all magic, Enki was characterized as the lord of the Abzu (Apsu in Akkadian), the freshwater sea or groundwater located within the earth. In the later Babylonian epic Enûma Eliš, Abzu, the … pretty trippy stories but that’s the first one. and everything else supposedly originates from that. so any origin story found, is just an adaption of it. but we also likely have a lot more of the other stories because that was over 6000 years ago. and since then most of it, even still to this day, is being destroyed. the middle east is being torn apart and most of that stuff is dust. so it’s likely that stuff from say, 2-3000 years ago is more accurate record of that kind of thing. they would have had more knowledge of it. but jeez, that story travelled though. it becomes less foggy the more you look at it, but it’s still completely trippy. it seems important. you don’t just have word travel like that. if it’s not important. not within a generation, not just intergenerational, mind you over thousands and thousands of years, but intercontinental. before they supposedly could even do that. wtf it’s explainable, they did explain it. but it’s just coming to terms with all of that. how could that possibly all have happened. must have been some good apples. but that’s not the vibe. intergenerational, isolated correlations. blows my mind behind comprehension. they weren’t all chilling on google hangouts drafting a dope brainstorm together. they didn’t even know each other. and it still connected. who what when where why and how. it’s the most complex story to understand in the world. because it is the world. as your ocean of knowledge grows, so too do your shores of doubt. so there is a lot of doubt in this world for me. which is what leads me to many conclusions that this world is far from precise. i don’t trust it. something just seems awry. even with any of the data. i still would feel the same. i did the same thing. it’s called a sensory anchor. i have a few books on autism spectrum but haven’t read them that much. very interesting though considering i have it. they explain a lot of that world that otherwise seems pretty weird, but to that world it’s completely normal. my particular repetitive behaviour and special interests likely prevent me from what they call stimming in a self harming kind of way. i’m learning more about it. these threads are a great compendium of knowledge, i’m just not indexing it like i used to. i used to be very pedantic about everything being like that but you trade that in for faster workflow. and the hours you put in, you become specialist field in whatever that is. it’s beyond ridiculous but this is just where i’m at with this stuff in particular at the moment. it’s pretty apparent to me that i’m probably quite chronic to a level threshold at stages. but i’m still high functioning in some senses. some people calm me down. i’m naturally fire so i do tend to need that water or earth connection. other people who are fire, or wind are strong allies, but i tend to not connect with them unless it’s a particular requirement for something that calls for that kind of fusion. that’s a pseudo way of looking at it. but a good one. ancient concepts, but probably more relatable with a comic or something like that. just a creative way of explaining something. the west has absolutely trashed them. this might seem kind of chaotic, and it is. but as alan moore said, writing is a very focused form of meditation. just as good as sitting in a lotus position. which is more the basis of not that tradition. some something like mysticism, tao or tantra. contemplation, reflection, going with the flow, weaving. which is still ultimately ascending consciousness. he also said that our ideological mental structures..political structures, philosophical structures, ideological frameworks, economies are just imaginary things. yet it’s the framework we have built our entire world upon. that a strong enough wave of information could completely overturn and destroy all of that. a sudden realisation that would change our entire perspective of who we are and how we exist. it’s just obvious to me that the real history of the world is known, and we’re not privy to it. and we have that information, but not the solidification of truth. which is not impossible to obtain. just like art and writing is not merely a form of cheap entertainment, either is the art of sound. it’s magic in every sense of the word. it’s just seen as something now to pass the time. but it never was just that and it’s still not. they’re not seen as transformative forces that can change consciousness, society. as alan moore said. and it’s been sold down the river. it’s just advertising. tranquillisers instead of a splash of water in the face. putting people to sleep. opiating them. making them more manipulable instead of waking them up and heightening consciousness. it’s just not seen that way anymore. but it hasn’t changed. magic is only acceptable for a certain class, for a certain purpose. and it’s persecuted at another. and i think that’s only going to heighten. and people aren’t going to accept that. there’s simply just too many people that get it now. administration is required. it’s fundamental. integral to society’s function. but the extent to what it is directing toward? not at all. there’s a simpler fix. fin

Text i’ve been here for 236520 hours. still not entirely sure what is going on. i’ve got a fair idea though. i’m a writer. not an actor. and naturally i can notice a script when i see one. above the grid, try think like them. just for a moment. above everything. you’re in a family that has since birth taught you a way entirely different to other people, and you do not interact with others within that grid unless it is in regard to an agenda. you are entirely above the citizen class. only a certain group of families, plus corresponding servant classes privy to certain levels of knowledge. do you think they would be stupid? far from it. they would have crystal clear knowledge of (almost) everything, handed down to them, likely vaults and vaults of it. resources beyond belief and an agenda. it is daft to think that people above the grid are not orchestrating world events to a certain degree, or at least they have been. as far as i am aware they would be weaker than they have been at any point in history. coming to conclusions that everything is random and people are stupid is a grave misconception. i wouldn’t rule it out, but i wouldn’t not rule it out. because i would not be worried about people that show themselves, but rather people that do not. it’s all a game. and they’re playing interdimensional hallucinatory chess beyond what we can even possibly see. that is the illusion of this system. 1 king. 1 queen. 2 rooks. 2 bishops. 2 knights. 8 pawns. that’s the game we know. but they’re not playing by those rules. do you think they don’t think before they move? of course they do. they think far in advance. and i think human empathy is a trait people that that class simply does not have. collateral damage. it does not matter how, it just matters that it is done. what is their agenda? i mean that’s just the classic conspiracy theory. globalist agenda. one world view, one system. one executive, legislative, judiciary, parliamentary framework. it’s not like everyone is in on it, this is just the predominant, winning agenda. it’s an intelligence age. you an anonymously hack anything. heard of stuxnet? malicious worms were around before computers though. well before computers. it’s nothing to be worried about, even though it ultimately is. inverted totalitarianism. there is no clear oppressor. so the blame is shifted around various actors that simply have nothing to do with it. that is the catch 22. if we knew who the oppressors were. all this energy would have been directed straight at them. not random events. neatly scripted. and i know a script when i see one. and it has been this way for thousands, and..thousands of years. the agenda has always been one world governance. always has been. when i’m talking about a script i’m talking about the entire thing. not current events. that is seemingly unnoticeable. royalty, aristocracy, wormtongues most royal lines went underground yearz ago history is written by the victors. and it’s not accurate. however the cultural conscious of the underground via digital media paints a better picture of culture than any statistical research/studies ever will for those than can interpret it correctly on a broad scale. academics never truly will achieve to the scale of what artists can in these fields, thus codifying incorrect maxims of the times. and this hasn’t been a thing before. the internet. how would they be playing? intel. crystal ball quantum intel. there’s foundations on here. the steel, the concrete. the base floor. but if you build up to the floor we’re at. that’s how it is. and that floor is a server room. might just work thru smoko and finish early. got a lighter or nah i’m vaping mate sub ohm 12mg nic 50ml falling angel liquid 16.8w 5.4v cloud chaser quad coil Dedication, Nothing and With Love on 4AD as concepts were pretty authentic, but how could you not be susceptible to entropy sketches again after that when you’re experiencing that level of pattern. understandable i think. pretty cool concepts even if they’re just constructed for effect, which i highly doubt they are. they’re just a compilation of sketches. but that’s the best thing about those albums. they are specific to a concept which has narrative, that isn’t just of entropy and gloop. which is what i look out for in music somewhat. i seldom listen to something that does not have a concept with substance. time and a place though. it’s headphone music. or at least home record play. club music is for clubs. it’s what gets me through half the time, knowing that other people think the same way that i do. and that is primary reason why art is vital. especially if you only experience things at certain times, that you might not celestially make apparent connection to initially but then realise it is mostly only at those times. and you spend the rest of it figuring out how or why. art direction either way is cool “digital flora/digital fauna 10″” was very original, that signature arp sound is quite apparent as soon as you hear it.” let’s jam, ultra and gasp! are a different vibe, which i still understand because of the unreleased material but in artist spotlight i think that dedication, nothing and with love were integral to a lot. lorn is very conceptual in an authentic way. i enjoy his catalogue because it is that same entropy/struggle/realisation the entire way through. boards of canada have to be my favourite discography though. a toss up between that and burial. when it comes to organic reflection/realisation/actualisation/projection they made a perfect catalogue of records. simon shreeve concepts are pretty second to none also. in terms of new zealand RQ and Forever In Search you can’t get any better than. arca has a very complex understanding of things. i really enjoy that work. when it comes to just sheer force, effect, conduit, momentum, oscillation and activism i could reel off a number of names. but i’m just really talking about deep narrative within an ascending sequence. coming out of the same movement i think peverelist has had a clear vision all along. not so apparent but very distinct when it comes to just raw pattern recognition opposed to particular concept. which is quite different. a lot like someone like iglooghost does with fantasy. all these nü-idm-fwd>> movements have overflowing pools of intelligent concepts, but i think i’ve probably documented heaps already. the best album isn’t even an album. that album is next level. you don’t need to make music again after that. i really want to go to a kitten cafe for some reason. just drink some coffee and watch kittens running around everywhere. japan is cool like that if you feel like doing that, you can. there are glimpses of utopia in japan. it’s more representative of what it would be like anyway. there isn’t a single place that has a better perspective of the world than japan. not necessarily their government. but the culture. traditional or modern it’s still the best outlook on life. honour, respect, creativity. i like that balance between edo era and modern japan and that tradition is still flourishing and it’s only the greater cities that are completely swamped with capitalism. it’s fine in doses. i did enjoy the traditional more than the modern metropolis. but that is really how it should be, separation of city and town. i hope that people there, and everywhere still do carry on the traditions and gifts of their ancestors. i do i think that instability of mental state in the world is primarily a symptom of capitalism, not the only cause but it does not help. i have amnesia of my culture. i don’t really have that kind of tradition, so i mean..it’s weird to just be a new zealander. because there is no history behind that. i can study my family tree, get dna tests, all that sort of thing but there isn’t something i can actually just say hey. this is who i am. i’m not a colonial settler, i think my family came here in the 60s? escape from the northern hemisphere because of the cold war to the furtherest place possible because of nuclear concern. i can trace my family back to 1066 and after that it’s just dna tests. 41% northern european, 38% mediterranean, 19% southern asian but from record it’s mostly of nordic origin. that’s only 41% though. my life has been a lot of trauma, unbalance and of late hallucinatory almost possession of time, space, identity breaches but i’m finally in control of it to a level that i can condense that knowledge in time into something that will help the world somewhat. once i can figure out that compression technique. likely i’ll understand things enough to create one concise, lucid thread. i think this page is condensed for what it is. but not to the point where it’s comprehendible to anyone. it’s just under 1460 hours of research. i would consider much of that to be downtime, but probably more accurately classified as calibration. fine tuning. exorcism well that got the birds singing. 001001101010011100100110101001110010011010100111001001101010011100100110101001110010011010100111001001101010011100100110101001110010011010100111001001101010011100100110101001110010011010100111001001101010011100100110101001110010011010100111001001101010 … chord marauders sound like a japanese jazz bar after a few whiskeys japanese single malt whiskey is best in the world. like a hallucinogen it depends why you are listening to music. there are many different levels of purpose. i tend to see music as a cathartic cleanse. something that i engage in regularly to keep myself in tune. but the sequence means everything. a good artist will have e verything required. a good shaman can produce an album, or a catalogue that is standalone. and it is ready to go, without rearrangement, without having to source from other waters. FIS knows how to do this and he is the most powerful shaman of my knowledge. same waters. same hometown. the waters are strongest where you are from. journey to those waters and you are assured a potent elixr. and you don’t get much more powerful than pegasus bay when it comes to one small place with a lot of sound. these lorazepam have me feeling like play-doh about to take a temazepam too those things are supposed to put you to sleep but they’re quite activating euphoric benzo. the most probably. alprazolam, clonazapam, diazepam, lorazepam. vital for the cabinet. temazepam is a strange one. it’s well euphoric and it’s never made me want to go to sleep before. just really tranced out. In a Scientific cosmology, things such as demons, possession and such ‘magic’ is not considered a part of this framework of thought, as scientific, medicinal research goes on, especially neuroscience. These things are beginning to be explained as a disease of the mind, that inhibits function and/or growth. In earlier western times, much like other existing cosmologies that could be used for example, patients experiencing mental illness were often put into religious care. Religious thought until quite recently believed many mental illnesses to be ‘the devil’s work’, relying on prayer, exorcism and other practices attempting to remedy the subject. In modern times, as spoken of above, science is relied on in order to attempt to understand these occurrences, trial and error with chemistry being used to balance out chemical imbalance in the brain, many substances since being banned or discredited in medicine. First generation anti-psychotics appeared in the 1950’s, with atypical antipsychotics appearing later. Although Psychology and Neuroscience is still in it’s infancy in western culture, coming from philosophy and religious belief into what we now classify as science (as of the 1980’s) we have the model that is operated in today. What is considered real. This is based on the cosmology’s views that any religious and spiritual beliefs cannot be considered truth, that the medical model we refer to relies on accepted mainstream science. These ideas meet at crossroads also, and can become parts of hybrid belief systems encompassing more than one world view. Within the scientific world view, any religious or spiritual beliefs cannot be known as it does not tie in with mainstream scientific view. Everything must happen in accordance to scientific rule. Therefore, if someone experiencing mental illness has a … In this world view it can be known that certain chemicals succeed in inhibiting certain brain processes that accelerate the mind to (using as example) create psychosis, and unstable emotional elevation and depressing. As mentioned before, much cannot b e explained under scientific view still, but medical view has changed over time, as science has changed. What is known currently is how to suppress certain occurrences with chemicals, by studying neural circuitry. Pharmaceutical research is accepted, alongside the DSM which outlines characteristics, symptoms that define people to be classed as having these disorders. It is known there is still much work to be done medically in understanding such conditions like mental illness. What cannot be known medically is anything that does not fall distinctively under the modern mainstream scientific model, what does not fall under the DSM, and anything of the mind can be contained chemically. In a scientific model, in the practice of treating mental illnesses such as psychosis, chemistry has the most value, as medication is the main form of rehabilitation and treatment for patients experiencing these disorders. Other holistic practices are also accepted in conjunction with medication, such as exercise, relaxation therapy, positive socialisation and various other activities considered beneficial alongside chemical medication. Parts of other cosmologies may be absorbed and modified to fit the cosmological model that absorbed it, such as yoga or acupuncture..which will not accept the existence of ch’i for example, but will use the practice as part of a holistic medicine model alongside conventional science. ontological/epistemological/axiological world view points according to the scientific cosmology. which i wrote for a paper that is too dense to post. but that part is still interesting. its goes into the history of it a lot more. so what can be real. what is known, can be known, and what is of value. ontology/epistemology/axiology. with cosmology being the origin story we go by. western medicalised models are really bogus. but at the same time pharmacological treatment is necessary and it’s good alchemy. if didn’t take lithium i wouldn’t be stable. that is likely, but not certain. the only time i would take atypical antipsychotics would be if i felt i needed them. and they are in my cabinet, an array of them. i just don’t feel i am delusional. that is the strange thing about this cosmological, ontological, epistemological, axiological world view. i use them almost recreationally, i might take half of one if my mind begins to spin out a bit just to level it all out. the overlap of autism and anything else creates an entirely new diagnosis. one independent from a typical diagnosis. one that doctors simply cannot diagnose accurately. in that sense i understand the cosmological, ontological, epistemological, axiological spectrum of thought a lot better than they do. especially in a personal case. anything can be contained chemically. and it is all in the word contained. they can contain it. it’s some phase of the waxing and waning moon, or it’s an equinox, solstice, or some other celestial event unknown to me, they are rendered null. and i can tell you that from a lot of experience. you can administer all the pharmacological treatment you want in that time and it’s not going to soften the severity of the visions the field i am attached to is ultimately unknown, but i’m getting better at researching it because it happens at the same time of the year, give or take the leniency, every year. the time, space, identity breaches that occur would be enough for most people to completely give up. i don’t and cannot articulate that part of it. it’s a filtration system. what i see and feel is different somewhat to what i write about. because it has gone through a sieve stack more complex than just producing fine sand. it is a translation to this world. if i recorded raw code, it would be a lot different. the filtration system i have devised works, for me. that data is available to my network. but it is also mostly just for me because i am spending 85% of my time in a good enough place to make sense of that 15% occurrence. lithium, diazepam, lorazapam, alprazolam, temazepam, they all help. but they contain it. they don’t stop the occurrence from happening if that is what the state of the sky is like. it overrides any pharmacological treatment. even when also taking something like aripiprazole or quetiapine i take that medication at my leisure. if my secure is lost on this layer i might take half of one to float back down a little bit. if i’m feeling like hyperreality is too much to cope with. but i am not on a course of them daily. and if i was i would be a complete zombie. lithium is quite iffy. you have to take blood tests all the time to stay within the therapeutic range because the toxic range is uh, toxic. but it does work. even though the side effects suck. it’s a mood stabiliser. the way i use atypical antipsychotics is at leisure as mentioned. if i feel as if i’m not coping i will use it to float myself back down. but taking it everyday is like turning yourself into a chemically zombified shell of a human holistically i understand what works for me, and they don’t really have any place in my treatment plan. however at the moment i’m just taking half an aripiprazole just because i had to float down from where i was. it wasn’t sustainable. the flesh is weak, and you deteriorate. the spirit is willing, but the body needs a break. Mental illnesses refer to disorders characterized by dysregulation of mood, thought, and/or behavior, which is a diagnosis achieved by practitioners from the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual, of the American Psychiatric Association (2000). It is currently in it’s 5thedition. The fourth edition, is what is still used in diagnosis, of which this definition was taken from. Sadock & Sadock (2007) state that psychotic disorders are characterized by dysregulation of thought processes. In particular, schizophrenia has hallmark symptoms of delusions – which are false beliefs – and hallucinations – which are hearing and/or seeing sensory information, which is not actually present and is not apparent to others. Andreasen & Black (2007) speak of schizoaffective disorder as a disorder in which, as its name implies, individuals have features of both schizophrenia and mood disorders. Typically, psychotic disorders are treated with antipsychotic medications and some forms of psychosocial interventions. This conclusion too, is arrived through the guidance of western medical study and a pharmacological treatment framework. Loewenthal (2007) speaks of Mental health as being defined either ‘negatively’ or ‘positively’ by the presence of features said to be characteristic of mental health. That mental health as absence of one of more specific psychiatric illnesses is an ap … Leading up to the dominant scientific medical worldview used, it is important to look at the history of where this particular western model of science of medicine evolved from, therefore, looking at the middle ages of Europe is a good place to begin. P … People were often accused and tried for practicing what was defined in this time as witchcraft also. Psychopathology in this time was invented however, by a Christian philosopher named Thomas Aquinas, alongside a scientist and doctor named Albertus Magnus. This operated on the basis of that insanity can arise from physical means as they did not believe that the ‘soul’ could become ill. As time went on, western society began to further scientific advance in mentally ill individuals. Especially post-enlightenment era in which the focus shifted greatly from religion to scientific approach. The term psychosis was created by Karl Constatt as an abbreviation of ‘psychic neurosis’, as the term was used for any nervous system disease at the time. The term ‘Psyche’ means soul in greek, and ‘osis’ means an abnormal condition.This was directly … The politics of accepting the current model of medicalised and pharmacologoical treatment of mental illness and it’s developments circulate largely around this history, as the frameworks of our law and medical system, although having ethical, ideologic … Accepting these medical and pharmacological views means accepting the scientific cosmology, in turn, following the ontological, epistemological and axiological components of this worldview. In doing so, you are trusting in scientific and medical developments of late, and historical views thought obsolete, or views that never worked within this paradigm cannot be believed, thought, practiced or viewed as truth. The corresponding mental health legislation to the country you are a citizen of must be adhered to, that you must act accordingly and not deviate from the societal, governmental, legal conventions of normality by means that this ‘act’ of legislation can be used upon you for a member of public that may have a mental health professional such as a nurse, police officer or judge analyse your capacity to be deemed well. After this process, a doctor, whom may hold you for compulsory observation of your state before presenting the result to a judge in which a mental health act can be issued for you in where you are legally bound to be held by ‘mental health professional … This in patient treatment can carry on for anywhere from a week, to multiple months of incarceration, with possibilities of minimal leave from the facility. Even once you are given discharge from their mental health hospital, you are rarely relieved of … This measure is put in place to ensure the recovery and wellbeing of the patient upon returning to society after their mental health deterioration, so outpatient centre nurses and social workers can do their best to help the individual into coping and … Pharmacological treatment will be subsidised by your status as an outpatient, and your local doctor, or mental health professional will ensure that you are getting the treatment that works best for you, that you are adhering to the guidelines of taking … but thur iz a flipsyde Those rejecting the medicalised model and pharmacological treatment are those who show deviation from the legislation stating when authority can enforce treatment under an act, showing a deterioration of the social norm of mental health under the domin … In a positivist law theory, it claims that law is not based on morality, but based on if the sovereign has created it, a supreme lawmaking body of the land has created and implemented the law. This makes it valid, unless the public reject it, which in … In natural law theory, it is concerned with disagreeing with a moral status of law, accepting or rejecting it. Law is for shaping relations between societal members, regulating relations, imposing behaviours, preferred practices, articulated as rules, … Even to protect the moral fabric of society itself. Government can regulate any behaviour to be immortal, it is highly questionable who should be truly able to regulate and impose morality in society. If morality is subject to change, and if history is … Creating recent international documents like the UN General Assembly’s Universal Declaration of Human Rights (1948). Morality can also derive from natural origin, of things perceived to be the natural laws of existence. The problem with all of this, is that upon rejecting a certain world view such as medical models and pharmacological treatment, is that many are living within a western world view dominant world, in which most states do have these models solidified und … Psychosis is going to have a majority vote in most, to all modern states as being a mental deterioration, and treated in accordance to medical models and guidelines as spoken about above. Indigenous nations still operating shamanism, witchcraft and alt … The politics of rejecting this worldview in a state that adheres to it, is going to result in the above systems of law being placed upon you, you will be recognized as being in a deteriorated, unwell state of mind and that your mental health, and those … In this case, as described earlier we have trained people such as nurses who may evaluate someone who there has been concern about, violence or other potentially dangerous behaviour has been noted then police officers will generally become involved if … If one rejects this mandatory period of observation, and attempts to re-enter society then a warrant for your arrest will be issued, and you will be taken to a hospital where you will be held against your will and if you do reject pharmacological treat … You may continue to leave the hospital and re-enter society of your own free will, but because of the mental health act placed upon you, you are no longer seen fit as a member of society, and regardless of the cultural, cosmological affiliation you may … In that instance entering the wilderness, laying low from authorities until they can no longer exhaust their resources looking for you would be an option, although forever on record that they were a mentally unstable patient that went missing from hosp … For someone who perhaps does see the world in such a manner that their beliefs, experiences, actions and alternative approach to living, subscribing to a worldview deviant to those codified in state, this is the sad reality of imperial worldview shaping what is and is not morally acceptable, credible or valid when it comes to approaching health, medicine, belief and other cultural practice. Upon reaching a conclusion i have found to review both accepting and rejecting the models to be of substantial relevance to a greater problem Morality is something that is entirely subjective to the eyes of the beholder, when it comes to abiding to a s … Our morality came from a religion, absorbed other ideologies over time to forge over time what became a largely scientific worldview post-enlightenment era, still built upon a singular religious faith foundation, continuing to trample on and absorb onl … bonus lvl that’s only half that paper, less than half. the only thing about vaporisers is it dosen’t have the same vibe as a park drive and a coffee. i can not smoke 95% of the time. but when i drink coffee, i want a cigarette. same goes with if i’m having more than one alcoholic beverage. i think smoking only in those instances is fine, and a vaporiser essentially wards the habit and you’re still getting nicotine when needed for focus. i like a cigarette after 3 glasses of pinot noir. or 4 beers. or a couple of nips of whiskey. and it will be like that soon. a luxury but yeah, basically i am schooled up. i understand sociocultural matters enough to have a voice on them. you should be able to buy a single drink with a cigarette attached to it like in some other countries. because that might be all you’re after. Our morality came from a religion, absorbed other ideologies over time to forge over time what became a largely scientific worldview post-enlightenment era, still built upon a singular religious faith foundation, continuing to trample on and absorb onl … over 28 albums. but i usually only dub 12 send an address to [email protected] or [email protected] and i’ll send through the entire boxset for the cost of postage. my friend jasmine coined the term antipodean gothic in an article. she is writing theses in critical theory. which explains our strain of that layer of culture. but southern culture alone. Christchurch and Dunedin especially have their own distinct cultural markers opposed to somewhere like Wellington or Auckland. i think that Antipodean Gothic sounds better. but Southern Gothic is more specifically linked to how i feel about Christchurch and Dunedin. it’s not a stereotypical european gothic. it has it’s own quaint charm about it that only someone that truly lived here would understand in it’s intricacies. and that is essentially some of our culture. heathen, pagan influenced neo-culture somewhere between kiwiana and pagan lineage. our pre 1066 lineage, which we simply do not have much about. there is a lot of romanticisation of it, many people rarely look into it probably. they might know about the druids or the wicca. but the history is an important one. the history of my, and likely a lot of others lineage to a particular point. i can only trace 41% to northern europe, but that is still predominant. after the conquests around 1066, it is likely that many people lost basically all of their culture, heritage, everything. we could come from very special families, but that knowledge was not passed down to us. in a way we are living in an amnesia beyond the amnesia of the system. because storytelling is important. and we lost those stories. the left hemisphere of our brain is good at denying ideas that do not fit into the current paradigm, because it’s left hemisphere programming. 326 a few unreleased bits in those shows alongside heaps of other good unreleased stuff. notably the track ‘stand firm’ which is an elusive file in a galleon of headland dubs. the joint have been at it for years. good show also garden shed on radioactive. they aren’t in the current, they are the current. they pick up on nz music on the regular, daily, hourly. christchurch without the gloss i kind of wish someone ripped off a cardie for that picture. would also be better with a tin of bud probably zig zag blues too they’re more kiwi you left the ashtray in the rain fuarkkkkk blast chord static. fizzing probably done enough study over the past two months to make a surface cultural anthropologist weep. school’s out fo tha summer i can paint a picture that is very real. but this stuff is also real. it’s more the real real, material real. not the real real, metaphysical real. culture is just so different today. when i speak to someone like my mother, there are 18 years between us. and even in that time things have rapidly changed. when i look at my little cousins. their world is every more different to mine. the 90s as a kid compared to now. my grandparents are probably the same age as a lot of people’s parents. so i knew my grandparents and great uncles when they were pretty young. and i knew my great grandparents for over a decade. earlier in this thread i spoke about how the art of storytelling and record keeping before around 1000 is basically null. that’s no mistake. people were gathered up and forced into indoctrination of one royal line. who you were before that? irrelevant. you are now a citizen of this hegemonic rule. everything else is outlawed, everything else is blasphemy, everything else is heretic. he was more like my mother’s brother, and my uncle. because they grew up together. he was pretty mystic. so my great grandparents were more like my grandparents and my grandparents were more like uncles and aunts. my mother’s name is Joni. she’s pretty cool. complex family tree blessed 2 see those lines under her eyes are now gone. she went through a lot of trauma. my father lives on the outer reaches of pegasus bay, somewhere toward leithfield beach. he’s 47. catch up with him for dinner or to see a film occasionally, but my mother and sister have protection orders out against him. he’s still my father but we don’t get along that well. try to these days but there’s way too much toxicity. never goes well. i’ve always been the intermediary so he’s used to shifting the entire blame of everything on to me. addiction is a monster, and i mean none of it was my fault. anyone who repeatedly bashes a woman’s skull into a concrete wall while the daughter is under the bed crying in my eyes deserves to go to prison. and he did three times. it’s addiction, but he had all the help in the world and had everything going for him and he would still smuggle alcohol and drugs into rehab. he’s a good guy underneath it all. but it’s like darth vader, when you take the mask off he’s a withered remnant of who he once was. which is sad. he had a rough life. a very rough life. but he ended up being the person that he hated the most. worse. he has another family now, and probably treats them the way he should have treated us. which is a shame but i’m just glad they don’t have to go through what we did. joni just told me that he had a black eye in that picture from a fight at the pub because of sleeping with someone else. he wasn’t home a lot. and when he did get home he would be covered in alcohol and urine, car crashed into the fence and then he would beat me and my mother while my sister was usually sleeping. so i mean, that isn’t a nice picture apparently. i think my father’s life was like a conspiracy theory to my mother. she only heard things through the grapevine but could never be sure if they were true or not. but as time went on things just pieced together into a really nightmarish reality that eve … he never really had that much of a part in raising us. what he did teach me at least was a lot of street knowledge from an early age. i was autismo i picked up on err thang that’s the difference between me and my sister. other than three years, which on october 31st she turns 24 which is W E I R D but i mean she had it a lot more sheltered than me for a majority. i was autismo and i saw things basically on level with the situation from the beginning. thats how toxic it is for me to even bring up my father, it wasn’t supposed to roll out like this but that’s the animosity of it all. anyway. family trees. they disappear after about 1000 my maternal line H3B is 0.2% of known dna data and my paternal line R-M222 is 2.6% so my maternal line is rare in structure both actually rare, but H3B is extremely rare. 0.2% rare ayo wasup bbygurl. what percentages you at? better not be none of that XSB-000 gene u feel me. holler at this swab and i’ma get back 2u in a cool minute. yizzur. now what chu say yo name was? 33% asian god dayum, god dayum. ooh wee. i feel dat. feel dat. but i don’t fuxx wit no RFD-49 genome back yo hoe ass up u ain’t nuttin but a trick to me. u some nasty azz mudblood girrrllllllllll yikes i’m bounce and ayo peace to the zulu nation i’ma n … i wish i could talk like that. would be so much more entertaining. it’s an artform. post-literate. gamers. 360 noscope 420_kRoN1k_420 pretty good vibes. anyway when it comes to family trees, heritage, lineage and then actual relation. it’s not difficult to see why and how certain lines remained within a certain group of people and didn’t leave. there is only a limited amount of lines that go back thousands of years without mutating with the rest of the population, at all. likely attempting to remain pure but there is such thing as a throwback gene from the pool, and there is also such thing as the 60s, 70s and spliced up ancestors that made our code a lot stronger. i have 1% minority diagnoses. 10% left handed minority and even as low as 0.2% dna minority as far as data allows. i’m just as much in a minority group as anyone else. and that’s all genetic. i refuse to say that it’s anything but a positive selection from the gene pool. i just know nothing about anything. at least i had nothing handed down to me. this isn’t limited to me, i’m just providing some data into how it is. it’s likely the same for 1/3 people i know because they are also in that minority of code. there are 7.5 billion humans. so 1% of that has a code that is considered a deficit to modern world view, but people high functioning within that 1% are even less, much less. it’s likely that by now, i only know people within that spectrum. more than likely, and very probable. the left hemisphere of the brain is still at work. so we stay gridded into this world view. as do i. but it dosen’t take away from the fact that the right hemisphere, the gut, everything else is just like nononononononononononno the left hemisphere is programmed to deny anything that does not fit the modern world view. indoctrinated ever since the quickening of your soul but by observing this process, we expand our awareness and enhance our free will. enhance is the key word. because i’m not so sure we have a great degree of agency as far as the ultimate concept of free will goes. as well as in science as in our daily lives, the extent to which we can calculate or figure out probabilities is determined by our intellectual capability to recognise patterns. the less biased we are, the clearer we can identify the patterns and base our actions on reasonable probabilities. the more attached we are to a belief system, the less able we are to make conscious choices for ourselves there is no such thing as a free choice while being attached to a belief system we’re good at pattern recognition. research shows that certain disorders correlate with high creativity and intelligence, raising questions. are so-called mental defects being positively selected for in the gene pool? where is the line between gift and deficit? the line is a fine one, one that i have come to understand the meaning of high functioning. but i had to teach that to myself. the line between genius and madness is paper thin. it’s interesting though. it’s greyscale. you don’t want to go too black, but you also don’t want to go too white. you can shade all the way up until. and it’s still grey. there’s white and black, they’re both mad i collect vials from the outer pools of both. but i never actually enter the lands. and there is no need to. but you can see the lines which is why i used it 666_gReYsCaLe-[]-sOuLjAh_777 O-o-O-o-O-o_O-o-O-O-o_O-o it’s better to have a flow like that. but O-O-O-O-O-O-O-O-O-O-O-O-O-O is better o-////////-o/////////o//////o////// and not that O——-O——O——O———-O—O-O-O //////x///////x///X///X///x///x/// i like this one O-o-O-o-O-o_O-o-O-O-o_O-o if you wanted to be really cool you could call it the silver spectrum and call white gold and black obsidian. hi lvl magic book greyscale is an easier way to explain it. i mean there is an entire electromagnetic spectrum that we can see 0.0035% of which is 0.005% of known energy in the universe. i’m just using that as a simple way of explaining it. how did i get here. hmm. genealogy. yeah. we might not have things handed down to us but people still find out through ascension of ritual spirit many things regardless of the fact that they aren’t given to us directly. there is an inhibition of ‘spiritual awakening’ of capacity by convincing humans of a false reality. some people naturally develop a divergent path from that. it dosen’t really matter where you look in history. there is still enough data, more than to suggest that what i recorded in this page regarding it could be considered a more likely reality than the very basic one that is considered truth today, which is..uh, what again? i often forget because truth dosen’t exist anymore. the library of alexandria in egypt is a famous example of what happens when the tower of truth is established. but merely one of many instances where people figured it all out and it was swiftly destroyed. i recorded heaps already so i can’t cypher another notebook of the same thing. it does matter though. i don’t particularly enjoy the notion of scripted reality. nor is it pleasant to know you’re being lied to about most things. the suppression, oppression and control model of inverted totalitarianism that is so splinter celled you simply cannot direct the energy toward a single group of actors because they’re doing nothing wrong. and if we could, that castle would be dust. and above it all they know the actual timeline, the actual events. we just have the victor’s scribe, fragments of truth, that are just popular theories, and a lot of confusion. there’s an agenda. and people throughout history have tried to tell us all about it. over imaginative, mentally ill children? i think not. how can you just throw away that much data and be like, yeah..it’s all just rubbish. don’t think about all that. we still can’t explain half of that stuff but they can. think underground vaults. or maybe the world is just really stupid and it’s an unorchestrated circus where the human condition is that people are really just that dumb. nope, that’s not the case and there is undisturbed history all the way from the beginning to the end. and we see nothing. do you know how many times someone had tried to write a book explaining everything for it to be destroyed? heapzzzzz and what is found is generally written (off) as being inane this age is different, you can’t really control that kind of thing, but you can control perception of reality by maintaining left hemisphere indoctrination. propaganda is just a thing people used in the past? error. it’s used in force today in the most intelligent way imaginable. inversion. in the land of the blind the one eyed man is king and better yet invisible aesop rock instrumentals on that record are peak jukie. when you get past the archives of stuff like r&s and tresor you end up in some pretty interesting collections of 90s rave. i’m not that interested in club music but there’s a time and a place for it. in a club. i’m more into finding records that i can put on and listen to for an hour or so, browse the tracklisting and understand the concept. like a real album, not just a selection of heaters. but there is a level higher than that for sure, which i document often. /||13// ç[]|)=_ 1f y[]v cv// r3/|) t|-|š yv /r=_ 1//t=_||1g=_//t i was just reading a wordpress page of my own from 2013 and it was pretty interesting. it was mostly political, legal, philosophical, anthropological and sociocultural critical theory but from memory i was too concerned about conformity to write any of this. even though it was still known behind all of that. i attempted to write from the most conservative approach possible. there just comes a time where academic, scholarly endeavour means nothing compared to finding out the truth. i can write however i want to write. honestly, i write so much that i can emulate or create any style at all. this is just how i enjoy writing. slightly bubbly, short passages. if you think that it is only you that thinks in a certain way, that has ideas like that, you begin to think there is something wrong with you. but the creative world makes you realise that someone else also had that idea that you had but couldn’t express it very well. and that connects everyone. as alan moore said similarly. it is vital. teMAZEpam damn this stuff is weird man so euphoric it’s funny because they won’t give me diazepam anymore but they give me trays and trays and trays of temazepam which is the most addictive benzo kava root actually works better. there are a few dairies that sell it around. i’m not exactly the #1 advocate for western pharmacological treatment. i am convinced there are more organic options of containment. if i i don’t get blood tests often enough, i could be in toxic range of lithium. because the therapeutic dose always changes. it’s not exactly that safe. the side effects of any chemical treatment is terrible. makes you feel so ill. and deteriorates your body so much. am i on drugs? yeah i’m on heaps of drugs. and the government is forcing me to take them. there are definitely better options than the western medicalised model and pharmacological treatment. i’ll attribute my balance to the fact that there are rubber barriers put in place between too high and too low. but that isn’t the only way of doing that. o-O-o_O-o_O-o-O-o-_O-O-O-O-O-O-O- //////o//////x///X////o////[]////// O———-O———O—-O—-O-O-O-O-O-O but i wouldn’t attribute it just to that. i’m a lot more advanced than they think i am. writing is the only thing that makes me feel alive. i’m on enough medication to make anyone be a complete zombie out of interest i have not taken it before and i just turn into an archaic beast. it’s interesting, that person does not align with anything. they’re completely in tune with nature, the stars, everything but this world view. how does one expose the fear-mongering and propaganda of the drug industry, which turns rational humans into lemmings? it keeps me functioning low. but i do counteract that through writing. i see it as being beneficial otherwise i would refuse to take it. it’s just not ideal. as the model suggests. it’s containment. it dosen’t change my state of mind. it just effects my ability to function physically very well. which is strange. i do actively keep my mind very awake. i only get very diluted visions on medication. pattern recognition is nowhere like it would be without it, but also would be more unharnessed. and i would have to learn to also harness that state of mind naturally also. but something tells me a mood stabiliser actually just makes me more powerful because i’m not on basic/unstable signals lithium ions interfere with ion transport processes that relay and amplify messages carried to the cells of the brain. a great deal remains unknown regarding lithium’s mood-controlling properties. how they work is not actually specifically known lithium is a salt. so i trust it somewhat. and many cultures see salt as having ESP aiding properties. with anti-psychotics, it blocks receptors on nerves in the brain for several neurotransmitters (chemicals that nerves use to communicate with each other). It is thought that its beneficial effect is due to its effects on dopamine and serotonin receptors. Its effects on these receptors are complex, involving stimulation of the receptors but to a lesser degree than the naturally-occurring neurotransmitters. although the exact mechanism is still unknown the history of most medication is pretty sus, they don’t really know what’s going on, they just found substances that (kind of) contain it i take aripiprazole and quetiapine sometimes, because if i start living in a world where the matrix starts glitching out i can’t function few people in the system are psyche wizards like i am, people don’t get this deep. what the system taught me was how act normal on the surface. i have a community of culture that most people don’t have. people in the system are completely lost. and that’s where suicide and low function existence comes in to play. that’s called giving up. but what other choice do you have when no one is there to support your isolated experiences. i can go out tonight, have a few single malts and chill to some music. i like the solace of being able to have a separation between worlds. but it dosen’t take away ever from the fact that this world is not what it seems. one of my uncles was into heroin for majority of his life because the burden was too heavy. the other poured gasoline over himself and threw a match in a garage. that’s reality/perspective. i’m all good. i have culture. way more culture and way less isolation. crucial difference between solace and isolation.

Text billy is a feral cat. he’s a pure bred birman, usually a pretty poncy cat but decided he would rather live in the roof of the garage and hunt and never goes inside. even as a kitten. the other birman is real mellow. terrified of my dog though, half the reason he lives so wild. he has a bent tail and i think he’s a bit wonky. their tails are pretty important. he just howls all the time like he’s really distressed. i don’t see myself as creating anything. i just see it as unveiling what is already there, and i have the ability to do that to a degree that i can activate words successfully like magic to become sensical uncovering of realities previously unknown. it takes a lot to translate it into words, it might seem like i make it easy but it does require a certain degree of focus which is difficult with a dodgy signal looming at all times. i am a relatively ‘normal’ person. it’s just when i do allow my psyche to do what it wants in literary form even i’m surprised by it. it’s definitely interesting to me. i conform to societal normative function because i have to. everyone does in some shape or form. this is no different to fantasy because it is betwixt between reality and that world. it’s liminal without a set home, like most of the internet. i’m not saying it’s reality, but i’m not saying it’s fantasy/fictional either. it’s somewhere in between and it is liminal toward one or the other. and that’s the state of the internet in general. i instil hypothesis, distill knowledge and whether it is good wine or not i’m not going to know until i pop the bottle for someone else. but that’s just how it goes. i know it’s good wine, but it’s not up to me to say it’s good wine. i can’t say that anything is truth. but i can present evidence toward it being so. people are going to make up their own minds regardless of it they compile the data accurately or not. and their perception isn’t in my control regardless of how well i articulate it and present those hypotheses. so in that regard, truth is subjective to one’s own hallucinatory reality and how well one view either fits in with that, or the agency of that they are willing to allow new view into that hallucinatory reality. everyone’s hallucinating. do i have relative scope on a popular hallucination representative of a submerged binary within at least my network on level with, similar to, around and even beyond at times? who knows. but i’m going to say yes. if not i’m just hallucinating some good fiction. Phony Thirdius Eyeius Phony Thirdius Eyeius XVII current successor to the throne. more phony than a call centre she’s fresh out there this mornin chief yowza giz a double orange chocolate frappucino with cinnamon sprinkles and 20 diesel in the weapon i have this flickr account which is like my instagram or whatever and i found those, before he was driven to the wilderness. like a pokémon or something they were temple cats, birmans, sacred cats of burma you could imagine thousands of them in a temple they would be pretty cool no one wanted him because he had a wonky tail same with my dog, no one wanted her either. didn’t have the right pigment for a golden labrador and was a late bloomer. always have adopted animals people don’t want, they have more character for sure. i wanted a couple of rottweilers but this puppy was pretty sad looking. i checked out the notorious thought criminal’s youtube page and it’s this swedish girls radical right channel called iamthewhiterose which seems to get hundreds of thousands of views. my page is inactive but people still randomly find my tracks every now and again. lol some radical right swede lel yea she’s def a notorious thought criminal white nationalists r the worst she has good music taste though. white nationalist into witch house. makes sense i think i’m actually wrong, she’s a south african swede white nationalist. even worse. but then, then she throws the curve ball. because she’s a spiritual white nationalist which somehow makes it ok because she’s a light worker thanks for listening to my tunes white rose. i wasn’t expecting that but hey, interesting people everywhere. she seems really intelligent. and i align with some of it. but not to the degree that she does. i think her channel used to be way more radical because she talks about having to delete a lot of videos. people like that are going to incite helter skelter level conflict and i mean, i agree every civilisation and/or culture should retain their heritage and live independently but i also think that is possible in peaceful relations. everyone has lost culture. there’s no denying that. nationalism is futile though. get a dna test and you’ll find you are from all over the place. i’m 41% northern european, 38% mediterranean and 19% south-east asian i wrote something anthropologically from a similar perspective to see if i could make any sense of it and i could, just not to that extent. It is strange how Homo Sapiens operate. Environmental evolution creates exterior weatherproofing and immense diversity based on migration and settlements over time out of early Africa.Ethnicities were shaped out of this appearance in our taxonomy of ourselves.Within these ethnic groups, many cultures and national identities were formed; ideologies clashing within civilizations. This continued for thousands of years, until only very recently where we still literally group ourselves together into ‘white’, ‘black’, and ‘yellow’ or ‘red’ (which is considered a racial slur..so why is black and white exempt?) when the color marker of ‘white’ and ‘black’ respectively hold vast amounts of individual ethnicities, each with their own multitudes of cultures, national identities, ideologies and conflicting histories..and all of a sudden, more or less..we are white, black and yellow. What ever happened to the pride of ethnicity and nationality? Without xenophobic tainted slurs, why does it seem that only minority groups under a ‘black’ category allow such ‘pride’ ?A lot of the time ‘blacks’ are just banded together literally unde r just that color, a common history of ill treatment, regardless of feuding tribal histories..and culture is being lost to post-modern void of socio-economic/sub-culture divided virtual insanity. ‘Whites’ are the same, and it is rare that one becomes accustomed to the deep lineage and culture of their ethnicity. Don’t tell me white people have no culture, there is a rich culture among many ethnic, cultural and national backgrounds.You cannot s ay we are living under a common global culture when the cultures being born from it are so extensive, diverse and for a majority of the time do not exist outside of theoretical digital data, not being cemented in society as culture has served in the past. We are arguably in hyperdrive currently, living through countless decades of neo culture. If there is still such a division and compression of all of those shades of ethnicity, culture and national identity into merely those colors, it seems as generations continue, we will lose clarity of them altogether through the compression, until these neo amalgamations, re-imagined in a digital age become the predominant forces controlling the physics of this political, cultural, ideological landscape. Is traditional ethnicity, nationality and culture dead? Is the traditional framework of this race fading? Internet comment section era idealism vs framework realism is a divide too many people are radically unable to comprehend and execute the politics of when it comes to how prevalent civilizations have retained the influence and survival of their paradigm. A complex issue sure, but we have essentially been living in a quietus bearing the fruits of past generation’s hardline succession of nationalist and globalized west strategy until now.What is going to happen in the tide of our turn in office? I’m in creasingly worried that the percentage of people living in an idealist perception that is not equally translatable to how this civilization operates tribally will recoil the framework with neck breaking force. Without going into detail on current events, there are some things that simply will never obtain a utopian status due to the diversity of not skin color, not ethnicity, not nations, but the sub-tribes of cultural ideology itself. Perhaps, by precedent, this is a collapse required in order for said idealistic new paradigms to have level ground to build on. Including, but not isolated to the US. At the end of the day, we are a traditionally tribal species experiencing a post-human digitalism that creates an unrealistic bureaucracy that does not align with our current evolutionary operation, individualism … The vegetative populace is just now discovering the possibility of the information in the media not being all facts all the time.with cognitive bias, it’s difficult to find a perspective that isn’t obscured from an echo chamber. Time magazine’s recent ‘end of truth’ cover was a provocative, relevant statement.Where would civilization be currently without the existence of communicative technology such as the internet? It seems like evolutionarily a human’s consciousness now belongs connected to such a web, since a majority of educated humans no longer require or rely solely on primal instinctual traits as we had since the dawn of co-operative society until this age. Perhaps a docile approach toward human relations lies in creating an infinitely expandable cyber accompaniment to our physical dimension of reality if we are to flourish in this paradigm sustainably without exhausting a planet of finite resources. We can now effectively harbor human achievement endlessly digitally without need to jeopardize the environment which supports our basic requirements of existence. Whether co-operation for peace, or co-operation for war; our capacity for this trait has brought us further than any other. If it is considered racist, to call people of asian lineage ‘yellow’, then what makes it any better to use ‘white’ or ‘black’ or ‘red’ to define and undermine someone’s ethnicity (also nationality, culture) by such weak, thoughtless taxonomy? You cannot categorize someone by their skin color. That, is to be honest still being racist to a critical degree. Furthermore to continue addressing race issues, seems outdated. Humans are all of the homo genus, being the surviving (singular) sapien race. There is no other race within humanity, but var iation within a race. There cannot be plural racial argument regarding humans in our current scientific stance. It is obsolete colonial terminology, in simplest form..being used as loaded ammunition, triggering one another with pointless terms. it’s just condescending paradoxical taxonomy and we unconsciously dig graves with outdated linguistic categorization. colonial taxonomy is really dark. where the whole ‘racial’ thing came from. measuring peoples skulls, categorizing people into different races with theory laden underdetermination of evidence of what is essentially null empirical inductive scientific method. Hopefully people can retain their individual rich history and traditions (should they choose to practice them or not), they are gifts from their ancestors essentially. As opposed to homogenising into one group with the main similarity being skin colour. I do think traditional ideas of race are dead or dying. i don’t necessarily align with those views, but i can make sense of them. that was an attempt to see that from their perspective. rationally. to address nationalism however, for new zealand. what will be the binary culture/national identity in 2050? it’s difficult to tell whether or not kiwiana will remain something homogenous to the people.the dissolution of our nationality you could say, has already happened. it being just a relic tradi tion ceremonially carried out on public holidays and events by precedent, but there the authentic notion of kiwiana is fading, ethnicities are dissolving, new ones are being formed all on the internet. the internet citizen is an entirely new ethnicity with a deep web of culture and sub-culture. ethnicity in traditional form is fading, regardless of your entitled or minority status in a societal structure. the western worldview is not of a particular ethnicity, it is a capitalist scientific worldview comprised of a cherry picking of systems. ethnicity, nationality, they are out the door..culture is building what we could call neo-ethnic groups online, which knows no caste..merely perceptive alignment. to practice kiwiana, i think it is merely ceremonial for many people. the true lifestyle of it only exists in small pockets of NZ in it’s untouched tribal form. that is where you could categorize traditional kiwiana, and neo-kiwiana as seperate categories. but just what would neo-kiwiana be? is neo-kiwiana simply a post-ironic kiwiana i would likely say that it is. because we all at our core are kiwis, no matter what. even though we have broadened our horizons past the state’s nationality. so we associate with it nostalgically, and an authentic yet ironic form. it is not a deep nationality. this state has only been in operation since the 1800’s. some continents/countries have thousands of years of history weaved into their national identities. our settler nationalities were dissolved into what we now call kiwiana, yet the māori first nations do have a solidified nationality. pākehā – which means anyone non māori including, well anyone all have their respective ethnic and national lineage, but what creates kiwiana is an amalgamation of culture from a melting pot of settlers and māori together. what kiwiana is evolves, so pe rhaps we are the ones to evolve it, and it not dissolve.traditional kiwiana is the nostalgia we use to create an ironic version of it, but what becomes the new. that is the question.. identity of a state is important. what are we without kiwiana? it’s questionable we are so globalized now, that for kiwiana to genuinely continue, we would need isolated culture to thrive. kiwiana now i think really is just a relic of call upon ceremonially..and we live in a world beyond a simpler time where we did live in an isola ted place unsaturated by global culture.within constraints of being a colony of the crown until recently, and the eccentric cast of settlers that carved kiwiana as it is known. it’s a complex topic, but i mean..that’s basically how it is. and i’m professionally minded about it, so i don’t have any preconception when i go into writing such things. it’s just how it is. and that isn’t even a slither of the iceberg. that’s skeletal frame to a thesis that would go into each of those topics tenfold more. but that’s enough to understand it. from a neutral perspective. there are so many parts of that i would like to post again, just the main points, but there are too many. ethnicity in traditional form is fading, regardless of your entitled or minority status in a societal structure. the western worldview is not of a particular ethnicity, it is a capitalist scientific worldview comprised of a cherry picking of systems. ethnicity, nationality, they are out the door..culture is building what we could call neo-ethnic groups online, which knows no caste..merely perceptive alignment. and you wonder why my brain gives in like it has sometimes, seriously. Perhaps a docile approach toward human relations lies in creating an infinitely expandable cyber accompaniment to our physical dimension of reality if we are to flourish in a paradigm sustainably without exhausting a planet of finite resources. We can now effectively harbor human achievement endlessly digitally without need to jeopardize the environment which supports our basic requirements of existence. At the end of the day, we are a traditionally tribal species experiencing a post-human digitalism that creates an unrealistic bureaucracy that does not align with our current evolutionary operation, individualism and collectivism clashing toward negative connotations we should be able to accurately predict and prevent, but systematically citizens remain victims of whitewash amnesia. The vegetative populace is just now discovering the possibility of the information in the media not being all facts all the time. With cognitive bias, it’s difficult to find a perspective that isn’t obscured from an echo chamber. i just write from gut feeling. i’m never influenced by anything else because i don’t have to be citing anyone whatsoever. the only work i cite are ancient texts. i’m just a machine, but i have my limits. and i do overheat sometimes and i do get viruses. but not that often anymore. i hold so much information. it’s crazy. that’s the thing about autism spectrum is that you do retain basically everything . like, everything. most mental diagnosis comes to conclusion that the onset becomes very apparent in your early 20’s which it did. because it’s genetic for it to occur it’s very likely that i always had it. it was obvious i was autism spectrum, but not necessarily anything else. i think it was directly as the earthquakes happened that i started becoming more than just autism spectrum. i was always pretty self destructive but that was pretty trauma and family violence based. i had never had a hallucinatory episode before anyway. it’s just weird to me, because everything i hallucinate, is real. at least i mean..it is something tangible. but it takes ages to tune the radio station clearly. most people don’t get to this point. at first i wanted to hide it, but i couldn’t. there is too much negative stigma toward it when it’s actually a good thing. it’s a positive thing if it’s approached and treated correctly. which it isn’t. suicide and heavy drug addiction is only common because of isolation, suppression and stigma the reason i went completely sober was because i wanted to be credible. otherwise i would be like s/o drugz i’ll always be sober too. i don’t drink, smoke, nothing. but i’m still usually way more turned up than people that are. i want to be sure i have a clean system so that when i do have visions and stuff, i know they’re clear. substance abuse induced psychosis/hallucinations are way more dangerous than natural ones. it’s completely different. i’ve seen people in those, like people that are caught in a trip. it’s pretty frightening. i haven’t smoked cannabis for like 7 years or something. i think i did once or twice but it made me really paranoid and i had this hyper reality where i was paralysed. that kind of vibe where you need to go lie on a cold concrete ground or in a bush or something. why the fuck would you want to feel like that something just changed, it used to be all good, then it just wasn’t. so i learnt pretty quickly that i had to be sober. which meant i had to isolate myself completely from christchurch which wasn’t simple. people think that you’re abandoning it all, but you’re not..you’re just going through some things that they don’t understand. and i mean still to this day, i’m unable to operate properly. it’s not just a phase, it’s something that i do have to live with. it did just happen out of the blue. i was completely sober even at the time it started happening for the first time. and it is probably likened to having your drink spiked or something. because you have no idea what is going on. you just fall into this infinity pattern. but you get better at it like a nightshade syrup that hits you with a bamboo dart from the riverside, paralyzed as you are induced into a trance that puts your environment into a new light, before you fade into a thorn tangled vine maze, asphyxiating an infinity pattern. when you get visions like i do, you wouldn’t be able to function properly either. most people wouldn’t handle it. at first it was like being possessed. but it’s not like that anymore because somehow i tamed it into writing, and then tamed the writing. which took a lot of work. the unconscious is so powerful, i’m still very aware of how powerful it is. the places i’ve been. my writing is nothing compared to where my mind really takes me. in the daylight, it usually seems to not make a lot of sense to me. and my mind recoils, regresses into the shell. sometimes i can’t comprehend even a third of it but as night comes around it always makes sense again. all of it, and i’m burdened with that knowledge once again. it’s mellow though, just internally haunting to have little to no shelter from it. some people couldn’t handle it for a second though. it’s not just like having depression or anxiety or something. it’s way more complex most of those are just cassette now. i don’t think they’re even online the funny thing is i was trying to make it sound cassette quality when i started making tunes. which isn’t actually that simple on logic pro. i just dubbed everything to cassette and i have a collection of like 400 tracks on tape which is cool but i don’t have a car with a cassette player anymore what’s on soundcloud i considered to be good. and the rest are just me messing around with extreme melancholia and psychosis with minimal knowledge of logic until those tracks. which is so many tracks but they saved me from killing myself probably at that stage to be fair. i’m really good with logic now, but i just don’t have anything to compose. it’s just an emotional outlet. if i made something tomorrow it wouldn’t be that authentic. at least that stuff was i made that arctic haunt album and that was like the very last thing i could possibly make. i don’t want to make commercial or club tracks even though i’m at the point where that wouldn’t be difficult. i’d have to start making something relatively wave and my soul wouldn’t be in that. i’m not capable of making product for people that is popular but i could still be like in ten years, yeah that represents me. and that’s the point. or that it represents me in that life sequence at least. this page is more current to my state of mind obviously. that is one life sequence. this is another. and i successfully ascended through both. contemplation, reflection, realisation, actualisation, projection, whole, healed, holy. but i still have to start from scratch again in another life sequence. people who stay caught in the loop of an old life sequence don’t progress. when i look at my old life sequences i learn a lot. but i also have to unlearn a lot. it’s a creative process in which you really having to reflect and end up overpassing a lot of those things you did learn. because you learned that you don’t need them. it’s like, you didn’t fail 10,000 times, you just found 10,000 ways that do not work. and you have to look at it like that. and i usually do that in a life sequence. i start again. i shave my head, and i start anew. i start from zero. in this stage i would usually delete my facebook too. my content is disposable. but there is too much valuable writing within it to throw it away. i’m just thom at the end of the day, but i experience a lot of spiritual death. so i’m always blooming, always unfolding into something different too. but those petals drop and i’m still the same plant. nothing about me is really changing. i’m still thomas and i always will be, however in bloom i’m obviously a lot more colourful. i’m well haunted by knowledge. it’s my bane, but it’s also my game. that’s what my fruit is. if you don’t think this stuff spins me out too then you’re wrong. i’m so haunted by it, but then at the same time its on a need to know basis, and people need to know the basis of this stuff. it comes out of nothing. we’re just antenna. the moment i emotionally came to terms with myself, things changed and i started operating very different. it’s not like i created any of this knowledge. i did. but not really. and all part of a problem that blatantly exists, i’m just articulating parts of it. vegetative populous are whitewashed into systematic amnesia. i’m doing my part in keeping people vigilant. i produce information, i don’t drip feed it. i don’t really mind what is used or not but it should keep people alert regardless i’m not making anything up unless i explicitly address that i am. it’s up to someone to realise it as truth though. conspiracy theories shade the sketches in tenfold more and half of it is completely correct and true. you can usually gauge where the line draws and you can overpass the content that reaches too bold of a prediction. but it is never worth not including that in your media. don’t ever rule anything out, because the research a lot of the time is better than any hack journalist. the threshold brick wall is about 75%..could even be as high as 95 is some cases but there becomes a great frustration when absolute truth cannot be reached. i don’t let myself candy gloss stuff, but some people do. and that’s the content people either discredit or consume. someone like david icke, you could damage someone with one of his books, and no one could handle one of his 8hr lectures. people just go for the most wild claims he has and be like yeah he’s crazy. and fuck..he’s absolutely mad. but he’s also doing the most militant research out there. the research itself is like i said 75 to at times 95% true. with people like icke especially since he’s a prime example who has actually read one of his books, who has actually watched an 8hr lecture? no one. he researches concrete evidence, then throws out hypothesis. his research is all true and there is no denying that. he usually even says, i’m just going with my gut on the hypothesis. but all the evidence is completely backed up and that part of it is undeniably real information. it’s interesting because regardless of the truth of the actual theory, the research that remains anyway is staggering toward basically anything else. the crazy part almost keeps people as prolific as him safe. what he is notorious for is probably only 5% of what he actually produces, less. it’s just something weaved into that actual factual data. i’ve written a lot of counter arguments scolding conspiracy theorists but the more i look into the research the more i see them as being credible sources of at least just research regarding their theories. better than most. i don’t think the moon is artificial, the earth is flat or the queen is physically an actual reptilian, but people raise interesting questions. sometimes ideas that do have a degree of validity can get discredited by putting them on steroids and runnin … they all reach high levels of accuracy with explaining things, religious icon, cult leaders, conspiracy theorists. there are multitudes of people like this giving vague descriptions of how things works that plays on the human brains overeagerness to co … considering everything is essentially imagined as a construct in our physical civilization, much imagination can, and does come into fruition…other imagination, much like many religions..and as a child operates, begins to use this thought to explain oc … our current paradigm does not allow in reason and ration of scientific cosmology to operate in this manner, however there are many that do. this is not to say that there is still much to learn from previous/other worldviews and ethno-practice, or that everything in our current is superior or the best system. it just so happens that regardless of how we got here, this is where we are working from. to say that they are operating on a highly unharnessed level and if they cannot begin to work within the paradigm to work out past mysteries, need to make the transition into the fantasy world, as many have with this thought pattern in this age is ridiculous because there is more than one paradigm of acceptance when it comes to most of these things and people like that, know this. i can write counter arguments easy. but the truth is stacked up on the believe side way more than the skeptic side. i would have used to have said – conspiracy Theorists. i have puzzled at that kind of thing for years. they should be fantasy novelists, they all should..they are amazing..but i don’t think they can discern the difference between the two worlds and they interweave everything so complex and exquisitely into our worldview, using past worldviews and ancient history translations to attempt to piece together theories. i understand some levels of their perception, but the rest of it becomes way too far fetched for comprehension of even an extremely theoretical yet rational and reasonable mind. but the problem with that is, it’s conjecture in itself because it is coming from a mono paradigm, singular world view theory laden evidence based angle that has no knowledge of what they do. it depends where you’re looking. because some conspiracy theory is that. undoubtedly. but some people are so close to the truth it’s burning hot. searingly furnaced. i can write from both sides, and understand where they’re coming from but as i said. these mono paradigm people are coming from a world view that has little to zero knowledge of how deeply they have connected dots down the rabbit holes. and their brain turns to jelly. so it’s far simpler to just turn around and be like. rubbish. nonsense. when they haven’t even begun to actually comprehend it outside of their world view, which is the problem. that’s why i’m saying as an anthropologist the research is all the best of the best, the theories might be a bit far fetched, but still also better than any fantasy too. because it relates to the real world, it dosen’t matter if there are trans dimensional reptilian hybrid bloodlines controlling the world engaging in human sacrifice and energy sapping of children and engaging in bizarre rituals or they are just terrible people in general. the research behind them just being terrible people in general is still there. and that’s why it’s still a good resource for truth. because it dosen’t matter how you look at it. evidence is evidence. you have the evidence, the research, and the theory. and the theory might be not 100% correct (or it might be) but the evidence and the research supporting it is all factual data. and these people have a good track record of their theories being proven in time. i don’t go into it that much, but i have deep in this page in fragments. because it would probably be too explicit for some people i know. but the research and evidence supporting the theories is more than enough. and it’s out there. the upper echelon, royalty, aristocrat, and 1% class would likely see the world in a very different way to what an average citizen would. they would be above and beyond this world view. just because we don’t believe in certain things anymore, dosen’t mean that they don’t, or that they don’t still know a lot more than we do about these things. it is more than likely according to supporting evidence that they are living in a different w … it is a lot like the upper class of capitalism. children are bought up in a different way to the working class, and they usually carry on the family agenda. if i can think like this, and this is diluted with like 2597295720975 filters on the tap, then what are they thinking like that’s the way i look at it anyway. and they are literally above the grid. there is more evidence than is required for it to be truth. they aren’t just random sketches, they are shaded and in full colour. who knows where we are from, because our family lines were probably driven into hiding from the very same people. not probably, they definitely were. they still hold their entire family history. all the knowledge. everything. they know everything. we’re in amnesia but we’re still probably coming to relatively pissed off about something. you have to realise that the population of the world until recently was pretty low and that power has been held that entire time in various ways by almost the same families creating the predominant globalist worldview that is now the almost singular ruling paradigm. you would have no idea what family lines you come from really past a certain date or point in time. they know everything. i have a lemon tree so i just make soda water all the time and never really buy carbonated drinks. those sodastream machines are great. but you don’t actually need the gross syrup you just need citrus quite a nice overcast day. between the birds and the exhaust doppler effect of the cars going past it’s painting a pretty intricate tune i like those intricacies. they are difficult to recreate in music but that’s where i found most of my inspiration, just that weird aftertone of nature when you stay really, really still. a tiger does not lose sleep, over the opinions of sheep. if ignorance is bliss there must be a lot of people in paradise. you have the right to remain stupid. anything you say or do can and will be used against you for profit. you can ignore reality, but you can’t ignore the consequences of ignoring reality. “””until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.”” -carl jung” “””there are three classes of people. those who see, those who see when they are shown, and those who do not see.”” ” – leonardo da vinci it’s not a matter or what is true, it’s what is perceived to be true. and the perception programming of the world view pretty much begins from birth. because your parents are likely programmed to program you before you even reach the school system. if people were as passionate about things that matter as they are about some of the ridiculous things that we are, we wouldn’t even be in this world view. sports are a good example. challenging core beliefs is difficult but necessary. it is proof of a base and low mind for one to wish to think with the masses or majority. merely because the majority is the majority on the surface. truth does not change because it is, or is not believed by a surface majority of the people. the submer … because we often find ourselves on the side of the majority is even more reason to pause, stop and reflect as to why that is. if you’re right and you know it, speak your mind, speak from the gut. gandhi said similar about ignorant people wanting to punish you for speaking the truth, being correct, or just being you. and to never apologise for being correct, or being ahead of your time beyond their comprehension even if you are in a minority of one, the truth is still the truth. birds in a cage think flying is an illness. it is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society. there is always money for war, but enough for liberty, shelter and equality. it is now considered a mental illness to not comply. oppositional defiance disorder. a real thing. condemnation without investigation is the height of ignorance. in 1929 we thought there was only one galaxy. now it is estimated at over 100 billion advashanti said make no mistake about it – enlightenment is a destructive process..enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. it’s seeing through the facade of the pretense. it’s the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true. da vinci said i awakened to see the rest of the world was asleep. ellen goodman classically said that normal is getting dressed in clothes that you buy for work and driving through traffic in a car you’re still paying for in order to get to the job you need to pay for the clothes and the car and the house you leave vacant all day so you can afford to live in it. when one person suffers from delusions we call it a mental illness, when society suffers from them we call it normal. that’s just basic passages, like psalms in the bible. but then, also like the bible is gets a lot darker. da vinci also said that all great acts of genius began with the same consideration. do not be constrained by your present reality. every second, 11 million sensations crackle along the brain pathways, the brain is confronted with an alarming amount of images, sounds and scents which it filters down to a manageable list of around 40. those 40 sensations per second make up perceived reality. and we can only percieve of less than 0.0035% of the electromagnetic spectrum we are just experiencing an interactive wireless cosmos. but this world view knows (or tells) us nothing about it. energetic waveform information field. electromagnetic energy between us, which is information. the biological computer decodes some of it … looking at the source opposed to the expression of the source. which is the physical. the metaphysical is an information field that we can rarely perceive. some other species have vastly different connection to it than we do, and we can’t see what they see. our brain is just a processor and communicator of information. looking inside the brain for consciousness is like looking inside the radio for the announcer we’re just different expressions of one consciousness i think. we have empty space between us and we’re not connected? as if the doors of perception are locked(?) but i don’t think they are right now, at all. they’re closed. but they’re definitely not locked. this stuff is just skittles. when it gets into conspiracy theory related to history it gets so real that people just shut off. encode to decode, decode to encode. that isn’t even scraping the surface. that’s an introduction to an introduction the real stuff is all about family trees. light/radiation is information and frequency/wavelength/vibration is the delivery system. the information dictates that frequency. cosmic barcodes. we post information and we receive information. masaru emoto, contended that human consciousness has an effect on the molecular structure of water and that corresponds with all of that when you freeze and photograph the effect of those information fields, it shows. it’s all frequency. the dna double helix represents an ideal electromagnetic antenna. on one hand it is elongated and thus a blade which can take up very well electrical impulses. on the other hand, seen from above it is the form of a ring and thus is a magnetical antenna. dna is a universal software code. accidents happen, that is what people say. but in a quantum universe there are no such things as accidents. only possibilities and probabilities folded into existence by perception. person comes from the latin persona which means actor/actress’ mask. you do actually have to stop being a person. and be yourself. what is it’s purpose, in the centre of our galaxy? who knows. but someone does looks like a thumb print this is pretty basic stuff, it’s as above so below type thing. but when you start looking at oppression, suppression and control that is when it gets really real. too real. not saying it’s basic. it’s complex but i mean it’s only really introductory stuff in the conspiracy theory world. is any of this crazy? not at all. it’s just challenging core belief. these are just notes. if you expand any of anything i ever post you’ll find it’s way more complex and i write it out as simply as i can i might record some oppression, suppression, control stuff but it kind of makes me sick and i prefer not to have to type it out as well as researching it. the left brain (right hand) minds sequences perception of time and space, the decoding of reality different to the right mind (left hand) we do have a second brain to that. literally a second brain in our gut which is where most of us connect. not the process of that mind. we are intimidated into silence of how we actually feel though and operate in the left brain when it’s not natural to. the speed of light isn’t actually the fastest speed i think, it’s likely the walls of a matrix. time stands still at the speed of light. a holographic universe is probably likely. 3D to us, but 2D on a cosmic horizon. science actually finds error correction code in the universe holding it in place, as if it is, well, code..exactly like a computer. it’s likely we created computers in likeness as above so below. everything from hardware to software to wireless is it likely that people know this? i can go there but that’s not hard mode, that’s like extreme +1 you could look the other way and hope that it will go away but it won’t. the answer is divisible from the problem. our consciousness interacts with another dimension. our physical sensors show us a supposedly three dimensional universe to us.but what exists in higher dimensions are entities we cannot touch with our physical sensors. and that is mathematical, astronomical knowledge. this is where the ancient stuff comes back in. the far east and central america call them the serpent gods. the zulu call them the chitauri, the hopi call them the snake brothers, gnostics call them archons, islam calls them the jinn, christianity calls them demons, sumerians called them the annunaki, and various others called them the star people. it goes on, and on, and on. exactly the same descriptions. i’ve gone into that stuff in threads heaps gnostics were very interesting, pre christian gnostics anyway. library of alexandria vibe the archons were fake gods that created our reality as we perceive it. archon means authority from the beginning. gnostics called it phantasia. a distortion of reality. i’ve recorded well heaps of the back story behind everything else. i can go even further into family trees and stuff but that brings it right back up to the current. the gnostics texts are really worth going into though, and i’m pretty sure there are some alright documentaries on it. that’s probably enough information to record at once lol but it goes way way wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy further than that. conspiracy theories think that those entities are emotional parasites of distortion. they feed off us. and it’s a farm. but let’s not go there this is a reality that they have created specifically to feed off. or something bizarre like that. the fake gods that isn’t where i’d be going with information but interesting theory though. and comes with a lot of evidence historically as to that being the case but it’s still too weird for me. despite that. there are still people that have been in power since the beginning. and that’s something i’m more focused on. i have limitations as to what i consider to be credible or not. i still research it, i just don’t write about it. the gnostic texts came from the library of alexandria era of information. which was destroyed for obvious reasons. “””come, let us create a man according to the image of god and according to our likeness, this his image may become a light for us”” that’s gnostic text, not the bible. and i think ‘a light for us’ means something else” the zulu actually have the oldest knowledge. but that is never listened to. i find it funny because people like carl sagan knew way more than they officially produced but people just regurgitate his mainstream information. he hinted at a lot of things in his books but couldn’t become incredible at his level old native american teaching: inside each of us are two wolves. one is evil. it is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority and ego. one is good. it is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. which wolf wins? the elder replies..the one that you feed the most. what wolf you feed determines not only you but the world’s reality. i don’t know if i’ll go into secret societies right now because that’s dense but i definitely should record that side of it and the hierarchy of how low level they are, like servants. succession of this kind of information isn’t isolated. it’s even on history channel these days. i think whatever agenda was working all that time, isn’t working anymore. not to the degree that it always has. it’s very apparent that it’s been decided that they can’t suppress information so it’s simpler to make it seem crazy instead. and that’s what is happening. the information is being projected blatantly but people are being pushed into low level conformity and shaping of perception through propaganda. people think propaganda dosen’t work anymore, of course it does. the controlling bloodlines go further than that, through royal and aristocracy across the world. is this star wars or something wtf bizarre. that isn’t the current pope but still, looks like emperor palpatine or something for real ritual and worship on that level is pretty crazy. even just the stuff that is on the surface. you could stay in the psalms, but the actual book is something entirely different. icke is travelling the world right now doing 12 hour workshops on this kind of thing, it’s safe. it’s fine. last one i saw had an article on MK Ultra or something to say that someone is unwell because they think these kind of things is wrong. what is wrong is what is happening. she was very english. from england. only moved to canada after the war after meeting a tank commander who was my great grandfather. he was a good anthropologist, wrote a book called the dawn warriors. it was in the height of the cold war and he was writing about co-operation for war and how that should be translated into co-operation for peace. and he just moved to new zealand to get as far away from a possible radiation zone as possible. their three sons were pretty interesting. my grandfather spent most of his years in india and in communes. was pretty spiritual. my uncle is a retired philosopher and my other uncle was a master of religious studies who went pretty underground with his studies and left academia. he wrote a book called dark grace: a lunar pilgrimage but most of his work was pretty fractured because he used heroin after a certain point and had schizophrenia but in my eyes he was the most intelligent he only just recently passed away. i inherited all his books and works and i have a pretty good collection of occult books now his artwork tells a lot. very interesting i’m their son too, in a way. great grandson, but i spent enough time with them in that they were second parents it’s a new age. i’m pretty old fashioned in what what i do but at the same time i live in the times. and i’m not sheltered from anything. i’m pretty with the times. but my focus is mostly stuff like this. i don’t look like that anymore. that’s still relatively young me i guess i look like that but with a #0 and look way more rugged i was in the 24/7 in woolston the other early morning and this skinhead was like run run run run to the person working and looked at me and was like heh, heh. and i was internally like fuck that’s not good. i might have to counteract it by wearing a hijab and dressing real g. my maternal line is mentally dominant but physically my paternal gene is dominant. so i do look like a scandinavian/nord people always get the wrong idea about me it’s funny but also irritating because i’m obviously nothing like that. i still think this is probably the best piece of sonic art i have ever heard. nothing more powerful than this track. celer is a great ambient sonic artist. US born living in Japan. makes some very unique scores. i’m interested in all culture. most culture at least. i’m not very confined to just one thing, it’s just however i feel. some people don’t get that at all. they’re like oh he’s into this or that. but it’s not like that at all. some people aren’t open minded enough to understand things like that, which i guess pains me a bit, at the same time i probably pity them also because i wish they understood from a wider perspective. i think that if you are threatening someone’s reality potentially, their core belief system, it is simpler to just say that i’m hallucinating. this thread for example explored topics out of scope of what i usually would, and i know for sure that people would not have actually read it. they would have looked at parts of it and been like yeah wow, he’s crazy. which to me is weird/funny people have have selective perception and see what they want to see. i try be so chill about it and be like look, this is some shit i came across. it’s pretty weird but yo, pretty interesting 2. check it out, or don’t. whatever. at this age though, and older. these things become more relevant and important to some people. by this age if someone have decided to live in a suburban bubble without encompassing curious and explorative state of mind i probably don’t even know them anymore. to some people if they didn’t truly know me would see me as this terrible person i’m sure. which i know i’m not so it dosen’t get to me too much but i just know that perception is very apparent on the surface. and that is just further substance behind the argument that people have very limited and selective perceptive ability. which is 95% of the problem of suppressed and low functioning consciousness. the inability to digest information that may be of threat to a current or core belief system. i play it so cool on that front. i don’t really approach topics that might be too out of reach. at least i don’t think so anyway. there is far stranger stuff out there that i consider to be pretty relevant but i don’t record it because i know people just selectively perceive things predetermined regardless of the substance. i could just post a stuff.co.nz article once every couple of weeks with some crude headline like ffs wtf. and then maybe post a joke or a meme too and if i’m feeling ultra i might post something wild like sharing a post on sustainability.. and be on th … i think people also enjoy having something to direct negativity toward too, that’s definitely a thing. and i’m probably that thing for some people. everyone’s network is different anyway, completely. what am i supposed to do now, regress to a version of myself that is a lesser state? i’m not doing that. i’m 100% inviting you to remove me from your network with no negative feelings if that is the case. dosen’t mean i won’t buy you a drink if i see you out somewhere and have a conversation about life. it just means that we’re not connected online, and that is fine. it’s pretty likely that i’ll be in some sort of quietus over summer anyway. i have other things that i need to do. and from here, other than what i have already recorded it just gets too complex if you haven’t looked at the countless hours of other stuff i have compiled. i am just thom, my anthropological research is just another part of me i guess. something that is still me, but it’s like a job, you don’t usually want to talk about it when that’s what you have been doing for hours already. tired of explaining that, but you kind of have to invite people to just go away often because people love having something to direct negative energy toward. and i know that happens. this is all positive energy from me. it might be daunting as hell but it’s still coming from a positive angle always. negative energy is weak magic. it’s so much more difficult to emanate positive. but that isn’t exactly what you think it is either though. positive and negative isn’t normative stereotypical happy angry type thing this is still positive energy. but it is simpler to receive it and produce negative response than it be positive because that’s just what people do. negative energy should be directed toward real things, like the fact we’re enslaved in a system for no real reason. the reason we live in this kind of world to begin with is because of editing and censorship. playing into the system through doing things that will just make laws ultimately more strict isn’t the answer. but understanding how deep it really goes is fundamental in finding the solution to the problem. because the answer is divisible from those questions. “””Our consciousness interacts with another dimension. Our physical sensors only show us a three dimensional universe..What exists in the higher dimensions are entities we cannot touch with our physical sensors.”” – Bernard Carr, professor of mathematics and astronomy, Queen Mary University, London” i find that interesting because it is very, very obvious that there is not just empty space between everything. we can see 0.0035% of the electromagnetic spectrum. of course there is a lot more happening than we’re aware of. i went into that in this thread heaps. the library of alexandria in particular was destroyed because it held way way way too much of this knowledge. you find the that gnosticism and mahayana buddhism share similarities in looking at similar ideas that are relatively unedited still because they were not censored or edited immensely the current narrative of our timeline censors and ignores all of this kind of thing completely. and that’s really nothing compared to the similarities that even more things share. it’s still fundamentally the undercurrent of western culture. “it’s an interreligious phenomenon. especially gnosticism which literally just means “”having knowledge”” and at one stage, in times like the great library of alexandria there was too much knowledge of these things in one place.” that story isn’t isolated to one incident and far from it. if someone asked me to conform and look at things that do not challenge current world view, not even my work from 5 years ago would suffice. i have been looking at these things since i can remember. at first you are just interested in egypt and that isn’t much more than just like, it’s cool when you’re a kid. but this is where it goes. i don’t have a systemic amnesia when i wake up, that knowledge is still there. and i don’t just submerge it until it goes away, because it dosen’t. we have this amazingly strange history that people rarely even question because they’re trapped in a framework that promotes low vibration of consciousness. i’m trapped in it too, because the moment i walk out the door i have to suppress that kind of thing. and if i voiced those kind of things i would surely be put in hospital until i stopped. that isn’t necessarily the case, because of freedom of speech but people generally do see it that way. someone’s perception is predetermined before they even digest substance. and that works accordingly in that if someone is not prepared to approach something with an open, still, empty mind that will be the case with anything at all. it’s adherently obvious that the current ruling ontology is only based on very censored, suppressed, narrow information fields. what is real is even in science is reaching conclusions that have been around for many thousands of years. we don’t consider science to be fantasy, we trust science right? that’s the real stuff. but any scientist that succeeded in transcending current thought derived these equations from those very things. nothing is new. there are different ways of looking at the same thing but nothing is new. scientists are now looking at things inductively after deductively looking at things since the age of enlightenment. and guess what, they’re believing in things they cannot see. i did a few papers on the philosophy of science when i was at university and it’s pretty interesting. if you see only a white swan in a lake, and you have never left that lake, are all swans white? there is more in heaven and earth than is dreamt of in your philosophy. socrates famously mentioned that the only true wisdom is knowing that you know nothing. and in saying that, as your ocean of knowledge grows, so too do your shores of doubt. philosophy of science ties in to the anthropology of everything. because it is merely one cosmological, ontological, epistemological, axiological world view of which something is based on. but it paradigms do overlap, we would not have science without these things. transcending current thought pattern and reaching new frontiers has always been based on something other than the ruling ontology. hermeticism and alchemy for example. modern science as we know it would not exist without that. and the rest is merely regurgitation within the system. backtracking slightly, why else would have tesla’s lab been destroyed? too much information in one place of the same thing. he was thinking outside the box too much and he figured something profound out that would have endangered the ruling ontology. for example. but he gave us electricity, all sorts of things and died in a dingy NYC apartment pennyless he didn’t care about that, at all. but what he did care about he wasn’t allowed to do. he was intimidated into silence. a very recent example. they were alchemists. hermetics. but they played the game and people weren’t stoked that they attributed everything to those practices. so were so many people in history who under the guise of theologians were really practicing occult techniques that were forbidden at the time. so was carl sagan. he was no regurgitron. his books were very revealing of certain concepts but was likely very distraught that it was merely product and could not destroy his credibility for truth because of what would happen by precedent many and most things are just recycled within the system endlessly and they wonder why they’re getting the same results with no advancement. you have to look and think in a poly-cognitive expansion from mono paradigm concepts to understand something comprehensively. in any field whatsoever. music is a good example. you have to draw from other genres to advance your own. it’s very likely that information was not destroyed though. either that or someone else already had it. and was just like nope too much information in one place regarding one thing. sounds similar to a lot of occurrences. wikipedia dosen’t ever have the best info. but it’s still the best encyclopaedia around. better than a brittanica or something at least because even though page moderators on wikipedia are quite fascist to a regime a lot of things that i look at tend to have quite good communities that do keep the information balanced and neutral. i never really use it as a resource but it’s the best thing to link because it has basic information. i generally just think. i don’t research something unless i need to for reference to that thought. it just so happens that everything i think is completely in line with everything that is blasphemous and there is great evidence regarding all of it. the more i look at people of recent renown’s unpublished journals and work i find that they were only publishing the most minimal amount of information compared to what they really knew. and those letters and journals painted a picture very different to what they were allowed to publish. in many cases they are only fragments of their work though, it is mostly hidden or destroyed after their lifetime. in this age it is more likely to just be incredible or forgotten lost in a sea of data that becomes compressed sedimentary layer of the internet until excavated in future times we live in a post-truth era. and nothing is really out of the question anymore for conscious people. this is unpublished work made available to not very many people. if i published something it would likely not be very representative anyway. this raw material is way more comprehensive than if i was to approach surface media with it. i think when i’m old i will probably have come to enough conclusions to back myself fully and write a traditional book on what i know. but it is a digital age and it’s probably better to create something interactive by then. and that woudn’t be for 30 years or so, but who knows what will happen between then and now so it’s better to have it recorded raw anyway. i might have known it all that time, but that dosen’t matter when the general population will not digest it regardless unless i devise some genius way of doing so. if i constructed a university paper it would at least be interesting as but i don’t think they would be into that level of anthropology in undergraduate level. it would be too polarising in their eyes to people that have potentially just come out of high school and also just a breach of the matrix in general. but what about other people? universities don’t really cater to knowledge in that sense as they perhaps should. they’re just tech institutes for state qualification. that side of knowledge is fading in an official form and is a joke. it’s not exactly a pythagorean model of education by any means. we live in a world where doctors destroy health, lawyers destroy justice, universities destroy knowledge, governments destroy freedom, the press destroys information, religion destroys morals and spirituality, and our banks destroy the economy. that isn’t always the case, there are good people doing good things, but they’re still very very restrained by what they can do at all. and the point of that being that most people are just factory preset off the conveyor belt and into the box. they think they’re doing the right thing, some of them. i’d like to be studying new zealand social policy, and if you have ever read the history of that it’s probably one of the most sad books you ever did. would have to isolate myself next year into a hallucination that it is all that matters. which is possible but also not realistic unless i study it via another university correspondence. i’m past being able to function in that environment. and even then i probably would struggle. not because i’m not capable of it, but because i’m just beyond that kind of indoctrination. i would like to help welfare and social services policy because it’s something that is the primary concern of the state. it might not be until i’m 30 before i can handle settling down into something like that. and even then, i doubt i would unless the tides change and that isn’t within my control. i might see what the anthropology scene is like when i’m older and see if it’s a teachable environment. but i don’t conform to things that easily. until then i’ll probably always just be generating an income through various ways as i do and engaging in my own thing. as i would if there was a living wage. i respect people that do work in those fields for the right reasons, and i’m capable of working on an official level, just not right now. i’m at peak neural connections and indoctrination is the worst thing possible. i’m not even 27 yet, next year is my peak year. so i’m unsure whether or not i will actually study something of official capacity unless it is learning japanese or something like that which i have been meaning to do ever since a few years back. autism spectrum, left handed, and either bipolar or schizophrenic (unsure) leaves me at a severe disadvantage when it comes to conforming to basically anything. too creative and free thinking to operate in the left brain. that’s just science. the paradox is that i would have to hallucinate to operate in that world, because this is my reality. it’s still interesting though. i can juggle some pretty complex spheres of information regarding that field in mental health that they don’t address. do i really want to inhale sawdust my entire life for minimal change though, that is the real juggle. right now i’m pretty much just like fuck no, i’m going to go to japan next year and research things that interest me. like keyhole burial mounds. you can only see them by air though which is a bit frustrating. but that is what makes them so weird. i went into the whole monolith, megalith, ancient structures from above thing in another thread more comprehensively but they’re archived so deep i’m unsure how accessible they truly are, probably pretty easily. they’re just essentially just forum posts threaded under coded imagery. it’s just that only one is ever live at a time on the newsfeed and i’m unsure how that even actually works. haven’t done any research on it at all. it’s just a bit of current dataflow really, but it is archived. for myself and whomever in the future if the news day is slow. i’d just prefer that if i unexpectedly vanish there is record of some of this stuff somewhere accessible like a chamber library of journals opposed to it being on my computer where the HDD can corrupt like has happened to me before and then basically your entire archive is gone. if i did disappear there would still be a coded self, complex enough for me to still be alive that at least up until that time and was relatively accurate albeit it only being noteform. because the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. and that’s just how i roll. mental illness is the catalyst for such operation but that dosen’t really explain my thirst for such knowledge. or where half of it comes from because it does come out of thin air and i’m yet to explain that. it’s that looming puzzle the corner of the room, and everyone sees it. some people choose to ignore it but they’ve got a pocket full of pieces at any given time. it’s kind of like demisting your windscreen in your car. you should be able to see what is in front of you, and what is behind you. but it’s all fogged up and you have to go real slow, even stop until you can see clearly. that’s the state of it. we can’t see fuck all. but outside to someone it’s crystal clear. and we’re caught in our vehicles obscured by their mist. the world isn’t unconsciously operating as stupidly as it looks like it is. there is just absolutely no way in hell it isn’t orchestrated like some kind of ridiculous puppetry on a matrix script on the highest level. if i can think like this there are people in power that have a different grid. no grid. here are people who see this world clear as day. because they have all the history of the world accurately in one place. and it’s nothing how we see it. we’re peasants. sheep. slaves. and that isn’t a bold statement, it’s an understatement. essentially people playing god, and that’s exactly what scriptures say. a false god, fake gods controlling humanity in saying that it’s a pretty nice day and i’m enjoying it in the shade nonetheless. but these are the vibes my mind produces. out of the blue and generally the kiwi in me is just like eh? but it’s still real. i’d know inside myself if i wasn’t in a good place. and it’s definitely apparent that i’m in a good place. these things are still things that are things and the thing is the things are probably things that aren’t as human as others are in the sense tha … i’m conceptually an empath, so i can perceive or feel the mental or emotional state of another individual pretty well. and i can definitely understand how they would think. beautiful day though. still enjoying it. i don’t have some dark cloud over me or anything it’s just a bit of russian rules battleship submarines yo always play battleships. every day. just an exhilarating game for how dumb it is. i have ESP unit submarines so i always win. it’s dumb, you couldn’t possibly know where someone placed their fleet but sometimes the ESP is just on max i’ve sunk a whole fleet in one turn before, if you play it when you’re feeling real ultra usually you play good. same with cards, sometimes the deck is just completely enchanted beyond comprehension. never been to a casino in my life but there are definitely times where i’d bust the dealer on all chips gambling is one of those forbidden things for me, i know i would enjoy it too much blackjack, roulette. i don’t think you can just turn that kind of thing on when you want it to work, but ESP is totally a thing and you get it on max settings running red out of the blue and it’s really obvious you’re well auspicious the origin of the word luck actually has linguistic origins in lucifer. lucky lucifer auspicious dragon different language strains. germanic, anglo saxon and latin. but language, especially latin vulgate bible was around way before that and probably the most widely spread book, and keywords in world history. it’s debatable but also quite obvious the influence it had. depends where you look. that dosen’t really have anything to do with ESP though, it’s just interesting anyway. because the origin of most words are surprising. it could, but that would be attributing good fortune to a blessing from a particular dragon. which linguistically is middle english (also denoting a large serpent): from old french, via latin from greek drakōn ‘serpent’. trippy stuff but then, what does serpent mean. it means creeping. lel “In Chinese daily language, excellent and outstanding people are compared to a dragon, while incapable people with no achievements are compared with other, disesteemed creatures, such as a worm. A number of Chinese proverbs and idioms feature references to a dragon, such as “”Hoping one’s son will become a dragon”” (simplified Chinese: 望子成龙; traditional Chinese: 望子成龍; pinyin: wàng zǐ chéng lóng).” “The dragon is also a symbol of power, strength, and good luck for people who are worthy of it. Sometimes Chinese people use the term “”Descendants of the Dragon”” (simplified Chinese: 龙的传人; traditional Chinese: 龍的傳人) as a sign of ethnic identity” in japan it is believed that believed the royal family descended from sky gods, much like many other cultures..and this is the only way for the gods/aliens could recognize the final resting place of them Over 160,000 kofun are located on japan. much like the lineas de nazca in peru, these kofun cause serious suspicion as to why people would be creating things that can only be seen from high in the sky, something we have not been able to see until recent times. the keyhole burial structures of japan are equally as strange as something like the nazca lines. people were signalling to the sky because that is where they came from. and that is the story everywhere. unxplainable from a human perspective ..the Ishi-no-Hoden megalith is a 500 ton single stone said to have the soul of a kami (i.e. god) inside it. The rock is also called Ame-no-kishi, which translates to “Floating rock from the heavens.” To summarize, it was constructed based on the legend of Ama no iwafune, which translates to “heavenly rock ship.” Indeed, the legend states that a deity flew in a vehicle of similar size and construction. It is worth noting that many believe the legend’s description is due to the fact that people of the time couldn’t accurately describe the true nature of the ship. pretty weird/cool the masuda-no iwafune megalith is the same. sky boat. does not resemble any other architecture whatsoever and has the story to go with it just completely unexplainable from a human perspective. but why would you make something like that up, you wouldn’t. if it was isolated i’d like ehhh but it’s not i was talking about it with someone at some point and it’s just a weird topic because what are the implications of it being historical account. simpler to just say it’s mentally ill child mind esque but what does that mean too, because even if it is, it’s still human pattern and it’s embedded in our code to do these things, which is just strange to me. makes no sense in comparison to it actually occurring. time does not work in the way we perceive it. time exists on different planes and i know that because of time, space, intentity breaches i have. there were people just as if not more, probably definitely more advanced than we are today. some people were advanced, some were not. you can’t just say that because we’re further ahead on a timeline that we are advanced in all areas more so than we have been before. time simply dosen’t work like that. it’s kind of elastic. fluid. it’s a time helix prison but it has elasticity. time dosen’t work at the speed of light which some theories suggest that is a holographic wall of reality. beyond that from our three dimensional reality it is 2D on a galactic horizon. but that’s another story completely and if that is the case then we probably don’t see past the third dimension and we are just three dimensional entities but there could be people living in other dimension. like, how angels and the like work or whatever. how things are split up into different levels of the heavens. different dimensions and that would all just be frequency based on the electromagnetic spectrum. and we can’t see much of that. 0.0035% would leave room for seemingly infinite dimensions that’s where the holographic theory comes form. 3D to us. 2D on a galactic horizon. like a bank card hologram. other dimensions could be looking at us like paper. it’s not like it’s a hologram. it’s just holographic on a dimensional horizon thats science not religion. but is also both that just means that science probably can prove a lot of religious dimensional testament. it’s not to say that we’re a holographic projection, although some scientists and theorists would argue that we are because the universe has error correction code in it just like a computer does. fixes glitches regardless of that, this world is still absolutely real, it’s just nothing on a galactic horizon. we are likely just individually each a point of focus in infinity. or seemingly infinity. because there would have to be an end point. because it’s all frequency and what whatever is creating that resonance is essentially the only real god. we’re perhaps the highest sentience in this dimension, but there still leaves room for both benevolent and malevolent beings to exist above us. which is betwixt between modern physics and ancient record. somewhere between the two. not explainable from a human perspective. paranormal Obscurato Non Scriptum written eclipse A prophetic glowing, an ominous knowing in his gut. He drowned the sensation in scotch and smoke, the pills, just another blindfold..but he could see in the dark all too well. So he wrote, and he wrote some more..and he played the piano until his fingers bled. The fireplace glowed, stoked with failed words. I cannot see it, i cannot hear it, but i can feel it. Your force is intense. Scientific query fails me even in the depths of equation. Another glass was had, another cigarette dragged. Tempered by your love, haunted in traumatic glow. The tidal surge of frenetic arctic afterglow, a magnetic momentum, the ebb and flow of inertia, an angular gravitational frequency. The internal pressure of spherical mirrors in current, resisting parallel relativistic velocity. His apartment was damp, … A drowning of scotch latched into the furnace and a record was played, layered from dormant play, the dust of seven moths. He shuddered and slammed his skull into the mirror as the blood dripped, moths devoured the sun. An hourglass ghoul, through swamp vortex of no return. The record ended, and Ludwig picked up his freyed quill once again. Which spiritual death is hell, he pondered as the temple washed away in the tidal surge. Sirens of the bone horn signalled over the valley, and the mists followed through the city streets in the early hours. Summer transformed ghoul children into a corpse form whenever they left the shade, so they waited for dusk to summon their hallowed craft. The moonlit complexion blushed away skeletal witch tones in a way the sun so harshly arranged in a floral decay of weathered textural wasteland upon the skin. A complexion applied by the stars, and blushed by the moon, and fooled inexplicably by the sun’s daily sequence as others sleep under the spell of a false shrine in the sky. Algorithmic lies, upon the arrangement, it was the plant’s turn to bloom. Deep under the water, and high in the sky. As above, so below the cosm of the mind. What atmospheric death, tartarus shivers. said the watchmaster. The clock strikes. Unfolding of an impossible escape, the prism that one gets lost in is just a pathetic grasp on to someone else’s bloody nails down the well. For an atmospheric death, is 101 ways through hell. Six million ways to die, choose one. I take my vitamin d then i flee, from the sun. Dusk in the graveyard, shift at dawn, as you operate I sleep, as you sleep i’m reborn. The watchmaster sees nothing, but it strikes with precision. Quartz lined walls, time helix prison. vines to the second, a tentacle to the hour. a blade to the minute. Borrowed time, at cost and a half. Divorced from my mind, I wear them still under my lids. Rings of atmospheric death. they fade to a wither, the discourses of a bruised sky, beneath your eyes. Tides of lamented laps and frenetic surges cluster barnacled reef of cultural filth in sedimentary layers. as the forecast sways in vulgar tantrum, elemental fragments flow in storm toward the bay and uplifting erosion occurs, leaving washed upon the shore a weathered form, carved in the trenches. A weathered, salt eroded mask covered in dead barnacles from it’s time in the depths adorned his face..Hiding his flesh above a rusted chain mail and filth soaked cloth, but his tortured, pure eyes haunted through..exposing a 10,000 mile glare of dread staring straight past you into the unknown. They were transparent not because you are willingly luminous in operation, but because you could naturally see right through the opaque volume, or lack thereof in within frail hollow shells of vanity and illusory glimmer of an absorbed foundation, shadow and gloss of cultural thievery. Other than shallow capitalistic voidular drain gloop. Capitalism and the fruits it bears are rotting ration packaged as nutritional infant consumption. Fermented lies making you ill from the day it reaches your mother’s stream all those years before, and her mother’s before that, and hers before then. Leaving a poor child to scrape these eroded, rusted barnacle clustered sedimentary layers from your purity. Before the external world decides to allow more encrustation trapped inside a system it would be seemingly impossible to mine to it’s pure tapped source. Only an alchemic brew of elemental blue flame would smoulder into the night. Knowing better than to lick the surface, burning the hottest in the core of an ember, beneath the ash. Do not touch me, do not try to put me out. He shuddered and slammed his skull into the mirror as the blood dripped, moths devoured the sun. Just a schizophrenic, drug addled, alcoholic author living in a cold, damp, dark apartment. Face pissing out with blood. He sunk some scotch, lit a cigarette and internally screamed oblivion testament. I left that place. For a certain time i felt as light as a feather, floating on a glass ocean like a shimmer in a distant underground reservoir as my body was violently hosted by energies deep within myself until it became one with my own isolation, and i rose into blossom above soil with thick stem and thorns. A lone yellow rose next to a stonewashed rotting oak fell beside the moss banks. i observed as the river flowed me love as it went on it’s way to be on it’s way in frenetic grandeur. Mirrored truths from a broken shard beamed above into a diluted star ocean, trickling fantasy syrup onto dawn’s rise. I passed through the rat sewers lining the cities of capitalist filth and trenched deeper into the underground ocean reservoirs where i floated and observed, connected to the alps in river flow where my eyes could see above sea level. My patience has been tested, and graded day by day as it reaches waterfalls, shallow streams, pebble dams and fell trees, when pans through shall exist in the present. Ultimately what melts from my mountain shall flow forth in these rivers, into ocean and funnel to the clouds, where it shall repeat in pattern. Day, by day, by day by day. What is the probability that a four leaf clover follows the successful currents down intersection passages through the ranges down to it’s destination or in continuum without demise when cast down the river carried by the pure waters of the depths capped upon the mountain. I am contorted like a wild vine in the wilderness, weaving the thicket. I am nightshade. Cutting through the forest like a serpent blade. Be careful where you wade. I come from the place, where water is made. diamonds are forged, quartz silver and jade. Deep underground, where you will get with no spade. Hereth lie, the foundations of what is laid. Hello again, I am the nightshade. In distance, of holy goodness, but time ravishing me, so freyed. Underwater jewel, the depths of where it must stay. I live to see another day. A power withheld, but I know it well. All before the clock strikes twelve, in unison..His mind does delve. Walk away from the screen, and I quiver..My mind, still hit with the splinters. Like a cinder block tied to my leg, it takes me down, down, not up instead. I am inside this earth, Like a cavity of lead. Lead by the stars, but trapped in the dark. If i dream of the light, I am a proud skylark. Lo and behold, the great white shark, devoured by the whale, the living archaeopteryx. Came from the ocean, It walked on land, when is it is time to fly home..the star ocean, down here. I am alone. For a spiritual death is to be so holy. Forgiveness from trial, low key holdeth key. it is a book, it is the word. it is a veil, it is lifted. seeketh deliverance, from the gifted. The primordial scrapings of a lion’s roar is not the desperate cries of a lost kitten. I cannot be disturbed at this time. Feed them to the lions. Smothered in aural ash, I am the flames. magnets rendered immune, i live and rule under the stars and the moon. I have but few words for them. The lord’s graffiti runs the palace walls in the bloody autumn harvest. As the crescent moon descends, dawn will rise. It’s sword is made of coral. The ocean wants your blood. You go where it takes you, and it has brought you to your demise. Away now, slowly. Into the light. Once more, a prophetic glowing, an ominous knowing in his gut. He drowned the sensation in scotch and smoke the pills, just another blindfold..But he could see in the dark all too well. so he wrote, and he wrote some more..He played the piano until his fingers bled. And as the blood dripped, moths devoured the sun. Nightshade syrup that hits you like a bamboo dart from the riverside, paralyzed as you are induced into a trance that puts your environment into a new light, before you fade into a thorn tangled vine maze. I woke above the trees, vertigo assuring my reality. If dark is light, and light is dark, and night is day and day is night, then white is black and black is white. It rains the tears of it’s enemies tonight. If up in down and down is up. backward is forward and forward is back, water is stronger than stone, marrow is soft. Hard is the bone. I knew it, from the womb to the dimension i call home. The fireplace glowed, stoked with failed words. I cannot see you, i cannot hear you, but i can feel you. Your force is intense. Scientific query fails me even in the depths of equation. Another glass was had, another cigarette dragged. Tempered by your love, haunted in traumatic glow. The tidal surge of frenetic arctic afterglow, a magnetic momentum, the ebb and flow of inertia, an angular gravitational frequency. The internal pressure of spherical mirrors in current, resisting parallel relativistic velocity. that story is basically just me writing poems. but it’s weaved into a story of a writer who is having time, space, identity breaches in dissociative hallucination. it is his story, but he is suffering as to why he is actually experiencing those characters. My effeminate, cold poetry does not make me any weaker of a man. A barrage of swords the river flows, undertow within the channel dips swiftly toward the falls, the water roaring and pummelling itself into mossy stone, purifying it’s age old molecules into a turquoise glacier lake in which it dwells, untouched beneath the eroded ranges. Shadows of it glimmer, more so gloom eternally from the depths of the seas from the shores, hallowing all those that stare at its glare with empty dreams of void. The darkness was sanctuary however to every soul whom remained and as dawn breaks at every rise, it falls as moths devour the sun, the star ocean glistens and the sprit comes to life. The decay of silence is melancholic and drear. The downpour of rain, the flow of water, wind playing instrument through flora and fauna, white noise from a grandfather transistor..A waves hissing, a ship’s foghorn, undertow of tidal ocean surge, gloom soaked warning of the lighthouse’s siren drowning the deathly silence that hallows the hollows with haunted dread within the erosion of an abyss. Passus est. Passus est. Abyssus abyssum invocat. He suffered, he suffered. Deep calls the deep. And with that notion, he swiftly fell asleep. pretty dungeon grunge writing, but i like that style. it’s just a literary flare. it’s an extremity of emotion through powerful words. it’s inspired by more medieval times. dark age texts. because i obviously don’t really think in that fashion in this age. the character in that part of the story is experiencing hallucinations and isn’t really writing a story, they are like flashbacks or visions. something he is vehemently opposing with pills, liquor, cigarettes and self harm. We drown in our own cultural sewage. Some drown, some bathe, some are poisoned..Some learn to filtrate it’s toxicity, with hope of separating an element of purity that can be sheltered and injected into the future wearing the cloak made of tightly woven recycled ruin. i created that character, so it is a part of me, but i’m also not that character. it is who i could have been. or who i will be. or who i am but not to the extremity of the tortured emotion it bleeds. this is who i am. i am a puzzler’s dungeon complex of various in depth studious algorithms toward piecing together the seemingly impossible, often working on multiple puzzles at once, finding difficulty in shutting off from this mode, or focusing on singular task. exhausting critical analysis and lens on all, with the polarity of tidal surges and cataclysms performing undertow into trenches and surfacing in currents of unchartered territory that the ghost of a captain plagued by scurvy sails the shadow boat. that’s relatively realistic of how i actually feel about myself. it’s still literary flare but it’s also expressionism of only a facet of the cut diamond structure. it’s a play obviously on the face of me that is autism, left handed, and either bipolar or schizophrenic of which i struggle to ascertain the true diagnosis. it’s just archaic, medieval, gothic handstyle. i can write basically any old way i’m into fantasy but also like psychological thrillers so it’s somewhere in between. which is a difficult strand of writing. it’s not even betwixt between or liminal. it’s straight fiction but you rarely get to see a writers handstyle on so many different layers. it’s not like Thomas Harris is Hannibal Lecter. authors are empaths. they are a person with the paranormal ability to perceive the mental or emotional state of another individual. those things are usually just spun into a fictionalised version of it for effect. because the extremity of a character does not reflect on the author, but on a particular human pattern or condition. people rarely question where fantasy comes from. but it’s all written by someone. that’s the magic of it. it can be so powerful that it seems almost real. and that’s the point. it’s fantasy of reality. except everything does draw from something. which is why fiction can also be a great source of truth too. i draw from dark fantasy, religion, psychological thrillers, conspiracy theories, all sorts of stuff. even parts of my own field of vision because that’s the most apparent reality i know. good fantasy should instill escapism. but distill ideas that are also subliminally true, even though the reader probably won’t ever pick up on that. primarily because they do not know the author personally, but also because they’re not conscious of those concepts in day to day life even though they do exist to some degree. it’s like my anthropology. that stuff is considered fantasy too by most people. the research behind my books is basically just that. everything else. i might write one book, but write like 50 books of research material. the research is way better than the books though. alan moore is a good example of that. writes cool comics, but his research behind it all is like, woah mate you’re a bloody wizard. and he wrote v for vendetta notably. i’m immensely influenced by alan moore. he’s the best. he’s 63 now, but from his 40’s onward he just became a complete self proclaimed warlock. and he deserves that title for sure. writes good books. but it’s just product. his knowledge is amazing. in the land of the blind, the one eyed man is king. and better yet..invisible. warren ellis is a hella wordsmith too i have heaps of influences, not directly but those i consider to be people i look up to in a sense or whatever. but i’m still researching a lot of stuff and it’s difficult to break thresholds in order to make something original. i’m not interested in cheap novels, everyday information or bland sociocultural commentary. it won’t be for years until i compress all previous knowledge and work into something i’m proud of. cultural anthropology is kind of just my research element. i write some alright stuff, but it’s not good enough yet. the sociocultural commentary is probably my #1 piece of work, which is this page. i have fragments of heaps of other things. but they’re not quite how i would like them to be. i’m only 26. i can’t expect so much of myself. i consider this to be a book though. it’s more representative of my generation in this format than it is any other way. Moths Devouring The Sun & The Crystal Serpent are books that i am working on, but it’s probably a couple of winters away from being finished to my standard. i mapped out the story. so i know what happens in them. i have a storyboard and a majority of the first graphic novel. i’m going to approach an artist or two about producing some work from it. i like graphic novels opposed to full text novels because you can spend more time on wordplay and less filler material. a picture says 1000 words, and for every 1000 words you have artwork that corresponds to other aspects of the story that you can only gather through that picture, which gives it a a co-author narrative. i’d like to author something that isn’t isolated, that has different parts of it authored by others than have skill in other aspects of writing too. graphic novels are good for that. each chapter is a different scene. that way the artist is author as well as the writer(s). it’s all just an interwoven thing that creates one good product. i like the idea of different writers writing different characters graphic novels are very cool. 1 picture per 1000 words would be the style i’d go for. works well. no need for filler material. just straight good chapters that are bursting with environment enough that when you get to the picture you meditate on it for 5 minutes or so because that picture is also just as dense and perplexing as the chapter was. the way i think it would work is that i exchange a chapter with an artist who then in turn gives me an unrelated, but vaguely related work. they draw inspiration for the next piece from my work and i draw inspiration from theirs and it just weaves like that from chapter to chapter. that is ideally how i would write a graphic novel. the bookbinding, all that would be part of the art. the book would be like some old woven tapestry. burnt, candle dripped, coffee spilled pages co-operative effort is the only way i would publish a book. can’t write a graphic novel without good art. my mind has studied heaps lately. can’t write that book in summer either. so i’m going to need to find some really good/bad television i think the thing about consciousness is energy is always changing, the constants are changing and you’re never on precisely the same frequency. you may hover within a certain range but never in the same place. and you always recalibrate back to it. time is like experiencing a moment of frequency. dark energy/matter makes up 95% of the universe and although we know it is there, we know little else about it. the electromagnetic spectrum is only 0.005% of energy in the universe. and we only see 0.0035% of that. so it turns out that roughly 68% of the universe is dark energy. dark matter makes up about 27%. the rest, everything on earth, everything ever observed with all of our instruments, all ‘normal’ matter. adds up to less than 5% of the universe. antimatter is the same as matter in every way, looks the same, behaves the same, except its particles have electrical charges opposite to matter. for example our electrons are negatively charged, whereas positron, an antimatter electron is positively charged. the positron is the anti-particle of the electron. dark matter is composed of particles that do not absorb, reflect, or emit light, so they cannot be detected by observing electromagnetic radiation. dark matter is material that cannot be seen directly. we know that dark matter exists because of the effect it has on objects that we can observe directly. what we can observe faintly via radio telescope is cosmic microwave background radiation. which is a constant afterglow. relic radiation. not associated with any star, galaxy or other object. the big bang cosmology is only a theory, albeit a popular one as to where this comes from. where anything comes from. hume believed that theories are not confirmed or verified, and must be falsified and rejected or accepted on the grounds that further confirmation is still to be obtained in order to support a theory if falsification is not to be used. popper, in what … the consideration of a hypothesis is solely derived from deductive predictions which arise from the hypothesis itself, induction in this viewpoint does not need to be considered, let alone exist. popper presented problems of induction such as truth of a theory by empirical evidence, and the justification of preferring one theory to another as better supported by empirical evidence. he saw these as being impossible to solve because scientific theories have infinite scope and no finite evidence can ever accurately judge and settle them. popper’s falsificationist theory of science, however sought to claim that theories could be falsified, and that it was righteous to hold falsifiability as a virtue. the more falsifiable the theory, the more informative value is acquired. popper did not believe that theories could be supported, one that has been through more testing and has been shown to be falsifiable or has been shown to not be falsifiable after going through many tests is known as a corroborated theory. to support the theories of popper denying the existence of induction in the scientific world, that theories cannot be confirmed or verified ultimately and a deductive process can provide theories and hypotheses for scientists to then test and be corrob … there is perhaps an under determination of evidence taking place much of the time when claims are published and regarded in the field as factual data because of being better supported by empirical evidence, rather than coming to an ultimate truth. the approach popper seems to triumph is deductively attempting to falsify your claim, rather than to prove it correct. if one can exhaust their ability to falsify a theory to the extent that it cannot be shown as being false any longer, use of induction and empirical evidence does not in popper’s theory present us with truth that holds any weight. in the scientific world basically, it’s not science if you’re inductively coming to a conclusion. it’s philosophy according to that model. so therefore a scientist shouldn’t be using faith to believe in anything, since that supposedly goes against scientific method, and deduction is the only way to come closer to a corroborated theory, which is under that model popper presented more desirable via aristotelian ethics of virtue. empirical evidence can’t always be trusted. the senses of experience can’t always be trusted when observing and experimenting with variables, and furthermore if it is something that you literally cannot test, then people’s opinions don’t have any scientific validity. the critique of pure reason does build a model for it to exist, but i don’t think you can even with such rigorous empirical methods of peer and adversarial reviews of hypotheses, journal publication, presentation and reproduction of results (which cannot be done traditionally in these theoretical instances) trust that to be absolute truth or fact, at all. if a theory can be falsified then that is sound, and if it is not it is just more likely to be true, but merely because of repeat observation for instance, this does not mean that will always be the case. a truth may only become as factual as any given moment allows it to be, something able to be falsified at any moment, there never being a theory considered fact for a time that is not susceptible to falsification. under this falsificationist view of science, it seems wise to remain forever skeptical. underdetermination of the hypothesis. if you are wishing to seek something’s likelihood of truth, it is best to attempt to falsify it, if you cannot it still is not true, but it is leaps and bounds closer to such an ultimate factual theory than it was before, the more corroborated the theory is, the less likely also is someone else able to claim the theory ladenness or underdetermination of the hypothesis i hate writing like that but that is why i did philosophy of science, so i had that knowledge. so i wasn’t in the dark on science. there is a lot of evidence that santa is real in the world, and if you just went off that then we would still believe that santa is real. but even as a kid we have the deductive ability to figure that one out. and therefore if you have only ever seen a white swan, but you have never left your lake, do only white swans exist? this is essentially the problem with science because it is a mono cognitive, mono paradigm acceptance. the post-modern can only shift the shape or move the puzzle pieces. in recent quantum mechanics, we have learned to approach reality differently and see everything as probabilities instead of certainties. in a mathematical sense, anything is possible. as well as in science as in our daily lives, the extent to which we can calculate or figure out probabilities is determined by our intellectual capability to recognize patterns. the less biased we are, the clearer we can identify the patterns and base our actions on reasonable probabilities. since it’s in the very nature of our brain’s left hemisphere to deny ideas that do not fit into our current paradigm, the more attached we are to a belief system, the less able we are to make conscious choices for ourselves..but by observing this process, we expand our awareness and enhance our free will. i have wordpress pages where i have approached it differently, but that work in comparison to further research and thought, pattern recognition renders it to be an attempt to think in left brain thought. which is not my natural wiring. i’m left handed, so i am going to see things right minded. i’m not attached to a belief system. i really am just a pattern recognition machine that is scanning for truth. deductively the more evidence that is gathered, the more likely it is that it is true, and the less likely that someone can falsify my data. it is said that wisdom comes with age, but with openness and skepticism, the key principles of the scientific method supposedly, we don’t need decades of trial and error to sort out which of our convictions may be improbable. being agnostic, i see that you really cannot prove or disprove anything completely, but the records people wrote were the product of a feral, child-like imagination free and wild in the cosmos in hallucinatory concept of time opposed to an adult, matur … time simply does not work like that. you have woke af people then you have not very woke af people. always. dosen’t matter the time. someone gon be awake g and that’s just the thing. we have all this new knowledge, but we’re not willing to be poly-cognitive about old knowledge. because this paradigm has to be right because we’re the adults and they’re the children. people already figured this stuff out. quantum physics right now is literally proving that. beyond reasonable doubt but where is the official acceptance that there is deductively more evidence supporting that claim than you can shake a stick at. madness. animism was a concept that was theist for lower class citizens, but those of higher rank in society were more educated, and understood these concepts more in depth. just like science. but also saw population control as being necessary. those who were adept in creation became deities among these animistic gods of whom were manifestations of forces of nature. many citizens would not have been literate, and it would have been considered magic for adept teachers to weave words in such ways, be able to read, write, and use the tongue so powerfully. i can counter argument with myself. i’m an empath to the point that i can see it from more than one perspective authentically. for instance, here’s one. the word ‘angel’, comes from the greek ‘angelos’ which literally means messenger. I think the pattern recognition and symbolism of semiotics in the ancient world became a force of one’s psyche attempting to connect and process … we are capable of great imagination, we just live in a binary where the mind becomes trapped in shallow patterns. i can only imagine what it must have been like to live in a place that was extremely warm, in that the sun was all powerful, and you came … if you fast forward to modern time, our advances in physics and scientific inquiry further reinforce these ‘forces of nature’ in which we have attempted to translate into some form of meaning. in saying this, since the beginning, we have been socially conditioned and primed within paradigms constricting our processing and translation of our sensory perception of what is ultimately untranslatable that kind of thought is underdetermination of evidence and theory laden. it only aligns with left hemisphere thought. it’s just a simple attempt to justify something that has more evidence than that, and is ignoring the evidence blindly. most people would find that a lot easier to believe too. it’s convincing, but not representative of the data. people who write such things believe only in white swans but they have never left their lake. their data is not representative of the world, but only that lake. like i said though. some lower class citizens would have thought that way, and lower class citizens do still think that way. it has nothing to do with the socio-economic whatsoever. there are still people that are way, way, way above us and capitalism is just another low function of pattern recognition we’re subject to. but not privy to the comprehensive library. our core belief system is programmed. but we do still given half the chance know something is wrong. i don’t know the truth, but i know that the more data that is collected in falsification of a particular view, the closer to truth that it is. i’m just a citizen. in saying that, the 1% does hold immense wealth. so it is a lot to do with socio-economic class because not only do they hold wealth is monetary sense, they hold wealth in likely all knowledge in one place, in vault from citizens. but that dosen’t mean that people cannot figure this stuff out. it just means it cannot be truth, because what makes it so, only a particular class actually have tangible evidence of. you can’t hide everything. and you can’t find everything to hide. we have lots of stuff, more than enough. but there is likely blatant, undeniable tangible evidence that we just don’t get to see. there would be off grid museums, archives and library vaults that are just absolutely reality splintering. that isn’t speculation, that is fact. somewhere, right now, there are people above the grid that look at everything like a videogame. and we are not equal to them, it’s interdimensional chess. someone might think that they are queen, but above every layer of chess boards, that is just a game. and every layer are pawns. and they don’t play by the rules. there are no rules. it’s puppet master level interdimensional chess. they’re not citizens of anything. i have external laws that i abide to, but i also have internal laws which tell me that a lot of things are wrong regardless of the above method of scientific evidence and i live within the system bitterly. as science also proves, anything is possible and that is probable. because it’s not the left hemisphere of the mind, nor the right. it’s the gut that tells you something. intuition. and everyone knows there is something not quite right about the narrative of the world. even without the evidence/data supporting such wild theories. it’s jungle brew level knowledge people are ritualistically, tribally recognising patterns that don’t make any sense in current narrative. so much to the point where we have this overflow of fantasy that collectively paints a picture of human pattern so different to the ruling ontology (what is real) it’s coming to the conclusion that cosmological (origin story), ontological (what is real), epistemological (what is known/can be known), axiological (what is of value) world view that the left brain is programmed to conform to is not necessarily the o … you can sweep something under the rug, but it’s blatantly obvious that it’s there. there is a gut churning, a soul burning, a second brain yearning that we have. but we yield because aforementioned the left hemisphere of the brain is programmed to deny ideas not suitable to the current paradigm and we filter it out, which actually causes great suffering. children are amazing. their sensory perception before indoctrination is beyond words. listen to them. do not limit a child to your own learning, for they were born in another time. figure out what they are naturally magnetic to, and let them do that. you cannot expect a fish to climb a tree or a monkey to live underwater. and it would be ridiculous to force them to do something unnatural and then tell them they failed. those snakes and ladders, monopoly and sharks…concrete and plastic replaces trees shrubs and bark, egos encrusted, souls eroded, from the cradle to the core the downpours bouldered, rolling through the village, yet they still pillage, false projections lust and vanity, the mist is shrouded, on all humanity into a profanity of insanity that is a calamity of submerged unanimity. from the womb to the cradle, the cradle to the floor, the floor to the door, and our to the sphere, we have no idea how to be self aware or endear only taught models of oppression and fear. watercolour stains, watered down life, slave for someones gain get drained of the colour of life, colour and life, where’d it go, wheres the beauty? it’s true to see, who to be, uniquely beautifully. leave them on an island, mutiny. mic check, 1,2, testing, testing. i tote this mystikal elixr, dome fixer, flint splinter, square shiverer, serpent deliverer in dischord with my liver shots furnace like a fireplace in the winter. bane knowledge seven streams logic odyssey, fucking rou … void elysium ad hoc after hours du wop in house record 50’s bop achilles shopkeeper, 40 wink drop beeper at the finish line, burn cellular like a dealer on the block done deal HBO soprano symphony wiretap shield wielding gonzo insurgency illest. 187 pop lifestyle grave lantern radio wave. 5555 donation to the foolish. pinball wizard in the laundromat rinse cycle spin out have mercy. 90’s dungeon crawl out, point and click on the 95 virus heathen on the scam artist nigerian dirt supremacy. wireless towel in on a murk seven eighty five. 99, 99, 99, mixing newly weds with poison wine. 45 oiled with 181 salt water developments, lost rex losing his crown. bald eagle sheathed sequel in a 1985 beetle. atomic digi bubblegum ghoul phonk glooming out in surge through the urban aquatic got my gaslamp turned up to hurt. enlightenment in the dark and malicious for the blindshaders. six million ways to tell a story, nintendo revelation, sega genesis of the story. abyss angel in the dark reading braille. sea monkeys in your brain..a soup kitchen ladles from a glory hole in the lower-east stable. rinse cycle michael slam dunking filth in the fisher and paykel. in space like an apartment. live in studio on venus, your agency is about as free as a will written by a penis. (it’s all dribble) medieval windmill three point lobotomy for your cereal. 1up bonus level lost in the tenements. homeless janitor in the studio aesthetic smoking blunts with webcam girls fantasy metamorphosis lazy bongo goon, one step closer to dreads and flip flops on a summer afternoon. the dread i lock is metaphorical and rarely heard through your auricle, women’s weekly horoscopes, quite rhetorical. stroking crystals and burning cheap innocence. sensory perplexion at the intersection of give a fuck and get bent avenue wearing a hijab to save my natural glow. it’s entirely up to your perception. the world’s a mess, just trying to stay in jest. cursed or blessed. known to mind blank shaman glock shank got the spirits to thank on this blessed occasion. lesser souls detest it was manifest of satan. froze over on a flex a ravishing grim totem commodity, had a couple blunderbuss scurvy wilded folks toting shots at me. lunar tides hemlocked at a solar infinity in the intergalactic vicinity, people unaware of their mimicry, tied down to the most basicest of symmetry. rap musik in the words of bruce fox. way past crayons good album. that stuff still dosen’t really age. still sounds dope and everyone on those tapes were that age, so it’s representative of that feeling, and it’s why it all sounds the same. you notice it in the next wave of producers too. that 19-22 age where people are just bleeding really good material. before they get too learned or swayed by constraints of thought or genre. it’s a way of encapsulating that lost boys mentality even though you’re getting older. because you never really grow out of it. you just have to conform increasingly to societal norms. be that musical genre or framework. that’s what it sounded like then. all those people are way past crayons now. and so am i that’s 19-22 y/o vibe. and i still really dig that stuff. i’m still that person and everyone pretty much is. questions, answers, life just gets more complex i scribe the times as i see them. back then i saw things different. just a lone gonzo gal in an atomic dungeon with my digi punk friends on some bubblegum ghoul phonk gloom surge through urban aquatic gaslamp murkisphere. but i mean, you can’t see things like that forever because life is just, there. in front of you can’t can’t ignore the fact that it is a lot more complex than that even though that is ideally how i’d like to see things. if i made a tape of artists i showcased in Audio Archaeology. they’re in the same place. but it’s not the same place. the constants are changing, and life is just a lot different to that. i know people that are 19-22 who are completely where i’m at. not where i’m at, but still where i’m at. it has nothing to do with age. at that same time though, i was producing lost temple. which is completely different to the lost recordings. i was always somewhere slightly removed from that but still that is where i was ideologically. kind of between two worlds. there was one that was escapism and one that was more real. and when you’re 19-22 jeez, even 19-25 you are absolutely torn between that escapism and that harshness of a cold world. but the times are different. people younger than me were living in that world too, albeit younger but they were still there. it’s an age where everything is so deconstructed that truth has no substance, and you grow up knowing that from an early age now. it’s not so much a matter of who i am. it’s what i see. and what i see is obviously a lot more than what i did when i was 19. i was interested in those concepts, of course i was. but aforementioned life just gets more complex. questions, answers. mystical happenings. that’s almost a decade ago. 2920 something days later.. 70080 hours later 4204800 minutes later i might have more evidence regarding these things, like..a lot more but regardless of age past a certain point people are all feeling the same. it’s a symptom of the state of things right now, culture is not a solid form. it’s not even fluid. it’s vaporous. in another 8 years time 2920 something days later 70080 hours later 4204800 minutes later it’s going to settle again completely different but that’s kind of on my generation. how are we going to create a solid state. it’s all good and fine to deconstruct, but reconstruction is probably way more important in this point in time. i’m attempting to make sense and process a lot of information in this current time because i need to know the solution before it gets to the point where nothing matters. there is no truth, no nothing. the only reason we’re deconstructing culture so rapidly is because it’s wrong. pure and simple. it’s an age where the physical world makes no sense. the natural world does, but human constructed framework dosen’t reflect the state of at human (un)conscious and a general sense of knowing that everything is completely wrong..and as my research shows. people are well aware of that at a particular level and 7.5 billion humans are no more than animals living in grids of free will. i can understand why that would be a problem but i’m not that stupid this is basic level. the historical evidence that is available alone shows that this was agenda since 6000 years ago or more. never in human history have people collectively been so powerful against establishment. never. regardless of the intricacies of it, i don’t think it matters who they are. but it matters wholeheartedly that control, suppression and oppression is adherently obvious as to why we know more about consumer brands than we do about our history. watch the matrix, and get a notepad. there is sufficient truth in those films enough for it to be a theatrical documentary. if you can work with ration, reason and logic toward a real world with those elaborate concepts then you can actually see precisely how it works. those concepts didn’t come out of thin air either, they are historical record of something, particularly in pre christian gnostic scripture of the nature of reality. which goes beyond those texts. it is found in every text. archons. manevolent and benevolent beings in between us and a true god. false gods. angels and demons they had countless names, and i can’t be bothered recalling a list of them but it’s a pretty bizarre thing to account, in every culture i’m not a believer as such. that is why i documented above the philosophy of science and those rules. but i am immensely interested in why every culture documented the same thing. reasoning via deduction leaves me in a place that is just like, why the fuck would people all have the same story regarding something so explicitly profound. from the zulu to the mayans it dosen’t matter where you look the story pops up i can’t actually break the threshold of where i am at with knowledge right now, the only thing you can do is have faith in it. which i’m not willing to do so i’m really trying to break the threshold of credibility somewhere between world views. which is possible, and i have possibly already done so. it’s no different to keeping up with your favourite reality tv show. it’s not real. but it is, but it isn’t..but who would really know. i still have to live my life. i’m making a peppermint tea and eating a banana. life is boring as which is a counter argument as to why people would make up such elaborate things but also why would it be embedded in our code to think of the same things, and record the same concepts. isolated from any possible communication. the evidence suggests that it’s factual account. and there is more of it than you can shake a stick at. there is a lot of evidence that santa is real. and if we went by that evidence then we would still think that santa is real. but we figure that one out pretty fast. as children. so it’s not difficult to come to the conclusion that deductively we can reach far greater conclusions than that about what we’re told. nietzsche famously said some people don’t want to hear the truth because they don’t want their illusions destroyed. he also said god is dead. what if i flipped that phrase and said they don’t want their illusions destroyed. i can fight with myself all day and one side always wins ever played speedball 2? that image i always found really beautiful. it was in that ghosts book at the primary school library. the specter of newby church but probably fake cool double exposure even if it is pretty sure those usbourne books were standard issue to every school. there was a UFO one and a monsters one and another one called mysteries of the unknown in an anthropological context a notion of the transcendent, supernatural, or numinous is a cultural universal. so still strange. “The English word ghost continues Old English gást, from a hypothetical Common Germanic *gaistaz. It is common to West Germanic, but lacking in North Germanic and East Germanic (the equivalent word in Gothic is ahma, Old Norse has andi m., önd f.). The pre-Germanic form was *ghoisdo-s, apparently from a root denoting “”fury, anger”” reflected in Old Norse geisa “”to rage””.” Alternative words in modern usage include spectre (altn. specter; from Latin spectrum), the Scottish wraith (of obscure origin), phantom (via French ultimately from Greek phantasma) and apparition. This understanding is so prevalent that ghost stories can be found, with very similar themes, in the ancient cultures of Mesopotamia, Egypt, Greece, Rome, China, and India as well as regions of Mesoamerica and the Celtic lands of Ireland and Scotland. Ghosts are also depicted in the Bible in much the same way as they were in earlier Roman works. it goes further than that though, i did research on it at one stage and it’s basically everywhere. i’ve never had a physical ghost encounter but i do believe in paranormal to the extent that frequency bands carry different information, understanding, realities and all sorts of things like that. could it be possible that revenant spirits do haunt the physical if their death was unsolved, unknown, unjustified and could not be set free from this dimension wholeheartedly because of? not likely, but possible. the subject of a lot of fantasy. the subject of a lot of belief systems too restless spirit is just one type of ‘ghost’ mentioned throughout history though. the word itself is a blanket term. what people in the modern day call ‘paranormal’ or ‘supernatural’ events could be actually normal and natural aspects of life on earth. the world of spirits, ghosts, and souls appearing from an afterlife, may be just as much of a reality today as it was to the people of the ancient world. the reason people no longer accept ghosts as a part of life is simply because a world that operates that way is no longer recognised as valid. a new paradigm of how the world worked rose with christianity, and then the acceptance of a secular view of the universe, and ghosts were further distanced from the realm of the living until, finally, they lost their actual potency and became the staple of tales and legends. in time, a growing trust in a secular and more ‘scientific’ way of viewing the world completed the work begun by the church and relegated ghosts to the realm of superstition and fiction. paranormal and supernatural things happen all the time. and there is no denying that really. perhaps not as exciting or frightening as depicted in fantasy, but they happen nonetheless. there are many in the modern day who are interested in the subject of ghosts but, generally, the belief is not encouraged culturally. i’m not denying that kind of thing exists because i haven’t been everywhere at all times to know that. but under the blanket term i could say i’ve seen ghosts, definitely. seeing is believing but what is considered seeing? that’s ultimately debatable. there is ultra substance behind all of that but it’s too dense for note form. everyone had similar beliefs. the vibe of everything points to different levels, different layers of reality. different frequency. heaven has levels. the underworld has levels. this world has levels. it’s all like a layer cake or something. but way more complex of a recipe. you’re only getting one frequency at a time. like a radio transistor. but all the other ones still exist. that’s quantum physics where i’m at currently is very constant. it’s stable and not changing very much. slightly when i recalibrate in sleep but it remains the same. this is my normal. i’m not unwell, or anything like that. this is the reality that i am vibrating at. or that i am within. it might look entirely different to someone not within that band or frequency. the perception might not be computable. it’s usually predetermined by the left hemisphere of the brain that this sort of reality is false because it denies anything that is not within the current paradigm of thought. but that does not necessarily make that the case. quantum theory is the theoretical basis of modern physics that explains the nature and behavior of matter and energy on the atomic and subatomic level. the nature and behavior of matter and energy at that level is sometimes referred to as quantum physics and quantum mechanics. it’s theoretical, but it lines up with a lot of other stuff it’s likely that more than one person i know is within the same band of frequency that i am. it’s likely that majority of people i know are. i’m just a freak and i’m articulating it freak of nature that’s the risk you take though. for other people to not understand you. i’m normal. at least i know how to be. this is just an expression of a frequency. and that’s what the internet is all about. i couldn’t express this over a beer, i’d sound like some southerner kiwi that just candyflipped in person i’m probably going to talk about music. because i like music and that’s common ground. anything else i don’t mind talking about but it’s going to frustrate me because i can’t project a presentation out of my eyes and be like check out this picture or this video or this passage of text..yet i’m not down with transcendental transhumanism but augmented reality is pretty cool even just having a projector on your phone would be dope. why isn’t that a thing the future will be very AR/VR. there is no reason why we wouldn’t just live in a world where we can be at our potential. this is different to a conversation because it’s just notes. like i said if i was going to speak about half of these things unless a case of red wine and a lot of cigarettes (or nicotine) was involved with a lot of time, twice, three times as much time at disposal it wouldn’t be possible it would be dope to have projectors on your phone so you could have enhanced communication though if we had contact lenses where we could login to a social network, communication would be unreal. login to the room, everyone is connected and you communicate like hieroglyphs in conjunction to your spoken language. bazinga why isn’t that a thing. because technology drip feeds. we could have those things easily. it’s not a matter of not being able to do it, it’s a matter of mass production at consumer level cost. which is also easily done. but it’s not it’s a real thing already. just not for us. like most things really. it is 2017. i’m not living in ancient times, i just study that stuff because it’s relevant, regardless of how many people think it’s not. quantum theories of matter and electromagnetic radiation isn’t ancient, but it is, but it also is cutting edge modern. einstein did famously quote though within quantum electrodynamics or quantum electromagnetism that god does not play with dice. which is contempt at the universe being governed by probability. i think that it probably is, but like free will, only within threshold of a particular reality. so it’s essentially an illusion of free will and probability because ultimately it dosen’t exist. everything is too intelligently designed to be random. even just at visible level. but the devil is in the details and that’s where it is actually apparent. there is a god. and it is the master frequency. anything on levels below that is a false god. and we have/had them over us. benevolent and malevolent actors both. but they weren’t god. they were aliens. i wouldn’t come to that conclusion without many, many, many manymanymanymany hours of deduction maybe schizophrenia and autism is potent alien code. who even bloody knows eh. they don’t. ancient aliens to be fair i’ve watched like 3 episodes and there is 10 seasons so i can’t actually say if it’s good or not. probably pretty good. i might watch it and see how much they actually go into. probably not enough to be chromosome splicing but enough to make people think about it. i’ve probably just recorded some pretty high level autism right here but it’s undeniable for the better part. autism spectrum is pretty incredible. for what people lack in some things they make up for it in others. i’m only level 1 high functioning. level 3 is severe. level 2 is quite savant. i could be level 2 though. quite easily. my repetitive behaviours are still noticeable to the casual observer. quite blatantly. it just happens that i’m a writer and my interests were dragons and ancient cultures. my social skills are still pretty bad. i’ll talk really complex but i’ll be staring at like a lamp or something vacantly. it’s more likely high functioning level 2. because high functioning level 1 would be next to unnoticeable. in terms of repetitive behaviour, i have clocked 14 hours research today, plus random notes i sleep polyphasic so i usually only sleep for a few hours at a time. wake up like a light and just research. i earn enough money via various means to survive and i did just buy a new car but i mean, i’m not really that much of a citizen. i just study heavy hours and not much else at the moment. sometimes i can direct it to something else without suppressing it, sometimes but it’s a rare occasion where my mind isn’t on the rails of this motion. “””Caltech’s Konstantin Batygin, an assistant professor of planetary science, and Mike Brown, the Richard and Barbara Rosenberg Professor of Planetary Astronomy, discuss new research that provides evidence of a giant planet tracing a bizarre, highly elongated orbit in the outer solar system.””” sounds like nibiru g wormwood, has many names that’s a NASA video, finally someone ‘credible’ has found it planet x. only orbits into our system once every X amount of years. can’t remember the number. but it’s been documented in scripture(s) pretty interesting. because yet again, how would they have known about it. and why did they know so much about it. it was hypothesised that the orbit was obscure by theorists, and it was recorded that it was the case in ancient texts..now there is credible evidence that is the case. basically. perhaps that planet described by so many cultures is the source of extra terrestrial contact. who knows. they seemed to think they did. it’s not just a case of o alienz spooky stuff it’s all in line with my research so i find it another possible/likely part of the puzzle. there isn’t much validity in saying we’re the highest intelligence in this universe. it is simpler to just think of metaphysical things but a physical approach would be exactly that. and are they benevolent/malevolent? both. and ancient texts tell all about that really. the planet is ten times the size of earth. which would cause cataclysm as it arrives closer in orbit anyway people were getting really amped/worried that it is happening soon, but i don’t think it will. it’s still in the outer reaches of the solar system. but that dosen’t mean that it’s not still reaching/is within contact range. let’s say the orbit is 3,600 years. it wouldn’t have been close for a while. these are just interesting theories. but they have substantial data trailing them, enough to be more than interesting. i have two world maps on my wall and three globes, every time i look at the map i imagine how it would have possibly happened, and it makes a lot of sense. especially if it has origins going back hundreds of thousands of years. as texts suggest. everything is attributed to these people. some of them wanted to help us, some of them didn’t. and there was rebellion. we’re supposedly only still around because a group of them decided they liked us, a lot. the bible is the easiest text to look at in regard to that, but by all means that is a slither off the tip of the iceberg. the watchers in the book of enoch. great grandfather of noah. i spend thousands of hours researching this stuff. so i wouldn’t expect people to understand it completely. but i also create pretty lucid notes. it’s a intricately threaded database, but i’m burning all this info, it’s shed skin. i just think it’s worth recording because one day i won’t be as fast as i am now. in 2013 i stopped making music and went almost full time into research. and since then it’s been sole focus. not so coincidentally when i started having hallucinations. first hallucination was numbers. numbers everywhere but every time i wrote down the numbers i’d type them into google because i mean why not. and they were very specific bible verses, or random other scripture. that was where it actually started. hallucination scribe 2.0 v1.0 was terrible. but this has no bugs or glitches. it’s pattern recognition at a very precise level. hallucinations can be a good thing if you understand how to cope with them. which took me over 4 years of exhausting work. it’s like, what do you want. but if you can’t fight it. you just walk the path, and stay straight. abbadon and apollyon are both the same person in scholarly research. the abyss angel. The Hebrew term Abaddon (Hebrew: אֲבַדּוֹן‎‎, ‘Ǎḇaddōn), and its two Greek equivalents Apollyon (Greek: Ἀπολλύων, Apollyon) as a person/being and Τάρταρος Tartaros as a place/time, appears in the Bible as name of a place, time, or personification/incarnation of destructive nature. “In the Hebrew Bible, Abaddon often appears alongside the place שְׁאוֹל (sheol), meaning the realm of the dead. In the New Testament Book of Revelation, an angel called Abaddon is described as the king of an army of locusts; his name is first transcribed in Greek (Revelation 9:11—””whose name in Hebrew is Abaddon, The Angel of Death.”” (Ἀβαδδὼν)” “and then translated (“”which in Greek means the Destroyer”” (Ἀπολλύων, Apollyon)). The Latin Vulgate and the Douay Rheims Bible have additional notes (not present in the Greek text), “”in Latin Exterminans””, exterminans being the Latin word for “”destroyer””.” “which is where “”and I saw an angel coming down out of heaven, having the key to the abyss and holding in his hand a great chain.”” comes from” “then it goes – “”He seized the dragon, the ancient serpent who is the devil and Satan, and bound him for a thousand years. And he threw him into the Abyss, shut it, and sealed it over him, so that he could not deceive the nations until the thousand years were complete. After that, he must be released for a brief period of time..””” pretty cryptic stuff john was a good writer. best part of the book enoch was pretty good too. had some cool hallucinations. it is a dream vision. enoch wrote heaps but it isn’t just something that you randomly come up with, for it all to align with how many other people? countless. incredible writing. you just don’t come up with things like that for them to all intergenerationally and interculturally link it’s still considered by some to be non-canonical or uninspired but it blatantly is. how could it not be. there is nothing but the now really. everything is still encoded in the now. that’s the thing. the present moment is still everything that ever was. otherwise it wouldn’t be current. time, space, identity. how else would we have that. being open to nothing, emptiness is just allowance for the future to manifest. because the current is a stream, the way of the waters has a source, and the current is precisely that. you don’t impose a course of your own. and you do not know why you do it, you just live in the current. that’s modern tao. and we’re all in different motions of the current, but the same stream ultimately. you are a twig in the river. the twig has it’s source, as too does the river. and we appear in the stream at a certain point, but it has a destination and regardless of how much we will become dammed at times, we will always end up blessed into the ocean eventually. because that is the way of the water. because that is where the stream is going. we acquire information along the journey because the river has it’s source and holds such things. and then we just find out anyway. if something dampens you, embrace the liquidity because you are always going to be soaked. patience must be high graded day by day as it reaches waterfalls, shallow streams, pebble dams and fell trees, when pans through shall exist in the current once again. ultimately what melts from the mountain shall flow forth in these rivers, into ocean and funnel to the clouds, where it shall repeat in pattern. are we the twig, or are we the water itself? the twig could be a metaphorical manifestation of material, physical. and our soul being the current, the spiritual. eventually the twig will dissolve into the water. and we just become one. the twig still reaches it’s destination. tao te ching translates to the great book. i made that up, but i also didn’t, it’s an old chinese ting, way of the water. for a certain time i felt as light as a feather, floating on a glass ocean like a shimmer in a distant underground reservoir as my body was violently hosted by energies deep within myself until it became one with me and i rose into blossom from seed above soil with thick stem and thorns. a lone yellow rose next to a stonewashed rotting oak fell beside the moss banks. i observed as the river flowed me love as it went on it’s way to be on it’s way in frenetic grandeur. then i fell gracefully into the river and entered the current. a yellow rose is probably nicer than a twig. but it’s the same deal. Water is of major importance to all living things; in some organisms, up to 90% of their body weight comes from water. Up to 60% of the human adult body is water. According to H.H. Mitchell, Journal of Biological Chemistry 158, the brain and heart are composed of 73% water, and the lungs are about 83% water it’s The Way of the water. water is older than the sun. the current holds all sorts of information that makes up time, space and identity. in conclusion of that arc, living in the current encompasses all because water is infinite and everything is everywhere, all the time. the water has been through that cycle many times before. water knows everything. because it is older than the sun we’re a dimensional manifestation, a material layer of (seemingly) infinite layers. so this is only one form of reality. there is intelligence above us. but water seems to be the only thing that is physically a compendium of emotive, and information that we can see through cymatic research which shows it to be a sentience beyond semiotic comprehension. which is the study of the process of signs and symbols. so the metaphor of water is important. but not just physical water. the cosmic waters. the entire electromagnetic spectrum is known to be only 0.005% of energy in the known universe. and humans can visibly see 0.0035% of that full spectrum within that 0.005% of energy. so there is going to be entities even beyond physics equations that see us as (less than) a 2D reality on a cosmic horizon of seemingly infinite dimensional scope. humans in conclusion are just a point of attention in a very narrow reality. are there benevolent and malevolent energies that exist beyond humans? of course there is. what we consider life is centric to human experience but humans did not figure out the things that they knew. they were taught them. according to their texts. it does not matter if this is in a dream vision or it physically happened. what matters is everyone were linked to the same network. but it makes more sense for there to have been (at some point) a breach in our code alas the procreation with humans of the fallen watchers, or similar tales. humans were created for a purpose. slavery. but the one in charge of that, our artificial creator, gave us more than they were supposed to. and we became this. instead of just a submissive primate. that is the radiance of most texts. which that has most prominent orgin evidence of happening hundreds of thousands of years ago in africa via the Zulu which that has most prominent orgin evidence of happening hundreds of thousands of years ago in africa via the Zulu sumeria is just the cradle of civilization. modern day iraq. the first place the kingship descends from. the birth of writing, so the record of that starts there. around only 6,000 years ago but oral tradition goes further than that. In Australia the aborigines speak of a race which lives underneath the Earth and governs over men. The Aboriginal chiefs have spoken of going into the Earth where these beings resided. There they claim there is extensive technology. The Aborigines say … the whole serpent, dragon, reptilian things is basically universal too. In India, extensive histories exist regarding the Naga, a race said to live underground and interact with the kings and others on the surface. These beings were said to have once lived on a continent in the Pacific Ocean which sank beneath the waves. This is a recurring story throughout the world. most things point to mu, or atlantis as being an origin of most things. because oral tradition always speaks of that a sunken continent it goes a lot further than that those are just some basic examples but the left hemisphere of the brain can’t cope with digesting that kind of information, even though it is written in stone, parchment, anything and everything, everywhere. i only record a small percentage of what i research. and even then i have to justify those notes. the actual data is beyond reasonable doubt that it is the case. how do you come up with the same stories in isolation? seems far fetched to me, more so than the current ruling ontology. what is real in this world dosen’t make a whole lot of sense. not really. we reached a certain era and then just decided to discredit everything else. lol did anyone ever play worlds in the sandpit? i used to create a world with heaps of toys. they would war and do stupid things then i’d flood the world with a hose funny photo album this one these photos are all somewhere before i was 25 my body seems to fluctuate a lot that photo album is quite old. but it’s still an interesting one. it’s so funny how important image is that’s just me when i was a kid. image is so important to people, i just find it interesting above all. definitions of beauty differ from person to person. and i personally cannot stand the stereotypical, normative projection of it. and i don’t care about what someone looks like at all, it’s the substance that you hold. if you don’t have an interesting energy about you then i’m probably not going to care less regardless of whom you are or what you look like. and that dosen’t have to be a sexual connotation. why does everything have to be? it shouldn’t be. in that sense i am attracted to women. but it’s also shallow to the point where i could easily be asexual. i connect electromagnetically with any human that is on similar waves. i’m not an animal. possibly the only time i haven’t had very noticeable facial hair, have so since i was about 15, just something about it looks bizarre i look like a turtle. i’m probably from a reptilian turtle clan my mind holds so much information these days that it is difficult to operate like someone usually would. i just don’t see the relevance in it. i still work, believe it or not. but my mind is completely tuned to something that renders most other things irrelevant and pointless. primarily just like, pretty much most of humanity. i enjoy simple things, natural things. but the actual framework of the global system, world view, paradigm just seems ridiculous. i’m just refining a lot of research at the moment. and it’s taken a couple of months to really grade it from all the rubbish that gets clogged up in there. but it’s really many years of study in short succession. it’s just note form compared to if i expanded a lot of it. i often watch relatively unknown satire and study vlogs in downtime. they are interesting format and it’s a good way to communicate perspective because you can present information in a simple and interactive multimedia way. not as substantial and effective as blog content, but still good info/entertainment. not simple to find people that are producing good ones. same goes with podcasts. my primary ‘entertainment’ is vlogs and podcasts. and they’re still usually just comparing perspective on subjects that i’m looking at when i am studying things. i would consider a blog to be classed more as study because of the substantial amount of content. when i read blogs i scan it for information that is relevant to me. and passages will appear and i just be like bazinga that’s what i was looking for. thank you. my work is always original writing unless it is in proper punctuation and grammar, and tha … different things will appear bold to different people, and i guess that is the interesting thing about multi-faceted content. to some, the good content is the rubbish content to others and the rubbish content is the good content to another demographic. for a while i was flowing some comedy, but i’m not really on that wave at all anymore. i’m looking at sociocultural commentary on various layers and anthropological research. which is rather boring to most people. but i also am into some pretty intellectual stuff too. i’m a bit past that kind of meme-ism. but i still dig that method of cultural communication and conceptualism. a lens of confused psyche and predominant world view’s effect on global culture was the focus of those image banks. if Julia has autism, then what diagnoses are the other people on sesame street living with? something tells me sesame street is a gated mental health facility. different vibe. i dig that post ironic windows 98 era cyber trash. but at the same time it is actually quite a scholarly endeavour when you take into account the fact that it is a different lens on confused psyche, whitewashed culture. if freud witnessed the internet in his age he probably would have had an aneurysm attempting to navigate the melted waste surrounding yet alone examining even a slither of the tip composing the mother iceberg that is the world wide web. the true nature of human’s operation in unconscious and conscious sewer of psyche outlet within the digital realm is truly beyond most people’s (regardless of their experience or credential background) semiotic compass, analysis, or awareness. most people. if you construct a good filtration system you can render most things to be pretty irrelevant and bypass most data and be left with high graded information. i couldn’t possibly sustainably curate a scrapbook like that ever again. it was just the most obscure things i had come across that collectively painted a completely confused and whitewashed world which was parallel to my research field. you could say it is the effects of western expansion. effect and causation. because it’s just very fragmented submerged culture. a psyche that is struggling to cope with the constraints of capitalism, dominant world view and ideological asphyxiation. the image bank has thousands upon thousands of images and it is as the name implies. a cultural sewers vault. but at the same time, it’s also not confusion at some cross sections. it’s deconstruction, reconstruction and pattern recognition, signal receiving that is transcending that world view. every second five people are born and two people die. so the world population doubles every 40 years. which means in 40 years time there will be over 12 billion in 40 years, 24 billion in 80 years and 48 billion in 120 years the world will not sustain anywhere close to that. if i have five apples and you have four pencils, then how many pancakes can you fit on the roof? the answer is none because aliens don’t wear hats. acceptable answer is also purple maximum level tantra. what a thread. yikes 99 problems but a.. uh..the 1% is the cause of all of them. very compressed thread, but there’s quite a lot of information in it, some of it is the deepest stuff i’ve recorded on here. this page started on the 27/08/17 © Thomas Louis Bigelow MMXVII

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were they mentally ill? perhaps, but that still raises the question of what that also means. weird direct genetic throwbacks from descendants, alien in origin. that’s not a stab in the dark, that’s pretty much on point with scripture and everything else. you could say hey thom, you’re unwell. please do some mindfulness therapy and continue the medication and focus on wellness. but who would that really be kidding? i learned that suppressing this stuff just makes it worse. because it’s submerging it into the unconsciousness (which is dangerous) and it wants to be on the surface. i’m chill about it, and i accentuate it more extreme than it needs to be with profile pictures like this but i just find it amusing. in actual analysis i’m of sound mind, so there isn’t any real issue. that’s the point of occult though. it was always supposed to hold a sort of prestige so that other people were frightened of it, even though it wasn’t actually as dark as it was projected. it was rather colourful, but in making it seem more macabre and ravishingly grim as it was it was supposed to strike fear into those who contested it. but it wasn’t like that at all. magic so to speak is very colourful. luminous. lucid. but has a dark prestige because of it’s need to be protected and concealed. a spell book, book of spells, was nothing more and nothing less than basically just this. it was a grimmoir. a grammar book. and it had the power to change consciousness. to the average person, these words were magic. because back then many couldn’t write or read. and they could only speak basic native tongues. so these books they cast from were magical. that is the basic story of white to grey magic. but these people were also way more intelligent than that and they did engage in complexities what would have been considered black magic. these days that projection is plastic and meaningless. just another kid’s tumblr with occult aesthetic. but the practice itself is especially apparent in consumer manipulation and advertising. symbols, signs, incantations. propaganda. inverted intimidation into silence. all that stuff. it’s employing the same techniques. they’re allowed to be magicians. we’re not. that was and is the difference. there’s a bubble betwixt between, liminal to the ‘real world’ that is fantasy. and it stays there, and it’s not allowed to leave. because the moment that it does, it is intimidated into submission because there is only one ruling agenda, which is the western globalist view, and if someone dares leave that realm and enter theirs. it is seen as either insane, inane, criminal or all of the above. so not much has changed. the beauty of it is that now, as of late. it’s seeping into their world faster than they can bucket it out. i’m just slightly concerned because deconstructing culture is fine. it’s good. but who is going to reconstruct it. people had better be prepared for that too. non-compliance is inevitable. but there is still the fact that there is a 1% with 99% power. but not really, if you translate the 99% to non-compliance. international do nothing day. and the next day and the next day problem is it wouldn’t be 99% that comply with non compliance because people are so attached to the matrix they would too see it as deviance there are people that could administrate this world a lot better than the ruling class, if you did deconstruct capitalism successfully there would still have to be a new paradigm and administration implemented. but i mean, no compliance equals no power. how do you do that? you just do nothing. revolution is the language of the unheard, but riots just tighten down laws even further, make things worse. what you really want to do is nothing. do you know how much it would cripple capitalism if people just did nothing? even for like two weeks it would collapse half the world. we’re always going to live in a world of factory preset minds off the conveyor belt and into boxes. but i’m not so sure people are going to buy that anymore.

Text Don’t fall asleep to a long list of podcasts. Or do. Always weird waking every half hour to disconnected bits of arcane conversation. compulsory nightly programming. wear the headphones and obey bonus round, put the heater on high, wear 7 nicotine patches and leave your socks on shaman level fever dream safe mode – camomile tea, air conditioning and 10 hour dna cell regeneration 432hz kundalini chakra activation frequency in breathable cotton garment with cucumbers on your eyes covered in coconut oil quick sunday chakra tune up TempleSounds knows everything about bowls. he has all the bowls and he ain’t playin around. in some of the videos he’s just surrounded in ridiculous slabs of crystals with like 30 bowls going at once with a bunch of gongs and bells people think eastern tradition is all about being quiet. they are so, so wrong. when you look at how powerful the natural sound of singing bowls are you could only imagine what they actually did have in ancient times, and what they did with them. pyramids and temples were designed to be sound/energy machines same with cathedrals. but they aren’t used the way they are supposed to at all. nothing is these days. lost wisdom. the architecture is very precise. it’s not just supposed to be beautiful, they are functional. albeit they were robbed of all the things that made them work. when you look at the resonant power of just one crystal bowl. imagine a more complex one. it wasn’t just the crystals, metals, elements that they lined them with. and the instrument. they were lined up directly, not just kind of, directly to certain stars people have a laugh at that kind of thing but then their actual operation is way more primitive than that. people weren’t stupid. some people were. obviously. look at the world today. not everyone is very switched on. time does not work like that. the way we are educated to look at history is a lie this isn’t an uneducated guess. this is literally my profession and i know a lot about it. way more than i can just lucidly write notes on time does not work like we think it does. history is not what we think it is, the western paradigm is wrong. i think people find it simpler to live in a world where indoctrinated study, work, intoxication and partying numbs the reality of this world. but that’s weak. that’s living in a dream. living in a bubble. because the truth is stranger than fiction and escapism on low levels of operation is lust product. it’s primitive. very primitive. and the way we live today, is playing on our most primal of function. materialism is void. you can run all you want from it, but you’re still going to be empty. trying to fill a void is going to break you. you could be 55 and have material success, but you are still going to be empty. don’t be that person. because you will regret it. i like to call it mental furnishings. a lot of people have all these material things but their mental temple is empty. just because i articulate it, and manifest particular things dosen’t mean i think other people are empty. i’m just providing solace in that the external environment does not matter. i wouldn’t underestimate anyone’s mindscape. no one i know anyway. some people i can read like a book. my friends are pretty mysterious and i wouldn’t underestimate them for a second. my temple’s courtyard is open, but my chambers are still pretty myst … the point of view i write from is relatable, across a broad spectrum of human thought. and it’s quite obvious to me that i don’t really write from just my perspective. i attempt to write in a way that anyone (that i know) also thinks like. i write from gut feelings. but my primary mind also refrains me from certain things too. it’s filtered. as strange as that seems, it’s very filtered and tuned to be something that a certain type of person can relate to. i’ve met many thousands of people. but my network is (almost) all just people of the same mind. i believe in a collective consciousness. and i believe that most people i know tap into the same layer(s) of frequency i think i could almost prove that. but not substantially on paper. just a gut feeling that it’s the case, and that’s enough for me “i like this tune. because it has the sample “”he looked inside of me”” and that’s the vibe. i can look inside of you. because to a degree, i am you also.” and i feel likewise about burial. it’s like he, looked inside..me this train of threads began only about a month ago, and if you looked at where i began. i started at square one. i was borderline suicidal. it’s mystic ascension to get back to where you’re supposed to be. this facebook is empty before that. so you can actually see the process, if you doubted it. i failed every other time. and i erased my entire facebook with a script every time. not good enough, not balanced enough. it was a failure. and i’ve written a lot. it’s because i’m representing a certain layer of frequency. and i wasn’t stable on that wave. even what is considered unbalance is still the unbalance of that layer. it’s a relatable wave even then. i think. i’m still an individual. and so is everyone. but it still draws from that same well. this is successful writing to me. because it’s representative. and that is the point to me, it is supposed to be resonant to a particular frequency. i couldn’t achieve that with drawing or music past a certain threshold. like, i did..but it wasn’t straight on the wave. i don’t need direct validation because i already have it. it’s a collective band of frequency. and it’s adherently obvious to me when people are hovering within it it’s quite ESP to pick up on when people are. you can even be in a room with a bunch of people but everyone are in different layers of the room. and you can tell when someone is on the same floor. this is natural wave literature. i could/can write in a myriad of fashions but this is way more real. and i know for a fact it’s probably 1/3 that are surfing the same wave, and if not they’re still in the same set. if you know how swells work. you know, there are usually 7 waves in a set give or take. you could look at that like frequency layers. 1/3 people i know are on the exact same wave. others are still within that frequency band, just on another wave. some people are in the whitewash still, or still in the paddling pool on shore. you have to get through the whitewash, and be behind the waves, then you can choose which one you want. when a storm hits, you don’t hide from it. opposite. you wait for the most fuck off surge to come then you take the most bowling breaker. if you can handle that, then you’re fizzing. i used to fall off a lot. but then my balance got good. could have gone pro but i stayed soul. igloo is just playin on that record. he’s produced so many heaters he’s allowed to be weird. same with arca. no1 will understand that lvl until like 2077 this remix is v rare. exclusive tomb excavations so much energy. too much energy. how do you even get that much momentum on a track. reminds me a lot of frank zappa’s jazz from hell album. somewhere between that and someone playing a lot of videogames on extreme mode real slept on though. even on brainfeeder it’s definitely difficult to translate to mainstream. i just dig the lost boys eternal energy vibe. it’s refreshing to listen to something that isn’t necessarily dark but it still has the momentum of a 4 deck jungle set in one tune. he’s only 19 but when i found the dude on soundcloud he was probably only like 13 and making tunes on level with early fly lo refreshing is the word. the post slugabed label stuff is just really beyond comprehension of what anyone else is doing. it’s melt your face off warped but it’s really fruity. if you played that in one of those classrooms with gluesicks stuck to the roof and paper planes everywhere, people spraying deoderant on desktops and lighting it (my math class) it would be similar energy. but the new album is like, a personal zen from that. if you showed (another) shaman that they would be blown away i’d probably recognize him as within like top 5 shamans i know this one is a send from a 9 y/o in highland china Also in front of the throne there was what looked like a sea of glass, clear as crystal. In the center, around the throne, were four living creatures, and they were covered with eyes, in front and in back. Revelation 4:6 lel the most advanced technique and practice is basically forgotten, lost or forbidden i wouldn’t say lost though. hidden. not public or low level knowledge sound is important everywhere you look, it dosen’t really matter what culture. some cultures were highly advanced, and they were mostly destroyed and their knowledge acquired and kept hidden from general disclosure. history books are written by the victors. and they will tell you whatever they want you to believe. it depends where i’m at. i could recoil from this state and go back to a depressed mess, but i actively ward that because it’s not good for anything. but i know the essence or true nature of things clearly when i’m in focus..and that’s how it is. there is more than one side to truth. but there is a predominant actor (that being the western globalist paradigm) and that is all we get to see. it’s more difficult to suppress information now, but it’s also very difficult to find. the truth is out there. kind of like scattered dragon balls. and when you find them all you can call the dragon the seven dragon balls. the seven seals it’s not a new concept. the saiyans. it’s all derived from real history, just rewoven. like most things are. and even if they’re not..then why is the same pattern recurring in iteration. i probably don’t know half as much about japanese history as i would like to but a lot of those concepts aren’t just spun out of thin air and when they are, why are they? because a lot of things even i know..they do come out of thin air and they directly link to something when i research it. so it does happen. i like to reference modern culture often because it makes sense of things when they might otherwise seem a bit out of scope. and there is endless pattern to go from. if you’re wanting to correlate a lot of stuff to a very compact area of knowledge that is very old. some people do, a lot of people do research their work. but a lot of it is just pure imagination and it still directly links to those things anyway. you could associate it to unconscious priming but a lot of the time there is zero chance that the person could have known a thing about what they produced prior. i went into this in great detail at one stage, but that’s pretty deep in the labyrinth. even if i was building a more structured website it would still be a pretty dense site. but it would just take too much time. i was building one at one stage. it was called Unknown Anthropologist i prefer for data to be hidden in the seaweed in the depths anyway. not just floating on the www the model of this page is very deep web. this is what the deep web is like mostly. just a lot of isolated data banks i’m not going too extreme, but if i did then i would do it on the deep web i’ve never really become a part of any communities in the deep web but i’ve browsed them and i mean, the counter-intelligence movement is like a fortress, and if you could prove you were worthy you would get let into pretty much just above marianas trench level that’s where everything is. fully encrypted, encoded counter-intel. you wouldn’t find half of what people have found on the surface web i’m at that level, but i don’t really post half of what i would like to because it wouldn’t be suitable here. i’d prefer to look crazy, but i mean that’s the point. because i’m not dumb. good luck going through all of this and making sense of it. unless you were relatively up to date with thread content. spells cast fade. and when you gaze upon a discarded thread it’s not alive anymore. the magic won’t work because it isn’t activated. i know how spell books work. but they’re my spell books and you can’t use them unless i actually activated their content. however, my books are still alive. because i did activate every single one of them. tupac read machiavelli in prison. read a lot of books in prison. for his age he was ridiculously intelligent he changed his name from 2pac to makaveli the don killuminati final album. these days wouldn’t be such a target but then, that was in those days there are conspiracy theories about diana too. she knew too much. left the royal family with enough information to sink the ship and was getting too loose lipped. these days the ocean is just swarming with people disclosing all sorts of things and it’s simpler to expose people as being crazy than it is to actually take them out or something i’m skeptical, but not sure. because it’s merely conjecture to come to any conclusions but hey. if someone took me out because i was holding too much information i would be honoured. not like, i would be honoured, i mean i would be stoked. because it means i was right beaurocracy has me so safe right now regardless of what i do because i’ll always have record of having mental instability. because i’m under the mental health act. it basically means that anything that i do, would be considered crazy. and that’s dope not that i’m actually doing anything wrong, it’s just peace of mind. oh jeez, thom’s having a season 3 recap with commentary legit what it’s like though. i’m just recapping previous episodes except this time around i’m in control, and it’s still the same vibes. i’m balanced r/n and this is directors cut w/ commentary i’m being pretty ironic when i weave bad jokes and stuff, i could just..not. pretty ez and then it would be some serious ish it’s what i know though. too much succession isn’t sustainable so rather than regress i just displace it in freudian psychology that is supposed to be all unconscious happening but freud was pretentious and sheltered examining a slither of the iceberg of what was to become the upturned monolithic iceberg that is the modern psyche jungian psychology is way cooler because he was the only one out of all of them that was into proving the existence of paranormal. he did it quaintly though so he didn’t lose credibility. by explaining the occurrence of synchronicity. meaningful coincidences. of any nature. dream interpretation too. all the interesting stuff i usually write in my dreams. i always have a notepad or something. or even is just exactly like this. then i wake up and i don’t have all that stuff i recorded it’s really annoying because usually it is way better than this stuff, but it’s almost like it’s forbidden to take it from my dreams. it’s just knowledge for me to have visions of every now and again. sometimes i wake up and i scramble for a notepad but it’s usually too late. you can’t get that stuff and articulate it. it’s just too complex and it’s fractured by the time you try. i rarely have basic dreams about basic primal things. they’re very weird. very spiritual you can induce dreams like i did in the topic of the thread originally though. i was listening to david icke talk about nikola tesla because i thought he might have something interesting to say and i fell asleep with the autoplay on. woke up neck deep in weird youtube playing and the dreams were bent it was one of those galactic federation vibe kundalini consciousness awareness spiritual awakening kinda vids and it was already 2hrs in i was just like fuckkkkk. because it was completely generating my dreams and they were basically all in regard to whatever the content of the video was obviously my dreams are usually in writing though. it’s like i’m awake and it’s no different. except when i wake up that thread does not exist. generally pissed because it seems to be the answers to things i can’t usually articulate all that well. sometimes i’ll catch the tail wind of it and write some of it. but usually i feel like i just lost a lot of information. it’s a glimpse of ultimate reality sometimes. a grand hallucination. but you don’t get to keep it i hate being out and having those visions because i can’t unfold them. sometimes i frantically write down keywords on my phone to refer back to but by then it’s usually gone. everyone knows that feeling. sudden realisation of something. that’s the jungian concept of synchronicity. those coincidences, minute things that seem to have some sort of significance. that they are somehow meaningful. what you would consider a vision is probably different to what it is generally perceived as being. artists have them a lot without realising it. the psyche is complex but the unconscious becomes more and more conscious as you become aware of it. sensory perception is a lot more complex than primal lust product of basic function. sign and symbol interpretation of (perhaps not your average) human is extravagantly labyrinthian. normative function strangles and asphyxiates it because we feel like we’re doing something wrong by straying from those materialist values. as björk would say. if you follow coincidence, you will find the right path. but i mean, people follow the wrong coincidences because they are so wired to lust product. i’m abnormal. i wouldn’t feel weird that you don’t think the way that i do. i’m a special case, but i’m taking the time to articulate these things in hope that it does help somewhat and they are similar patterns as i mentioned in the thread way above. because people do think these things. they just aren’t articulated. a picture can say a thousand words. so can a song. writing is more archaic and masochistic but it also can be twice as effective. it’s not universal though, that’s the only problem with it. you can break communication barriers with music and art. translating my literature wouldn’t work properly. not unless it was a good translation. that’s why i’m real pedantic about linguistics in ancient texts because it gets lost in translation quite easily. interpretation is usually pretty wrong. not the actual translation, but the interpretation you would have to be a native english speaker to understand all of the levels of my writing. if you weren’t you would get so lost. i like art and music because of it being universal. writing does work better, it’s a direct activator and the strongest m … all three together work the best. and a successful incantation of the highest magic has to be sound, visual and knowledge fused. artists, musicians and writers are only one piece of the puzzle really, coming at it from one angle, and it’s tri. i use all three. but only one of them is my original work. i have my own art and music, but it’s not on level with my writing, so i use other things that are. music is quite cool like that. it uses words, art and sound together and it does become the ultimate activator. the song without the art, or the song name might still be cool but it won’t make sense like it (should) the song title for me is important. so is the artwork. it is what brings the song to life. it’s a form of communication. unless you were a special case you probably wouldn’t even blink at a song called 123456789abc. but you might if it has cool artwork idk. that would make me think hey, that person understands concepts that i’m into. i might have to check out the work. that’s how i met RQ. thought he lived in like norway or something and he thought the same. turns out we lived around the road at the time that’s just how my dome works tho. i’m a sucker for good concepts it’s how i meet most people really. sign and symbol interpretation. he went to primary school with my mother too, just bizarre. but that is the general basis of who i know. is just stuff like that. similarities that connect us. other people generally fade out and become polite strangers after a while. there is just not a lot of point in the connection. by the time you’re 27 you’ve pretty much abandoned a lot of cargo. and it’s quite a basic operation. i only catch up with two friends regularly. just two. but they’re my best friends. not to say other people aren’t my friends but they’re the only people that are like, 101% on level with me. i’m pretty chill about not being in a lounge all the time with people, i mean..i actually loathe that kind of thing. unless there is some form of stimulating activity going on i’m probably going to bounce pretty fast because my mind is always fizzing out i dig solace. not isolation but the environment has to be some form of solace. otherwise it’s just work. it’s a chore to be around some people and you only do it if it’s required. i’ve gone through more spiritual deaths than i can really count. i’m very faded but also in a good place. i’m year of the horse, not snake but i dig the shedding skin thing i’m half horse half archer. sagittarius. but also chinese year of the horse so it’s a double horse jackpot for me. apocalypse pegasus odds are lookin sus. bookie better not have gypped me

Text $454USD. pretty steep but so cool my little sister was born on october 31st. i convinced her as a child that she was a witch those bloody scorpius type. might as well be. i don’t think there is much significant about december 5th. same birthday as dr dre and walt disney. point of that though. is the zodiac and shit. scorpius and sagittarius are at the centre of the galaxy. sagittarius a is the site of supermassive black hole. me and my sis r in the centre of the universe, next to each other which is cool existence or experience beyond the normal or physical level. she’s a videogame store manager and frequently flies around to gaming conventions and confererences. she’s in a pretty mystical world too. she’s 24 this year. i always think of her as being a kid but she’s not. does well in the gaming world. gets offers for transfers all over the place. has good connections with the publishers, developers bonus for me because i get promo discs and gear out the gate if i want it. problem is most games these days just don’t do it for me. Kojima Productions new title looks pretty good. Guillermo del Toro, Norman Reedus, Mads Mikkelsen on the cast. should be what the phantom pain should have been minus Konami’s restrictions on Hideo Kojima he makes playable films. and no one else does that. mgs4 had 8 hours of cutscenes, some being over 27 minutes at a time last game i finished was final fantasy XV and for the hype, it wasn’t that great. currently playing nioh which is like bushido dark souls but i can’t get into it that much. also gravity rush 2. that’s relatively original mechanics for a rainy day. the devkit restrictions of the 90s produced more inventive games i have emulators wirelessed to my tv that has every nintendo, sega, arcade, playstation game ever made on it running from a computer and mapped to a ps4 controller and i think that’s awesome for a kid but i’ve played most of the good rpg’s and unless it’s a social junt on the buttons i don’t get into games that much. magic: the gathering cards are cool and i’d probably play that if i still knew a few people that did. fantasy is important. it’s where a lot of people learn many things that they don’t have the chance to register as realities sometimes i swear i’ve got a cloud drive with all my data backed up somewhere else because it’s difficult to understand that my minds hold all the information that they do. it’s pattern recognition. one thing leads to another. from a thought to a thought, a word to a word. then you are fertilized and grow wise. certain symbols and signs trigger different memory fields. you just go with the flow. you don’t think. you just code conscious pattern that is already there. mystic artform. i think you would struggle to find someone that has the depth of field that i do in particular cultural scope. i’m formless and relatively selfless. if you underestimated my knowledge i think you would find your tongue on the floor neatly severed. i’m a ritual machine. it’s what i do effortlessly. i’m student at the same time but i’m also master. but i have masters. and they have masters, and so on a master who forgets they are still a student is a foolish one. i can enlighten people on many things. but i am a student in their temple too. i spend about 112 hours a week give or take basically just in mystic mode in a month that is 448 hours. 5376 hours a year and i’ve done that for many years. i don’t just scrape by the bare minimum study to pass. who am i trying to fool then sure i like fantasy. but i’m more interested in history and a lot of the time i’m probably going to be pretty engaged in things that don’t make a lot of sense. i understand it, and attempt to be lucid. i just throw out wildstyle gonzo satire because it’s fun and it eases the seriousness of some of the concepts because if you just smoked a cone it might be a bit a bit too obscured for y’all you have to be sober to study these things. i’m a freak, so what. get over it. i’m still smarter than you if you want to negatively charge that against me. i’ve been through the system and i know the extremities of how that feels, so i am naturally slightly more porcupine than someone who feels more free my scope and tuning is way more ready for anyone coming over the ridge though and the artillery in the trenches is stockpiled enough take them all out. i want to allow other people to feel free to just be who they are without fear. if someone does endanger you, i’ll undoubtedly give them the biggest culture shock of their life and make them feel like a baby i can go from zero to scholar real fast. and i’ll redline it until the valves pop. don’t fuck with my cultural knowledge, i’ll break you. you can call upon me anytime. i always have my desk running, and i always have my phone on me. war has changed. the age of the sword and siege is void, the world becoming a tangled jungle instead where you must bow, but can arrow toward certain direction. book, pen and tongue replacing these weapons in upvolt against undesired operation. never underestimate the power of a magic book i reject the west. but i still play the game. i’m not interested in petty primitive masculine chest thumping displays of frustration in cages. if you want to see the primordial scrapings of a real howl, test me. i’ve been tested enough. i deal in archaic magic. i’ll wound your soul if you fuck with me and that’s not a bruise or a cut that is going to heal so easily. if i can be of assistance in the future, let me know. don’t hesitate to hit me up about anything. i’ll go more than out of my way to help you if i can. always here for anyone that holds a level of trust or respect within my borders. that’s what i’m about. trust. and respect. if you break any one of those things then it’s difficult to retrieve once it’s gone. but i forgive. if the intent is true. yas bitch yas omg slaaay. 100 af such a lit aesthetic fam dope

Text not actually selling them but the irony of if you did is priceless. currently in a waiting room, doing nothing listening to the breeze. waiting rooms are like purgatory. killing me softly. i’m convinced that national radio needs a revamp it’s still needed. public places, workplaces, cars, even at home. it’s still such a crucial medium. and it’s not representative of a generation that is about to be the predominant class tom petty passed away, and shania twain has a new album coming out. vital information for the day. RNZ should be the workplace norm, and what people should have their dials tuned to. but there should be an alternative station. something that represents us. night train shows could be more fringe, but workday should be within our world, not theirs. it’s time that they stepped down. it’s time to stahp there is not one national station that is levels, and it’s just not vibes. local radio is just a few mates having a brew and a mix. that needs to probably change but where is the incentive? there is none because everyone knows there is no point putting in the effort for something that isn’t recognised. there is enough talent in local radio to sink a ship. defunct and operational it’s a real job to entertain and inform. it might not happen right away. but people are going to have to be proactive in dominating the scene. because otherwise incompetent fools are going to run the waves and that’s just not an option i’m not prepared to see nz’s best media presenters fade and wither opposed to finding ground where they should be. i’ve already seen that happen and i know what people are capable of. if you’re going for national level broadcast, that’s incentive. why is this not already happening. don’t underestimate my networking skills, i’m a mutant i’m not prepared to see other people take the lead in positions they are simply incompetent in filling. something has to be done about that it’s not easy, but it’s not impossible. if i stopped with everything else, and just focused on this. and nothing but this. i’d get it done. i’d push it forward people need to stop fucking around and realise that broadcasting is still important. but there has to be INCENTIVE. national radio. that’s what you want. but you don’t just get handed that on a silver platter it’s a real goal, and it’s easily achievable. especially if you partially fund it yourself through good marketing local and independent radio need to bump heads on this one. i know the best of the best, but they’re tired. tired of there being no incentive, goal or point in producing professional radio from morning shows, to workday programming, to afternoon drive, to specialist night shows, to the night shift. if i looked across my network right now i’d find the best of every single one of those slots. and they all have the potential to produce professional national level content, but it’s a losing battle in local/independent radio. there has to be a takeover. and it might take a while, but we’re probably going to want to run the waves in our 30’s local radio isn’t good enough. and commercial radio isn’t good enough. nothing is good enough. but the talent and potential is more than good enough, it’s exceptional i’m not just talking about chch, i have eyes and ears everywhere and i’m pretty well aware of who’s doing what and where and what people are capable of an independent takeover is possible, but it would probably take the resources of every operation collectively to obtain one national network. if people don’t want to play ball with that, then they’re fools but it can still be done in a myriad of other … i’m not prepared to see people wither and fade because of incompetency you want to see a real morning show? i could show you a real morning show. i know hosts and directors that would make you piss your pants uncontrollably while activating your third eye. it’s just not levels, and it’s just not vibes. night shows are important, so is the graveyard shift. because those are different people. but the morning show, and especially the daytime show. should be absolutely stellar. no compromises. it should be the best why do these shows not exist now? if these so called people exist? because they’re tired. and there is zero incentive. a good graveyard shift show with good marketing would be amazing because i mean, nightshift workers need that too. do you know how easy it actually is tho. for these people the playlist is nothing. that’s skittles. potential for production quality is high, incentive is low. do the math. best technical clothing couple of demons and a winfield red let’s get this show on the road come through looking real rude a e s t h e t i c REBUILD FM 66.6 monster and jack daniels or demon and jim beam? what’s ur flavour? feel the taste explosion whatever you do, do not search monster energy tattoos mambo was a pretty wild clothing co fully sick you’ve got to love those vibes not my world but it’s a pretty fundamental part of society here this img vault is vibes. go into the photo section and it will splice your chromosomes a portrait of the world from a different lens my contribution to the meme world isn’t very wavy. but it’s real. it’s something that is quite anti-capitalist, anti-conformist and it’s a tier that is more of an image bank, culture vault than a meme page. took me ages in the back of class at university. the lecturer wasn’t talking about anything interesting so i did some study of my own, and it happened to be that image vault. took months it’s not supposed to be a pretty picture. it’s supposed to be a collage, a portrait of how i see the western world’s influence being. it goes pretty deep, would be a little under 3-4k images it’s good for your soul, to see things like that. because it will churn your gut in possibly the best way possible. it was intended as a visual accompaniment to some of my older writing it’s gut feeling, and that’s what i go for. you have to unlock the gut. that sounds stupid but there are over 100 million brain cells in your gut. it’s your second brain. and your most important one. think with your gut. think about being centric to that area, not your head. there are different energy points in your body depending on what world view you’re looking at and your brain is obviously still important but your gut generally is considered to be the soul. what your soul knows is intuitive. it’s the highest form of intelligence. i try to speak to that feeling, opposed to producing anything else. if you can activate someone’s gut, then you’re doing it correctly. everyone knows gut feeling. it actually physically burns you have to put your mind to rest and think via that area. try it and the world will be a different place. that’s the centre of the universe as far as you’re concerned. the brain does stupid things, the gut dosen’t 200 million brain cells there, that’s about the size of a cat’s mind. and they’re pretty smart. intuition is a different machine. it’s a second brain. rewire it so that you’re running most of your process through that. just leave your head to do only what it needs to. you need logic/ration/reason/primal instinct. but not as much as you need intuition. music, words, visuals can be a real activator for that kind of stuff. suddenly you get that gut feeling, and you’re like..i know in myself that is right, or that is the true feeling, or whatever. the brain then fucks that up because it starts making dumb connections, if that part of you isn’t quite tuned yet also. they’re of two minds. but they have to learn to work together. because they fuck each other up if they don’t. you have to acknowledge them both. your gut needs no tuning. it’s good to go. your head does though. the gut does need to be activated though, it does need encouragement because this paradigm has suppressed the existence of it heart probably sounds nicer than gut but it’s gut. it’s your bloody gut mate my friend reminded me about it the other day. and it’s good to know that other people think centric to that area, because if that’s where you’re hovering, you’re doing it right. it should be a constant gloopy feeling there. like a furnace. over 200 million brain cells is an approximate guess. i think there is much more there than that. the ration/reason/logic/primal machine is just there to look after that brain, because that brain is doing the real thinking you could perhaps think of your head as the protector of the gut, but if they’re not working in unison i think things could get pretty tricky i speak from the gut, always. but my head filters it for good reason because the gut dosen’t have ration/reason/logic or primal instinct. they need each other. intuition is fragile, but powerful it just knows that’s what it does, it knows. it’s primary function is to know your mind will get septic and poisoned if the connection isn’t clear. i’m not restraining it, at all. no one should. you’ll get mad obscured if you don’t allow the gut to have some form of hierarchy. the mind will keep saying no, stay down. i’ve only ever really shown that side of me once before, this is just fortress data no one is getting past this fortress, the guards are feral beasts and they will devour you. it’s all just protecting that inner child, the younger sibling, the son, the daughter, your gut. i’m pretty chill, i let people into the courtyard but my quarters have lvl 99 demons at the gates you don’t actually have a beast inside of you, it’s the opposite. you have a fragile thing that is very important inside of you, and you summoned those beasts to protect it. it’s like having this really important oracle in the temple, spiritually powerful, physically weak. so you have to guard the oracle if you want to continue benefiting from the magic. that oracle is just a child. but it’s an important child. the temple once used to be open and free, now it looks like a demonic fortress, all to protect the oracle. dark magic is at play, but behind the fortress walls, inside the temple lies a child of light. i’m just spinning b-grade fantasy hurr. you get the idea though. that’s basically what protecting the gut is like because it’s a pretty important part of you for sure lvl 99 fortress demons and 1000 bloodhounds. i have the summon card, should i play it or burn the card and flip and see what else the deck has, because that’s pretty weak compared to the build fantasy is great isn’t it. yeah uh, your gut is like a different brain and stuff and like um yeah, it’s where the feels come from. me irl kiwi slang. card of choice got a gut feelin on this one got $75 on majesty bloodmoon go you good thing, fucken go mate. you fucking mongrel bitch cunt sliming mutt. fuck ya did you spend the children’s tuition fees at the TAB again. un fucking believable odds were in my favour, the bitch just slipped up on the last corner, was doing it for the kids. honest just popped into the pub after work for a couple of quiets and the boys got loud, you know how it is. you went behind my back and loaned against the house for what. tell me now. what is it. it’s that bloody dog fighting isn’t it. you’re tied up with the gangs. what am i going to tell the children. this isn’t good. how much do you owe them? what are we looking at here fucks sake. you’ve really done it this time fuck off back to the pub, i can’t even look at you right now next week on shorthand street my childhood was pretty much a lot like that, that content was entirely fictional but it was the same vibe with my family. drugs, gambling, addiction, violence. as a kid they think the dialogue dosen’t sink in but you’re usually pretty aware of what is going on. i was especially. my mother had it pretty rough. if it wasn’t for her my father would have been in prison a long time before he was. my father is a destructive son of a bitch how my mother held that family together as long as she did i don’t know but she deserved a medal for it. if i wrote a non-fiction account it would be more heavy than that i come from a rough background. but i don’t go into it that often. people have this preconception of me that i came from a priveleged background. i didnt. my life has been pretty much 97% trauma, torment and despair. but i’m not a victim. it’s better left buried but it’s probably good to note that i do come from a fucked up background (too) people get septic, and spit venom but i try not to i’d like to think that i’m trying to produce antidote, i’m anti-venom. i could play the venomous villain. but i mean, i’m not really. it’s just perception. i’m pretty mellow, but i’m also well pissed off. i probably have a couple of vials of venom for a few people though. and i’m pretty ready to dip arrows in it. and send a couple of arrows out thur, because i’m tired of bowing to dumb shit. i’m more interested in producing anti-venom but i wouldn’t mind hexing a few gatekeepers with some venomous potion. that’s just metaphor for saying that i would prefer to heal people, but some people need to be damaged. i believe in tough love, because it’s all i know. i think you need to be damaged in order to heal though too. but you trust a surgeon to do that. some people though, they just deserve to be wounded with no heal. and i’m still stocking venom. i’m just really not about gatekeepers. that’s why i freeflow information on threads, because people deserve to be privy to whatever i’m finding out it’s anti-venom, but it’s venom still if you use it wrong. and it will take you down the spiral staircase and tranq you out into a vortex if you don’t know how to navigate it properly. it’s powerful stuff. raw language, raw information. don’t fuck with it, if you can’t handle it it’s like studying a document. you scan it for useful information to YOU. fuck the rest of it if it dosen’t apply. simple. only suckers read stuff word for word. unless it’s legit good. if i filtered and graded this stuff it would take triple the time, and i have no time for that. people are natural filters, they do it on their own. reason that i have to narrate it so often is because the information without that is quite subjective and dangerous i think. i can’t be held responsible for how someone perceives it if i narrate it clear enough in summary and it’s clearly there. it’s not a mastermind plan with modus operandi being some esoteric thing, it’s just literally raw language. but you’re going to find some good stuff in it. regardless you could take any of my words, anything and implement it. idgaf, there’s no copyright. it’s freeware. take it and do what you want. the cauldron has enough to be more than useful. you don’t have to cite fuck all, i’m a ghost. i don’t exist. i deal in words and information. and i have well many lots and heaps of it honestly though, if something helps, you’re not biting me. because that’s what it’s there for. i want it to be used. that’s the vibe. kind of like a muse. if i can spark thought patterns, than i’m doing alright. words are activators. and this is kinda like a spell book. it definitely is like a spell book, it is a spell book. i want concepts to be musings to people, not so much copy my stuff, but like..have it as being inspiration for original work if you want to copy and paste my words you could but i mean, you would be a bit of a hack if you did that. the words are just a horse for concepts, you can do a lot more with them than that. it’s not being unoriginal, because i’m just unearthing this stuff. i don’t own it. that is honestly what it’s for. what else would it be for the amount of stuff i have recorded in various threads over the past month is actually an accumulation of years of work it’s not product but god damn you could make a lot of product out of it. there’s heapssssss of it sometimes i roll out 20hr threads. and that’s actually pretty often. atm i mean not strictly 20hrs, but over 20hrs i’ll spend a great deal of time on a thread. i sleep polyphasic so i crash out and work and go out and do chores and other shit but i spend heaps of time hectic, but it’s movement. momentum is cool. it’s mystic ascension and i benefit from it regardless of if anyone else dosen’t. but the point is to not have to justify my operation all the time and just do it i couldn’t do it without listening to tunes all the time and looking at dope visuals. i have my muses too i could but then i’d just write dumb shit like this all the time. it’s the trinity. knowledge, sound, visual and none of them work without the other. it’s life force it’s mystical az. and it’s prity trippy stuff people are slaving over tunes 4u. people are slaving over visuals 4u. and people are slaving over knowledge 4u. appreciate that i enjoy it, but it’s also work the whole point of it is kind of like, check out my path of ascension. don’t follow it, but take what you need for your own. showing you how to ascend, but not ascending you. you kind of have to do that on your own. creating tools of ascension. music, knowledge, visual stimulus dosen’t matter if you don’t see it like that. but i mean, you should an artist without knowledge and music is null. a musician without art and knowledge is null. a knowledge practitioner without music and art is null it’s all magic, and it’s all interwoven and this applies to everyone because everything is art, everything is music and everything is knowledge it’s just some people’s duty to articulate it in such a way that helps, and those people are magicians. i could show you the knowledge behind that, it’s not just something i thought up it’s history. this is a book of spells. but i mean, you could and should potentially make a spell book too. my spells might not work for you, it’s not a definitive encyclopaedia but it’s selected spells, powerful ones. art is ghoulish. ever been to a real artist’s studio? probably haven’t there would have been an age where books would be open everywhere for me, but that is hardly the case anymore. it’s all contained. but my desktop on my computers, they are a labyrinth. i know where everything is but if you saw it you would be like wtffffffff it’s an alchemy lab. turning leaden consciousness into golden consciousness through experimentation an alchemist, a real alchemist. this was the goal. turning base metals into gold was an ill interpretation, material foolishness thoth/hermes wasn’t the first to scribe that concept, but probably the most famous. alchemy comes from far further than egypt. if i had a crate of demons or monsters and a pick of winnie reds i could probably get into it but it’s just not vibes atm j/k if i drink energy drinks i drink sugarfree V but i like the aesthetic of monster and demon it’s dope i’m way more boring than that i drink peppermint tea and smoke a vaporiser but i’ll claim the monster/demon and winfield reds aesthetic anyway. sponsored by redcliffs dairy for being a fully sick cunt. onya noiice. innit. bloody ell. pearler she’ll b right mate. it’ll buff out. just a bit of a ding bit of wd-40 and some duct tape and it’s good as new. just spray it over with some matte black and no one will notice kiwi ingenuity. a bit of diy attitude and right as rain you got any of those poncy beers i’ll just go a woodstock mate, not drinking out of a bloody hippie flagon change the garage radio from hauraki and i’ll clip ya been collecting those beam bottles for a good 35 years now. upgraded the garage to a double whammy and she’s a pearler mate. got both the weapons in there and enough room for a good billy spot. don’t touch the chemistry set not sure if someone has made a coffee table book about nz garages and sheds yet but it would be a classic. likely, but probably not a good one. kiwi people are hilarious. ridiculously funny. i’m a kiwi, but i’m also a bit of an alien. so it’s kind of ironic when i have a laugh about stuff like that but then i’m equally all about it because it’s local culture of course i’m going to know about my culture too. i spent like 9 years working jobs that housed the most colourful of characters. so it’s not really ironic, i definitely lived it too. you do have hipsters these days though that are balancing privelege and it’s kind of weird though. trendy grunge pretty sure everyone i know feels the same about nz anyway i tried to capture that vibe a lot in music it’s just what i was surrounded by, it was natural environment to emulate most of my tunes were about nz wilderness but if i was to pick out ones about chch city the ones specifically about christchurch are almost different projects to lost temple there’s a loopy side, a grunge induced side, a wilderness side and an otherworld side. i guess it is the same project, just different facets of it christchurch is very grunge, if you grew up in christchurch then you almost have to know the vibe southern gothic. made more tunes wishing i was somewhere else but they are a few that are undoubtedly chch im still kiwi as. but more of like a coastal folk type kiwi it stays southern. but leaves chch anyway. the point of that was just showing that i’m still kiwi and whatever, just different kind of kiwi. more grunge and gothic. that’s just christchurch for you there isn’t really a better word for chch than grunge you can pretend to grow up. but who are you kidding. embrace it. have a ciggie at 5am on the porch and watch the mildew on the moss follow the cracks in the concrete up the driveway to the vines put the jug on and have a coffee, watch the sun come up. that’s the kind of christchurch i know. i live clean, and don’t even smoke but you get what i mean. that’s what it’s about i have a fire in my gut that i don’t need to stoke i can write all fancy or whatever but majority know christchurch and we’re pretty grungy people. but we’re also intelligent. i’m done writing quivering threads. it’s almost summer and i don’t do that in summer. it’s a winter thing dosen’t make sense in summer, unless you’re up in the early hours of course. i thought i had better make it clear that i’m still a southerner in this thread, because you couldn’t be sure where, who or what i was before. that’s an answer to my question about culture. what is my culture? i’m a southerner. that’s a different strain of kiwi christchurch and dunedin are no wellington and auckland not being territorial though, just having a laugh humans are humans. those vibes and levels are universal but chch is definitely interesting. i used to be quite territorial about banks peninsula not being chch but it still is. it’s all pegasus bay and the peninsula from above the marshlands. it’s a cool habitat if you have that affinity to see through the cityscape port hills, the peninsula. it’s a pretty cool setup just dumb as that they didn’t decide to rebuild the city a bit different. not stoked about that i live on the seaside though, and i always will wherever i live. if i can’t hear the ocean, i’m not home. writing is something i do. i’m a chill dude, but anthropology is a profession, and i’m good at it. but i’m a witch child. i’ve got witch blood. that’s just how i roll though. gonzo as. i know how to be professional. but what is professional in this age? i could raise very good arguments in regard to that but i simply cannot be bothered articulating things that i already have thrice to tenfold. old earth voodoo. that’s why my creative names are Esper and Lost Temple ESPer. and Lost Temple. lost temple is a play on words. lost in the temple. lost between the temples. but it’s also a lost temple Esper is just a play on extra sensory perception my name is thomas louis, but creatively i go by those names my goth name is Lostemple Alchemington but i mean, you can just call me thom. i mean, that’s a bit ridiculous i can change my name on here in two days, so from then on out i’ll be Lostemple Alchemington online i think. or Tidus Esper i want to start hyperlinking and i can’t do that with my govt name. tidus esper is a cool kid’s name i’m Lostemple Alchemington though. have been for years. Tidus Esper is the ultimate final fantasy name difficult switch up. Lostemple Alchemington is more goofy, and it makes more sense. Tidus Esper sounds too serious need to test them out probably worth sending out a few pilot vessels into the public sphere. music advertisements. going to have to just get zany, kids love it pg13 content even 80’s R18 kids r cray-z these days easier to gloop out than it is to be professional, but you can also use that to advantage and be professional whilst glooping out. win win situation. there are a lot of people on hyperlinks that would just love to hear some of the music i know about, and the beauty of it is, it’s relatively unknown not something i would do all the time, but it’s worth testing it all out because it’s another world to tap into. and it’s quite easily a gonzo marketing endeavour that i could do full time if i figured it all out. which wouldn’t be difficult. what better way to market music than to post gifs with music attached and a note explaining why you should. kids are into that stuff anyone is into that stuff. it’s interactive i wrote entire threads about how professionally you could do it, but this age is all about memes. and you have to meme Lostemple Alchemington has a dank stash are portals. to like countless people, it’s ridiculous and people are going to see the gif and that’s going to catch their attention, it’s flashing hypnotically so they will hover. then they will read the note, and hopefully click the link too. not everyone will but most people by then will be really interested as to what the corresponding music is. making custom gifs is the ticket this is to like, hundreds of millions of people mind you, so you’re going to get a lot of plays making gifs isn’t difficult. really easy. there are enough in gif banks to use but you almost want a consistent style. if you want to be a real wizard and get lots of plays for the content you’re marketing sounds stupid but it’s probably the best option. better than marketing to conservative people. culture machines are everywhere. not a new idea. but seldom do people employ the tactics i’m thinking about, not that i’ve seen good way to reach new audiences. just memes but memes with a focus. it’s not as far fetched as it sounds. marketing companies try to do this and fail, because A. their product they’re marketing is rubbish and B. they’re rubbish it’s the desired platform now. every outlet is attempting it. because people just want quickfire, simple data. if i can boost an artist through memes, then it’s useful. especially if i change my name, keep my page as locked down to the outside as it is now, and just allow public posts to fly, then i can actually create competitions and stuff, get people to snowball viral posts people love free stuff. dosen’t matter what it is. it’s all about clocking plays for music i think. people are getting the best of both worlds. you get a meme, and you also get a song to listen to. but you write it up in some special way. make them want to listen to it, you could market to anyone. depends on the hyperlink. but you would have to think clearly about who your market was for the product. fantasy is a good place to start. otaku culture fantasy makes sense, because most music is going to fit the bracket sounds stupid but honestly, in this world if you want to get your stuff out there, knowing someone that hyperlinks mainstream could be an excellent way to clock views/plays or sell your art i’d do it for kicks unless it was getting luda traffic. being a marketing wizard is monotonous. but luckily i’m autistic and i like that sort of thing. and i have anti-capitalist morals. so i mean, i’m not going to just do anything selling stuff though, that’s probably still viable. what do you have to sell? probably something that someone wants. somewhere any product is marketable. do you want views/plays? culture movement..or do you just want money? i think i could probably cater to both but my quality control is of a quite high level. i’m not going to push something if i think it’s rubbish. that would give Lostemple Alchemington a bad name lostemple alchemington is an alchemist’s pantry of the finest goods only. just anything culture. fuck a website. fuck anything like that. just straight hyperlinks. facebook is a page for links all you have to do is link if i was capitalist, i wouldn’t care about quality control, it would just be about capital. but i kind of see a window of opportunity where you can use both memes and marketing together to drive culture forward in the framework without actually becoming a capitalist at all i’m interested to see just how far you could boost an artist’s audience by hyperlinking to a myriad of streams. my prediction would be very far if you had the technique saying that i would only push the finest product just means that it has to be real art, something authentic. not just like, selling do nothing club hats. but i mean, you could do that too i guess cater to trends, that’s still pushing culture forward in way selling art is a good idea, prints. linking to monetized music platforms so you gain revenue. and obviously anything tangible that you can sell works too. but it kind of has to be on a level that is consistent. not like, selling minions keychains or some shit i’m autistic. i love these vibes, it’s just fun for me. but you can turn something fun into a serious operation too. it could be a throwy idea, but this one is skittles. the reality is that artists need/deserve to make a living too. and their product is actually worth something. it’s not like it’s scamming people, because the products are actually really good, and the people deserve an income from it. talented people go to waste a lot of the time when there’s an ocean of people out there that would absolutely love their work. traditional marketing is far faded if not already null it’s a link based website. so hyperlinking a link is pretty logical to reach audience. most people don’t want to taint their image by doing it, but that’s the point of creating a culture machine i’m still Thomas Louis Bigelow. the culture machine is seperate to that because i’m doing it probably on a second account now that i think about it. chrome and firefox opened side by side, you wouldn’t even know i was doing it. i could be doing that now for all anyone knows i don’t mind rolling out threads on my network but after thinking about it i would be posting a lot of single posts, and that wouldn’t be ideal. its not hacking the system or anything. it’s desired by facebook itself to use it like that. that’s how they have modelled their operation. advertising. dual accounts is the only way to go because my page would become a hive. a thread is fair use but abusing the post system on a local network would congest traffic too much you’re going to want to fly out quite a few posts if you want to get it rolling for sure. it’s legit a business when you start doing that. i’m conscious of marketing and that’s why i turned down my intern job at a marketing firm. i was anti but i see it kind of different now. memes r alg i’m just trying to convince myself that it’s not a bad idea, and by the level of contemplation i’m reflecting it’s obvious that i don’t really actually want to do it, but it seems necessary. you won’t actually see me doing it now, so that’s the difference. but i will be rolling out ridiculous hyperlinks on another account instead. algud. i’ll test it on just one artist for an entire month and see what the stats do for them. and i might throw out a couple of ebay listings too just because why not. i used to make a living doing that. selling things on trademe. wheel and deal is old school and pretty decent. esp with the buy & sell marketplace vibe people can do well with it if they’re struggling if i was seeing dollar signs i wouldn’t be fucking around with contemplation and reflection, i’d be generating. but my brain ain’t wired like that. probably could be with persuasion but idk people have really gone to town with the gifs. unreal pretty spinny. so many gifs spliced. the gif bank on facebook is ridiculous. cool stuff fidget spinners. are they like the new yo-yo or something, i don’t still quite get them, but they seem to be very popular. culture is turning to steam. it’s beyond fluid, it is most certainly not in a solid state. the vaporous has to set again, and unless there is focus it will set not right. deconstruction is good, up until a point. fluid is great, vaporous isn’t so great because that means the next step is settling into a solid state. we don’t want this to be our solid state. it’s pretty bad. because we’ve had to split ourselves into two reality partitions and because they’re disconnected it has a tendency to become septic. our generation can’t continue the trend of living a parallel culture to what we have to in society. t … there is a middle ground between what our generation’s physical society should be in new zealand, and what our digital culture is. it’s not being met currently by administration and the tension will grow until a boiling point. culture is steam, and we’re going to have to be very careful how it sets. i’m being prospective to being like 40, because what are the future generations going to grow up being like? they will naturally have this betwixt between world. everything moves on the internet. everything. but we still operate in the physical and the … the structure of a state should have pressure vents that function a lot better than the old throw the rug over the mess vibe they’ve got now attempts to restrain a state of anarchy looks fine and dandy on surface, but do they know what lies beneath? do they have a true scope on it? because when that vapour settles onto society in the next 5-20 years it’s going to be a really monumental issue. one that they’re not prepared for because the pressure vents in society are not releasing the stream. who is capable of administration in our generation. seriously, of whom is really capable to guide this state through such a time. i see a few wise minds but i’m concerned that as always politicians are going to be matrix clones embedded into the system that simply don’t get it. the pressure needs to be lifted via certain measures. then i think you will see the same plants flourish in the very soil where they withered. i have a unique position to present these ideas. most people do not have a network where they can do this, i’m aware of that but just take what you want from it all, in whatever it is that you do and use it to make it better. because i will not be doing this forever. i don’t delete the threads though, i think they’re good document. i would fall into bubbles of entropy if i continued, because i have already documented a monolithic statement upon the environment. so from here i probably will just be stupid, but at least you cannot see me as a fool now. there are threads upon threads of weaved consciousness. more than some people would do in a lifetime in a month. i’m deconstructing culture too, i’m part of the counter-culture movement and i love it, but i’m also trying to reconstruct as i go along i’m setting in place ideas that might not be implemented for a decade, but that is how far sighted i am in seeing the turnover. remember these threads in ten years, and holler at your boy if you reckon i had the crystal ball remember the credit roll on a good film. respect the fact that if anything goes down, everyone’s talents are equally as integral to the process as merely the ones that get primary recognition. unsung heroes, it’s how the game clocks i erased about 4 years of work and just stood there in absolute bliss. then it bubbled back up, and i did it again from scratch. i lost a lot of good work, but what bubbled up was even better. so i’m happy to leave this book open. it’s a real book, it’s not filtered, it’s not graded. it’s not reviewed. it’s just a book, as a book should be. the journals are better than the published product. because they say things that you probably couldn’t if they were product. 1/8 comments might be worth reading. i constructed this network to be able to say what i want. because trust me in saying that a lot of people couldn’t handle my words. i never lost a certain calibre of soul though. i see those people in public and they have a drink with me and they can’t understand that my writing is separated from thom who is in a bar or something. this is my gut in control. this is raw intuition. if you don’t like my writing, just unfollow my posts and pretend they don’t exist. but guess what, they do. i benefit from your life. your art and/or presence helps me or has helped me greatly. as a writer i don’t actually see this as being thom. this is my art. it’s speaking for more than myself. it’s speaking for that gut feeling. and that is what i go for. the gut feeling that activates that real bad jokes, or serious stuff..it’s all gut activating material it’s articulation of that feeling and if you don’t feel that too, then you’re probably not my kind of people. but you are. i don’t own this material. it’s just showing up what is already there. archaeology of the obvious, but hidden if you read this half the time and i’m speaking for you. then that’s the point. it’s a familiar feeling might not be right on point, but close enough to be like, yeah that’s what i thought, or what i think, or yeah i wondered that but never really articulated it that way if i had one phrase to explain it, it’s just simply because i am you, we are you..and i know the human condition more than just cultural dribble. i’m a freeflow writer. write from the gut, and i might be a shit person but i’m a good human. i’m still like you. socially restrained. just not in my book. i am that bottle of whiskey, pack of camels and a typewriter kind of person, but not the hipster kind. the real, rugged, pissed off but delicate kind no one is perfect. i’m far from perfect. society is a false construct and we are bad actors, play dumb roles and make bad decisions on the board. but my concepts could well be. i don’t act or play many roles or make many decisions on the board, so this is me, and i’m not really being anyone else currently though. i’m a real blunt person, cynical, impatient, stubborn and the list does go on and on i’m sure. in person i don’t seem like a very nice person. but this is different and i’m trying to paint a general portrait of a state of mind that i know isn’t isolated. because we all have that gut feeling that is independent from the self we operate with physically. i might gruffly just be like fucks sake and get all pissed off at something and then you would be like, oh..he’s nothing like his writing. but is that true? not really. this is who i am, but society makes me another person i’m a good writer, a perfect writer. i’m a dreamweaver in person though, of course i’m actually going to be a real blunt, cynical, stubborn, impatient, pissed off person because i have no time for people’s bad acting. if people aren’t authentic and straight up with me. i’m going to mess with you. fairy floss and candy apples, this isn’t a fair but i’m being quite. my writing is restrained. it has a lot of agency but it’s still restrained. if i wanted to write a real story it would look like this piwgiwi4wh[ihwh[iigwaoi[hr[grhagarhgr[ap[gpirghgkggharggrggrhfuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk if i can be a voice of a demographic in a generation where substance is withered and faded then that’s good writing. who cares about publishing special old fashioned books. because when someone in the future wants to read about this generation, perhaps my work is actually representative everyone banks up personal works. i have a lot of stuff i don’t share, but what i do is profusely raw. this is coffee table material. what’s in the studio will never see the light of day unless i hit print on everything i ever wrote and o.d. that’s bonus material that people won’t ever see. it’s lost HDD time capsule stuff you want to leave behind enough material that people could have more than a lifetime of work to gazeupon. in 2100 that stuff might be like, ultra relic to find an old HDD with someone’s work on it facebook isn’t going anywhere, so this is just like. one book. my best book. and it’s a tombstone of cultural graffiti and angst. there is no substance. so i’m breaking the mould and creating something profoundly substantial in it’s froth and wake i’m hoping this platform sorts out it’s archiving of posts a little better, because the timeline is beginning to be really outdated. could work a little more indexed according to tags you use on a post, etc. it’s more than a thesis. it’s just a living book people message me and be like, so when are you going to publish something? but it’s like, this is a published work. it’s just not marketed. filter, grade and review of a book for physical publication saps the life out of it. i like that it’s a little crazy, a little fringe, and bleeds emotive. why would you want to take any of that away when i want to read something good. i read dead journals. lost journals. things that people in their time couldn’t publish, because that’s where all the substance is. books are just watered down journals. publish it raw. let them see the skeletal fishbone of the waveform. loom, warp, weave. it’s tantra and this is a writing style that far surpasses any western tradition. bipolar autistic left handed mess that it is, but it’s a beautiful mess. and i like it. it would be archaeology for a team of people to go through my work and compile a selected works of thomas louis bigelow. but why would you do that. this is the definitive works. this is the original document. why tamper it, if you can’t see the beauty between the grime and grunge then you’re just vanilla plain. try a different flavour for once you boring old person i can write in any style i want. any of them. just like an artist can produce a myriad of styles up to photorealism, but that isn’t representative and that’s when you say fuck that. you have to break thresholds. and you get these knots. where you have to justify yourself, just to remain sane that’s part of the book. maxims and interludes truths and intermissions what am i going to do, put this on kindle? no. this is underground. i could piss out any genre of book for the kindle store but it wouldn’t be authentic. inauthenticity to me is the cardinal sin of this age. the puzzle pieces are rearranged, but ineradicable. authenticity means more to me than anything. and if i can’t present something how i want it i’d rather not at all the kindle store, and physical bookstores are a mirage. what you have to choose from there isn’t representative of what real knowledge should be. just like an art gallery isn’t representative of real art, or music stores are not of real music. you have to have an analog affinity for what is good for you, you have to seek it. algorithms these days are still enslaving consumer pattern. you have to consider yourself blessed when you find an outlet(s) that does. and i do. the artists, musicians, creatives i know are like a tribe i’m a part of. i don’t subscribe to anything else. it’s tribal and i stay pretty well within those communities. majority of the world isn’t like that though. i’m not isolated in dataflow though. i check out everything still but my affiliation is quite strong like a tribal connection. i have a strong affiliation with UK underground music but i still listen to everything else your tribe is magnetic and natural. finding the communities you belong in. you don’t know the people you know for no reason. duh everyone are different, but also the same. i might align with some people on some things and lose them on others but if they were curiously natured they would still be interested. growing up is a myth, you get wiser, but i’ll always be like this my mother is early 40’s so i get that pretty well i think you can certainly live more than one life sequence. some complete more than others. and there generally isn’t a place in this world for those of whom do but perceptive entropy. i think around this age addiction would have been a pretty bad thing for me, but my negative coping mechanisms are a lot more positive than the routes i could have taken. 27. it’s that age, the neural connections intertwined with multiple diagnoses cou … for a while i had no idea what was happening to me, and i didn’t know how to control it. but you learn, with a lot of work. the line between gift and deficit is a fine line, but if you can keep on that fine line you’re in a better position than most it’s a tight rope, life is a tight rope in the middle of the see-saw. and i done see and saw a lot a good analogy would be there are rubber barriers stopping me from going too high or too low now, but that dosen’t mean i’m not still a pinball wizard. in person i’m very solemn these days. i don’t have the energy like i used to. i’m getting older. but i like to keep it alive by allowing myself to write. the divide between literature and discourse is different. aforementioned i have no time for bad actors, stupid games or inauthentic operation. it’s channelled. if i have time, space identity breaches..then i write about it. in person i’m pretty nihil, pretty null and you couldn’t tell that such a person existed inside of me. i’m probably what you would consider to be a very vacant person, not much going on in there. that’s kind of intentional though, because i don’t like discourse with most people. would prefer to seem really vacant and away with the fairies than have to deal with talking to people. conversations are kind of like someone opening a book up at a random page and just start talking about something from there and a lot of the time it makes no sense. conversations are complicated the art of discourse i something i’m capable of but a lot of the time i just mutter minimal words because it’s easier that way. same deal for a lot of people though. you will know if someone is interested in a topic, because they will light up out a really vacant state and that topic, well..that topic they could talk about for days i’m over social situations before they begin. i go out just to have the feeling of being back in my own space and appreciating it again it’s a chore, something i’d vehemently oppose to doing it if wasn’t for the fact that i either have to do it or it’s considered rude not to attend, or you’ve neglected a friendship in that sense i’m a very minimalist introverted loner, but you perhaps wouldn’t think that. i’m very extroverted, maximalist and flamboyant when it comes to literary flare. same person, but it doesn’t translate. i’m vehemently misanthropical, so that dosen’t help. most situations i’m just observing being like what the fuck am i doing here. what is going on, this is insane. get me drunk and the sap might start to bleed out a bit but generally very reserved. it has to be a stimulating person, environment, atmosphere. otherwise i’m going to go right back to my alchemist’s shack and be a ghoulish artist i’m an interesting person. if you let me be it’s all about environment, atmosphere to me. i’m sensitive. to everything. this is who i am. but i drip it socially. here i don’t takes a while to gain my trust, i’m sus on people. and i’ll give you fortress vibes until you get the password it’s a 666 temple but it’s pretty 777 inside but it’s 666 to anyone outside simple vibes. you’re not getting in unless you know the password. you’re not even getting close. i have way more interesting stuff to share, i’m a storyteller and my library is pretty impressive. i just switch up often where i should take the book. the well isn’t running dry, i just question what i should and should not allow. not a gatekeeper, the fortress is open, but there are still elevator levels of the fortress that people aren’t privy to unless it’s tin foil hats, power off in candlelight because i wouldn’t want to endanger anyone j/k a powerful shaman was measured by how many stories they had collected. because that was how knowledge was passed. also by how many songs they had collected my vibes are quite in line with that. this is my book of selected spells, but i mean..i have a lot more that i haven’t recorded. it’s far from being finished. it just depends where i choose to go i think i trust people enough that i could go a lot deeper/darker more dangerous than i have. trust in the sense that i trust people wouldn’t get negatively effected by it. because that’s the stuff that interests me. the real stuff i started from the bottom, but now it’s here. it’s all documented, all the credible stuff. but the incredible holds a lot of truth, a lot more than the credible. you just have to take it with a grain of salt. what i was recording before was actually pretty low key but it’s like 101, if you don’t get that stuff then you’re going to be pretty lost mind you i did go pretty deep, i just filtered a lot of it these are notes already, so it’s pretty easy up2 u if u want to engage in the knowledge, i’m learning, learn with me if you want. i’m taking the time to make that a reality. a lot of that was a condensed version of years and years of study. and i recorded it over a month in some extreme hours. i’m going to lose credibility over the earlier threads, because they are about as on the fringe as you get within credible range but these ones will likely not be, just because, i find that research in conspiracy theories are a lot better. the pattern recognition and dot connection that (some) fields of study have far surpass anything anyone academically does. the most interesting field, that i see is bloodlines. family trees. i always find that very interesting. and the study in that field is way more complex than knowing who your grandmother was in the 1600’s bloodlines, especially royal and aristocrat lines go way, way back. old families, old money. lines that pre-date egypt. and they know that too there is evidence that a lot of families had to go into hiding because of certain lines, change their names. live simply. forget their history that stuff isn’t even going into conspiracy theory yet. that’s just plain old history but it’s fringe dot connecting, pattern recognition that isn’t officially recognised the kind of stuff you really do need a bottle of pepsi max and some cherry cigars to engage in. because it’s pretty nail biting stuff to get into and to it intuitively, keeping it as credible as possible. because something they just really don’t. no fucks given keeps a lot of them safe though. you push too many buttons and you would have an accident like the old days they’re quite untouchable now, digital age has made them really incredible. but the information is still there. you can’t just watch any old thing and expect that to be the truth, it’s still research. you have to follow leads like a detective. you have to find the people that were basically once professionals, but were banished because they were too fringe, but they still practice independently. not just some youtuber in psychosis. because there is a lot of that obv that stuff is still interesting. comically. conspiracy theorists are usually very good researchers. but they aren’t always right on theories. but, their research might actually help another theory. it’s just a lot of juggling and making your own pattern recognition and dot connecting opposed to being zombified by some illuminati reptilian 666 youtube upload, because that’s not what i’m talking about. it’s still legit anthropology. it’s just left the official jurisdiction of paradigm and it’s no longer going to be considered credible work. outside of western cosmological, ontological, epistemological, axiological world view. i don’t care about that. it’s the primary reason why i don’t work in a museum or something, the exhibits aren’t representative of history as i see it. to be fair i could write a couple of theses and still be within a credible range, but that’s beside the point. they don’t deserve that kind of information. i would get burned for it. someone else would take my work and i’d see no credit. that’s just how it happens. i’d appear in some journal, then someone else would take the credit higher up. this is sacred as knowledge, but it’s hidden within enough iowhgiohrighwiorh iohwigowhgiagiohgoih to be pretty difficult to decode i’m going for three parts pro, two parts schoolgirl journal and five parts gonzo journalism. it couldn’t be less clear it was unconscious at first, then i thought you know what, that is like totally like the perfect way to code my data i don’t want it to just be easy to see what i’m doing, because on the surface, it does look like nonsense. but if you go deeper, there are some very profound things if something happens though i’ll come out of the woodwork and be like, nope. secret weapon. covered in trash. it depends entirely what the future is like. but i consider it valuable. i can be called on as a specialist. legally. the future could end up being a lot like that. and it is no different to protecting endangered tribes. it will end up being quite similar i would say. cultural suppression. laws that clamp the internet right, right down. even if i did finish my law degree i’d still be like this. i wouldn’t have become some straight edged toffeenosed poncer. protect lil b task force. it’s all for lil b that dude was the originator of basically everything that you see in pop music today and he got next to no credit. dean blunt and lil b are hands down the most on level people in the game low quality bounces, a lot of them. they’re joking heavy but it’s serious junts every time car aint got no roof feds ain’t got no proof it’s mixtape music. different vibe i stack a fair bit of mixtape music in my car. it’s cruising music. just low fidelity jams meant to be disposable. that broken, detuned, warped, something wrong sound is an acquired taste. something that i probably heard first in music has a right to the children by boards of canada, it’s very activating. melting. spine tingling. most of the music i listen to sounds very broken, very wrong opposed to a traditional tuning. binaural music wonky hip-hop is a lot more common now but only a few people were into it originally. dudes like hudson mohawke. sounds like taking way too much valium and drinking a bottle of straight vodka in bed listening to mai fm but too wasted to get up and change the station not that is coming from experience i could just imagine that would be a relatively accurate analogy of the state of it there’s only one real active wizard at it in new zealand and that would be kamandi. but he’s been on that vibe since at least 2008 from memory. the whole detuned thing as aphex twin said actually came from the rave scene and people just having no idea what they were doing. but it’s become a very fine craft now. detuning guitars and amps and what not is nothing new, but in electronic music in focus. it’s kind of the norm. equal temperament and classic tunings are beginning to fade quite a lot. what is considered normal now. people want that broken, detuned, offset, beyond grid sound and it’s weird because it really is just modelled off people experimenting and not knowing what they’re up to. it’s a fine craft as i said to actually pull it off now. kind of like how people love the low-fi sounds of the 80s and it’s quite difficult to pull it off without the original analog gear. people are breaking the 1080p, the lossless quality, the gridded DAWs and and actually preferring the grain and the detuned nature of sound and visual i know i did that. it took me ages to learn how to get something sounding like tape reel and analog when it just kept coming out so crystal and perfect. VHS and Cassette is quite nostalgic now, but unless you have the setup, which i didn’t have originally you just can’t get that sound out of a DAW as easily as you could analog. it’s about layers, something i never had the time to fully realise but bouncing things from vhs to tape reel to cassette and back to digital and back again and around and down is the vibe for that stuff. picking up organic fuzz, hiss, warmth. you can’t just run a VST/AU and get the same effect you can mould anything in frequency, for sure. artificial layering and noise but it’s actually deconstructing the sound quality because it’s naturally so good when it used to be the other way around. i used to borrow old analog synths and just rinse them of every sound they had, making custom patches for MIDI because those setups were imperfect and way closer to the sounds that i wanted. when you listen to boards of canada and burial it gives you a high standard for sound design, but a very weird one. it’s like any art. you can have the sound, the idea in your head. but how do you accurately articulate it, manifest it into something people can see, hear? you could see something pretty complex in your head then draw some stick people and be like well, fuck but it’s not always about the crystalline perfection. it’s about the effect. the concept has to have effect. and that might end up being stick people and it still does a better job than a photorealistic picture of the same thing in focus i dig the detuned nature of music because it activates things in people that take them out of their comfort zone. they’re not used to hearing it. it sounds so wrong but so right, as if it was activating your dna cells or something. it’s a desired sound. now. but it did come from people just experimenting with what was supposed to be wrong. of course it isn’t wrong. equal temperament and classical tunings were just seen as the perfect sound. in this age we don’t like that. i’m not classically trained. i don’t know tunings to save myself. i just go by ear and sculpt how i feel it should be. which comes out always being a mathematical equation that is off grid to that. i can feel out how a pop tune is structured by ear but i don’t actually know the formulaic science of it. i think if you’re too learned, you’ll hit a brick wall until you can unlearn some of that technique. goes for anything. with writing i’m like that. i write in all lower case because ftw Same goes with anything. With writing I am like that. I write in correct grammatical fashion because this is the correct format. because these passages are separated in their own capsules, they are softer in lower case. i just think it flows better. i was supposed to write about conspiracy theories wtf how did it get here. right, lil b. nice one. it is probably a good entry point into this though. just because something is not popular theory, does not mean that it is wrong. Samael in hebrew means ‘venom of the god’ Enki was known in Persian traditions as Samael god of Sama. Sama derives from Sama-El, lord of Sama in Mesopotamia. the Persian tradition of Enki/Samael was called Ohrmazd, meaning ‘serpent of the night’ i already recorded a lot about that kind of thing but that’s something i didn’t add. deep in archived threads but still there if someone actually wanted to find the information. the old serpent is who i study a lot, because it’s one character that will always pop up in culture. i don’t know who has or does read them to the level that they are produced so i’m unsure if it is worth rehashing, revisiting anything older when it’s already there anyway. it definitely wouldn’t be for me, i know all about that stuff i’ve been in those trenches for years it’s pretty much like..if you’re not into the low lvl trash and cute stuff, then is for you. if not. it’s going to get weird and you probably might want Thomas Louis Bigelow back. i’m just a bit pissed because it takes excavation to get to all the good work that i did in threads, but it was necessary to not scare people too much and produce work that was relatively human. this stuff is not human. but that is the point of researching it. if i stayed on just documenting spiritual/religious/occult/esoteric topics and i didn’t post anything else, people wouldn’t understand it. i had to narrate it as it i was just a normal person taking a look at it too. but i know a lot more about it than what i was recording. lots more. i have to take my mental health into account too because i wouldn’t be sleeping well if i was in mystic states all the time. it’s interesting, but in short bursts. people can’t handle the information in succession, it’s way too deep. i employ satire to approach very serious topics, because it takes the edge off it. some of it is enough to scare the daylights out of some people. and it’s not fantasy, this stuff is recorded history. the threads are dense, but it dosen’t take much to flick to the top and skim through them until you hit the good stuff. if anyone ever wanted to because there is some really good information that i can’t be fucked rehashing over and over again, but it would cool for a few people to be on level with it too. if you’re into the whole mysterious serpent thing. same character, different names. same story. it’s pretty in depth and gets real intense but the ancient serpent is the ancient serpent. i know more than i can comprehensively record but i will do my best to keep it lucid. it’s good to have other people acquiring information too if i can achieve that, but i’m too far ahead to run 101 threads about stuff for no reason. it’s frustrating to not be able to produce something that paints it as clearly as it perhaps should be but i think in time. this is a bit of a research and note taking phase i’m just leaving it open book. and i’m unravelling a lot doing it, but that’s the price you pay for operating on those mystic levels. you can’t hold the state for extended periods. but you do get a lot out of them. the rest of it is junk, but it’s funny because for some people this would be the junk and that would be the good stuff you have to remain relatively human. people on my network anywhere from highly intelligent 19 y/o artists to people in their 50’s. but i still worry for people that might not handle me producing material without this kind of narration. i feel like especially for some it would be a bit heavy. i’m 26, so a majority of people i know are around my age but the people i align with are generally a bit older. i’ll cut the gonzo material and self doubt handbooks because this is what i’m actually supposed to be looking at. real stuff. Ea is the creator and protector of humanity in the Babylonian flood myth Atra-hasīs and the Epic of Gilgameš. He hatched a plan to create humans out of clay so that they could perform work for the gods. But the god Enlil attempted to destroy Ea’s newly … Ea has associations with wisdom, magic and incantations. He was a favourite god amongst diviners TT (bārû) and exorcist priests TT (ašipū) as he is the ultimate source of all ritual knowledge used by exorcists to avert and expel evil. Ea was patron of the arts and crafts, and all other achievements of civilization. His connection with water meant that Ea was also the patron deity of cleaners (Foster 2005: 151-152). that’s the old serpent. “Watcher (Aramaic עִיר ʿiyr, plural עִירִין ʿiyrin, IPA ʕiːr(iːn); Theodotian trans: ir; from the root of Heb. ʿer, “”awake, watchful””;[1] Greek: ἐγρήγοροι, transl.: egrḗgoroi; Slav transliteration, Grigori,[2] “”Watchers””, “”those who are awake””; “”guard””” … In the Book of Enoch, the Watchers (Aramaic עִירִין, iyrin) are angels dispatched to Earth to watch over the humans. They soon begin to lust for human women and, at the prodding of their leader Samyaza, defect en masse to illicitly instruct humanity an … i could keep going on but take what you will from those passages. i went into it in great detail elsewhere it’s just a shame the threads aren’t easier to access. i will get around to high grading them at some point. but i need a faster computer this one freeze almost constantly. “i think those angels though, were seraphim. A seraph (/ˈsɛr.əf/, “”the burning one””; pl. seraphs or seraphim /ˈsɛr.ə.fɪm/, in the King James Version also seraphims (plural); Hebrew: שָׂרָף śārāf, plural שְׂרָפִים śərāfîm; Latin: seraphim and seraphin ” … “Seraphim appear in the 2nd-century BC Book of Enoch[7] where they are mentioned, in conjunction with cherubim, as the heavenly creatures standing nearest to the throne of God. They are also called the Ikisat (Ethiopic: አክይስት—””serpents””, “”dragons””; an a” … it is said that lucifer (or whoever you want to call it) and the rebellious angels were those we were supposed to be slaves. but we were given more than we were supposed to have. we weren’t supposed to be like this. we have alien dna. (i think, and so evidence suggests) adam and eve, or corresponding characters were obviously told to take the apples for a reason by the snake. “Apples appear in many religious traditions, often as a mystical or forbidden fruit. One of the problems identifying apples in religion, mythology and folktales is that as late as the 17th century, the word “”apple”” was used as a generic term for all (fo” … Ethnobotanical and ethnomycological scholars such as R. Gordon Wasson, Carl Ruck and Clark Heinrich write that the mythological apple is a symbolic substitution for the entheogenic Amanita muscaria (or fly agaric) mushroom. Its association with knowledge is an allusion to the revelatory states described by some shamans and users of psychedelic mushrooms.[2][3][4] “In Latin, the words for ‘apple’ (“”mālum””) and for ‘evil’ (“”mălum””) are nearly identical.” it seems like the serpent knew that if humans took these things, they would become wise. “””Samyaza and his associates further taught their human charges arts and technologies such as weaponry, cosmetics, mirrors, sorcery, and other techniques that would otherwise be discovered gradually over time by humans, not foisted upon them all at once.””” you wouldn’t want a slave having an apple now, would you. or anything else listed above humans are good slaves. i’ll probably stop there because that’s enough information to mill over if you so chose in one go. it gets so complex. the dot connections. how everything all links us. from prometheus to quetzalcoatl to thoth to shiva, it’s all in the family and it’s all a very weird tree/story of the same thing. i know a couple of people that get it. it’s not a myth. it’s history and it’s very weird. that is without getting into iterations of a process or utterance and the fact that it’s a lot to do with celestial alignments and frequency and that we’re also in a new age. 2000 years later from the last process and utterance of significance other than dark age mages we lost a lot of knowledge, and what little we do have at our disposal is completely trashed of relevance. when in all honesty, they know exactly what they’re talking about. who isn’t interested in this stuff? if you are not i find that to be the weird thing. i’ll try make it as lucid as possible from here if i talk about it i always did try, but then i trashed it because i couldn’t cope with the stress of people not getting it so i just became a gonzo freakshow instead. i’m not crazy, not even slightly. it’s my defence mechanism i think that is the problem with this sort of thing. people want to know about it but they can’t translate it into their lives properly. everyone wants answers. i can give you most of them i really can. everyone has a life to live, and you can only approach this stuff bit by bit. i’m sorry that i ran a stream for like a month of just relentless information. but i had to record it again. i did the zen thing, deleted all my work and tried to live a normal life. it didn’t work. so i ran it out from scratch at warp speed it’s in my blood. my great grandfather was a hindu sage, my great uncle was a religious studies professor, other great uncle a philosophy professsor and my great grandfather an anthropologist. and they all look at the same stuff i do i’m just different because my age gives me an advantage i’m a cultural anthropologist on low levels, like i can be cool or whatever but this is my element most of the time rest in peace to my great uncle, i just inherited all his books. he didn’t handle it so well, but he was the most intelligent of them all. his religious studies were very immense heroin shortened his lifespan a lot but from where he was at in study, he was beyond professor, he was a high priest. looked like one too. he knew the truth. and that’s why he suppressed it because he couldn’t do anything. he was quite mystical. my mother was a virgin, pretty young when she had me and he said it was going to happen. not jokingly, like, in a weird trance ritual he had a vision that i was going to be born. then it just happened. it didn’t matter what religion, he knew everything. and he was ultra occult. because he knew the power of magic and it’s relevance. he was an artist too. very good one. but he drew these paintings that were like, i don’t know the style but he would just kind of hit the canvas with paint but it would still make a complex picture. i have all of his books, all of them. but after a while he just went real mystical and didn’t need them he had VI VI VI tattooed on his forehead but by the time i was old enough to know him it was just a smudge of green on his head. passed away about this time last year. spent a lot of time with him and it was difficult because he couldn’t smoke and i’d sit there trying to roll cigarettes for him and he’s just dribble all over them internally screaming but just letting out small moans, it was terrible. spoke like a wizard. and when he lost that it would have been very frustrating. i showed him a couple of tunes one day and the grin on his face was unreal he listened to classical music. it was all he knew. my work is in dedication to him because his brothers and father were not like him. intelligent but not like him a lot of good energy coming out at the moment. people are deeply embedded. i get bored with music easily these days. everyone is making plastic tune. difficult to find good stuff but its out there amongst it all christchurch gets music. but still not to the degree i’d prefer they did. is my night. it caters to the fringe but people are more into the commercial stuff some good sound systems in christchurch. bass factory, echo chamber, kindred, subtle, eyes down. it’s a good culture. then you’ve got averted vision, irie, log recording it’s pretty good. but it could be better in terms of selectors then you have the sonic arts society/auricle but that’s kind of in limbo at the moment, needs a new home. and fostercare too, but they haven’t done anything in ages. darkroom, space academy, hell hire club, civil and naval, wunderbar, lyttelton coffee company. all good spots. the rest of everywhere is terrible in terms of what they play. smash palace is also a good spot. i don’t know, i just don’t bother most of the time unless it’s something worth linking up with friends for. seldom anything worth the hassle of the crowds for sub par nights subtle usually bring in some pretty good artists. but i question why they don’t bring in others. i could think of a few names where it’s pretty questionable as to why they haven’t come here yet. would definitely leave the house for gantz, the bug, commodo, LAS, rider shafique, sleeper sleeper & foamplate with local support would be a good one. kahn came with bandulu but would prefer to see him play not grime on a system. been blessed with a lot of artists, but there is a vacant gap where some of them should be in christchurch next year unquestionably. might be a bit too much to ask to see death grips, flying lotus, iglooghost, arca, zomby and dean blunt. won’t hold my breath a sleeper, gantz and rider shafique tour. that’s pretty christchurch simon shreeve dosen’t tour. but that would be ideal. saw kryptic minds play here twice but it wasn’t the same without si on selector sir spyro came recently. that was the last international i just don’t bother unless i trust the selector is an absolute wizard a lot of audio archaeology was lo-fi hip-hop because it’s the most underrepresented scene in christchurch i’ll do another one soon. in december. might fly a few people down from AKL. grow room kind of vibes with local artists. see if anyone wants to cross paths with that idea. no point putting on anything too fringe, people freak out. would like to see in christchurch good grunge/lo-fi beats. he put a few tunes out on the lost recordings under Ashes Holland i’d like to do some way deeper nights but people just aren’t ready for that sort of stuff. EDM trap is a plague, and it needs to stahp nothing worse than a suburban white kid literally carrying a spoon around because it’s aesthetic. how does that even happen. welly and AK are pretty much like that every town night, and it’s enough to make you pretty ill i dig the actual vibes of it. like Tommy II does some good things. Jay Knight, those dudes are all cool. but the scene kids are too much LMC, all of Slo:Wave. that stuff is cool it’s more just the scene atmosphere that it creates. bloody disgusting rich white kids that think they’re hood, can’t cope with that balancing privelege, i can understand that. but i mean, go dress like that in upper hutt at 3am and act like you do in the city and see what happens. idk, just seems bizarre. swiggs was representing footwork/juke here but since he moved to welly i haven’t seen that around. i think zac put a few things on but other than that non existent. small place, but a lot of talented people but very unrepresented christchurch has/is missing way more movements than that. just off the top of my head examples. the outdoor gathering side of things is quite a christchurch thing too. movements ignored in the clubs and driven to the wild. indie/punk/grunge is a real integral part of christchurch. probably more so than the electronic scenes. same goes with underground hip-hop. under the radar stuff you would never hear about on a gig guide. i don’t think you really count jazz and country and folk and classical as being very counter culture. it’s too widely accepted to be fringe. town hall kind of acceptance. even though we have a lot of counter culture country music. a real drum & bass city. although it’s a lot more about house and techno now..from historical research it was very drum & bass oriented until probably as late as 2008 is a really good movement that i’d like to see more of their artists down here. christchurch would benefit from it a lot i think, hip-hop here is underrepresented on any platform. it’s usually pretty wild driven too. i’ve always known what’s good here, kept an eye and an ear out and my senses have usually been correct as to what is going to blossom but those people never have a hometown presence. i wanted Audio Archaeology and The Lost Recordings to be something di … the underground is like that, picks up a lot of slack and juggles things it shouldn’t have to it’s my job to just really excavate things. other people should be picking them up. i’m not solely dedicated to the cause but it’s something i still do anyway. i choose artists out of every wave that i think have promise christchurch is one of those places where there isn’t really enough room for there to be multiple people doing the same thing, so i’ve always turned my projects into quite hip-hop based ones primarily because no one else is doing it. i remember playing this one gig where there were like 100 people in the room and as soon as i started playing the room turned to about 20 people. people were just like oh hell no. having an avant-garde, fringe, experimental movement is always going to be just that. small city, so a small crowd. it’s good music. but people aren’t ready for it when i was running hip-hop nights i saw instantly the potential of how people much prefer it, but you have a few people yelling play death grips and i mean if that’s the vibe then there could be a vibe but people just need to be eased into it lo-fi hip hop is great opening, intermission music people aren’t ready for the kind of sets i play. they’re like standing next to a jet engine. that’s what you want though. dj tools are usless at momentum and oscillation. i think the difference was with lo-fi hip-hop to nü electronica is that it’s more user friendly but i think it is also marketing because people don’t know that they like this stuff yet, you don’t give people what they want, you give them what they need. if i said it was going to be all death grips all night scenesters would be like yus amazing but i mean, do they actually know the scene? at all it’s probably the cheap way around it, saying it’s a death grips tribute night but playing other stuff too. could be the next audio archaeology. how easy is that to spin death grips. and how satisfied would people actually be, especially when my music taste and scene is directly correlated to that sound. nü electronica is very popular. people just don’t know enough about it. i’ll run something in january regardless. people just want to hear that sort of thing. it’s cathartic and representative of this generation. i think it’s a gateway to playing good music because people who appreciate that will also appreciate other stuff juggle some korn riffs with slipknot into death grips. tbh i’d probably be into that. it would work if you sliced the tunes up and made appropriate wav’s without vocals people would be peaking on an ironic-trash scene. they already are but it’s legit something that people do like. it just needs nü treatment nü metal, nü punk, nü thrash, nü electronica it’s not really ironic, people legit love this stuff but it’s just a bit more high culture than the regular scenes impressed with new car. ridiculously fast and smooth. need to take a few people for a spin in it still. tonight might be the night for a hoon around grungechurch the pickup is like wo for a 1.8. so light, so smooth quite a bubbly looking car but most post 98-99 are looks tenfold nicer in pearl black than it would in silver or blue or something. they’re limited edition japan cars, you don’t get them here. took me like a year to find someone that would scout one for me over there and import it. honestly took about a year, would be one of a handful of runx s models in black nationwide. didn’t come off a caryard. you have to have something material that keeps you stoked. i’m not usually materially caught up but having a nice car is nice the corolla is a good car. even the old ones. never owned one but i question why i never did to begin with. Corolla RunX S models are probably the best car under 20k you could buy i think. in terms of ticking all the boxes i’ve owned turbo cars and european cars and all that, but that’s a teenage thing that you learn the hard way about. not worth it unless you’re buying a european car with as low km’s as this corolla with 27,000km then it’s not worth the trouble. i looked at nice audis and volkswagens and volvos but they were well into the 100,000’s and after that unless it’s basically a toyota it’s going to become more and more maintenance. too much maintenance. i’ll have it for years, even if i get another car i’ll still keep this car probably forever and it will go forever. importing is the way to go. car dealers are a real rip off. who knows how much i would have paid off the yard. yeah nah nah nah nah, yeah nah, nah yeah nah nah oh yeah goes good choice. do a skid cuz front wheel heli’s would probably be pretty good in a gravel carpark but i mean, it’s definitely made for smooth sport spec driving. wouldn’t want to mess up the calibration fuck owf cannnt do a skid i’d say it would pop helis pretty good tho the warehouse flips me out sometimes. just malls in general. went in to buy some cd-r’s and people are just completely slaved out to consumerism it’s bent. we’re just slaves. always have been. all we were supposed to be. the illusion of free will has hardly any agency. you’re always a slave to something. and humans are good at being slaves. i wish that i could educate some people sometimes and just make them see things for what they are. but what can you do. i feel real bad when i see people in malls and stuff everyone knows there is something wrong, but like..just some humans are so oblivious to the fact that they’re living in these matrix grids that are designed to keep you functioning low. it effects me a lot to see people in public places that are just so enslaved to the system. i think i broke out of the grid quite a while ago but to watch people within it makes me ill. people that just don’t see past capitalism, their lives are work, consume, sleep and repeat and it’s a systematic amnesia of reality. people’s pattern recognition just becomes brand and logo acknowledgement and not much more. in society i’m a ghost. a phantom spectre spirit that is walking around in a vessel. but i’m disconnected from the grid, i’m not operating like so many people are. i’m free. but i’m also very tortured by the reality of how free of it i am sometimes. it disables me, because i’m not able to function in that grid, i see through everything and it all just looks like some kind of sick zoo i’m sure people feel the same, but it’s so weird to see others and know that they’re operating on a different plane. i’m not rich, but i’m rich in culture. and that means a lot more. it’s not low socio-economic class. it’s everyone. if you’re on the other side of capitalism, you’re rich. but you’re also haunted and cursed. it dosen’t matter what socio-economic class you are. if you don’t have knowledge and culture you’re poor. i have the capacity to be a successful capitalist but i’m too tortured and anti-grid to do so. that isn’t an excuse, that’s just facts i could be a real monster. so many suckers out there to hook line and sinker with good hypnotic technique and brain dead low level symbolism. but that’s just considered normal. i see it as monstrous. people are fucking brain dead. do you know how hypnotically manipulable the average citizen is to basing tuning. signs and symbols. motifs. cues. i know how it all works well. but i find it sickening i believe in marketing if it is in regard to products that are implying and applying counter culture statements. but that’s about it. do what you have to do, everyone’s got to make a living but i’m just saying that i think of ideas i don’t write on here all the time that would absolutely rinse people the capitalist psychopath, i’m not one but i have the ability to think like just about anyone. if you have ever read the hannibal books, i align a lot with will graham. the only person who can think like hannibal. has the ability to think in the mind of a psychopath, best agent in the fbi but too unstable to get a badge too unstable to be official, but they need him. detective for the feds isn’t my game tho good books. real good books. thomas harris is a sicko in focus, i can think like them, so i can beat them at their own game. if i embrace the beast i can get a lot done. a lot more than thom ever could. because he’s too worried about employing techniques and tactics that he’s really against morally. but i think there is a middle ground. counter-culture is something thom is v … j/k that was amazing tho it’s kind of like that though. vs Thomas Louis Bigelow is way more powerful i think i was pretty afraid of that side of me because i didn’t trust it, but it’s chill. it just needed a lot of training because it didn’t know how this world worked. that’s the way i see it anyway it’s not a new concept. having a beast inside of you. something else inside of you. it’s popular anime culture. if i was to think about it. there is Thom, and there is something else too. i think it wasn’t ever bad. it was just chaotic and untamed. i tamed it and now it’s pretty chill to leave unleashed. cool concept. japan gets that stuff because it’s actually history for them whatever i have inside me, it’s way more powerful than thom. so why would i leave it imprisoned. if it dosen’t want to do anything bad, i don’t see the harm. i’ve probably stopped it from doing a lot of things, because it’s just furnaced in my gut being like what are you waiting for, but i have a lot of restrictions on what it can and can’t do. because i’m ultimately in control i don’t think that everyone does, but i think that some people definitely have something else inside them. perhaps it is just your second brain in your gut. and it is activated, connected and advanced compared to some people i think that it probably tries to destroy you from the inside because you won’t let it out. but it probably needs a lot of training, you have to trust that if you let it out it’s not going to be destructive (unless you say so) i think at first we definitely weren’t friends. but we’re pretty good friends now. writing helped me control it because i would let it out that way, instead of physically because i think physically it’s kind of dangerous, even on a chain it’s still getting agency, just not as much as it would like but it’s compromise. if you could only attribute all this to just thom then you’re mistaken. is ancient all wise, knowing, powerful. but restrained a lot by thom because he’s very sus on the fact that i could just turn around and do something stupid so he only lets me out in writing. it’s not really like that, but it kind of is thom writes around me, and fixes my mistakes and dosen’t let me out of this room. thom knows how to handle me, anyone else would have perished i could write around that but that was pretty much how it is. they aren’t time, space, identity breaches really. i know exactly what it is. naruto shippuden is a good anime, better manga. i find manga quicker to read, the anime has way too much filler content to make it kawaii the original hurricane chronicles was one of the best stories i’ve read possibly. parasyte is real cool. just started reading that. when you think about children’s shows. they were pretty warped even for an adult in the 90’s that is isn’t representative of what i watched in the 90’s though. i had 80’s VHS collections that i enjoyed a lot more but between nickelodeon, cartoon network and disney they were producing some pretty wild shows. from the looks of things these days the animation just isn’t quite as dr seuss as it used to be. nor the concepts. as soon as you find things like ghost in the shell when you’re a kid you come to the realisation that anime is a lot better. original x men and batman animated series were good though. anime is 100x better as a kid or adult. they have everything pokemon and dragon ball are probably the most widely known but even they are stupid with english dubs. makes more sense with subtitles really need to buy persona 5 but i can’t play videogames anymore. v difficult to play them unless they have a story worth playing the rubbish content for. a lot of the time AAA titles are trash, it used to be about the story and now it’s just about really stunning, but empty environments with d-grade storylines Super Nintendo was better. textbox storylines. that was the point of most of the game. i couldn’t care less about what the game looks like, if it has no story or substance i’m not going to play it for more than 20min my sister manages a game store and i have stacks of games they’re all trash they all look stunning but they’re empty. no point in hollow environments. i have almost an entire garage of my things boxed up that i would likely next even use again. so many trinkets. relics of times passed but i don’t actually need any of it. i collected a lot of things when i was younger. lots and lots of things but they … you just get to the point with material possessions, at least some people do, where they don’t matter so much. i have a collectibles treasure trove. i used to be all about collecting things. and i inherited full star wars and lord of the rings collectible figures collections, all sorts of cool stuff. but it’s in boxes and what does any of that stuff really mean to me now? not a lot. i’m really happy in a space with nice wooden furniture and lots of plants. i don’t need things displayed everywhere like i used to. i feel better in a minimal environment. it ruins your creativity having too much stimulus to keep you happy. books are the classic one with me, i have more books than i can even remember reading. boxes stacked to the roof with them. all good ones, really good ones but i would never reference them again and if i did i would online. not fiction books, i don’t read fiction, hardly ever. there was a point in time where that seemed logical. i gave away what seemed like a lot of things but i still have a storage garage filled with stuff. some things remain really sentimental and you feel as if they need to be kept in the family still